Discussion What’s your ideal death/fantasy?

[anyoneshorizon]

Gun I would love to just shoot myself. But rn I am doing SN. It would be nice if I had a friend that was suicidal and we could do it together.

 

[deadliftEnjoyer]

Death in combat, fighting for a just cause.
Like an allied soldier during the battle for Normandy.

That would be ideal: my family would not be so devastated, and I would be satisfied that I died for a better reason than whatever the reasons I have for ending my life.

 

[Venus13]

I romanticize drowning. I often dream of it when I'm just playing in my imagination about it. Drowning was my go-to many years ago. I can't swim so it's not that hard of a task in general. The pain and panic is apparently bad. I know my ideas of it are false.

N or fent in a comfy bed is my ultimate.

 

[Exact Change]

I'm on the beach looking out on the Pacific with my dog. I CTB with my dog by my side. Then, when it's over someone comes to take care of my body and my dog. My family doesn't cry, and no one has any damage because of my decision.

 

[whatevs]

Drinking the Koolaid with people I like and respect, think of Heaven's Gate but less goofy.

 

[almaranthine]

Mine is simple, I'd ike to have a poison that, like in the movies, you put in your drink and just die immediately after haven taken it. I always be jealous when I see this in movis tv shows or telenovelas, the person drinks, make this face of "no u didn't" and drops dead. Oh man drinking one of those, that's my ultimate phantasy

Lol I made a post about this exact thing! It's so frustrating how quick and painless deaths are depicted in film and tv shows. I realize it's mainly just a plot device to keep the story moving, as they're not going to show the agonizing amount of time it would *really* take for someone to die of poisoning or hanging or whatever... but it's irritating to watch knowing it's not that easy! I did appreciate this one show I watched with my mom on PBS. This guy poisons himself with hemlock and the episode focused on him being bedbound, slowly dying from the poison while the other characters came to interview him and get information to try to solve his "murder" only for it to be revealed he was committing suicide while trying to frame someone for his death and purposefully chose hemlock so he could have time to say a proper goodbye to his wife. It was nice to see some realism for once haha. You don't see it often though. The worst are those scenes where someone slits their wrists and bleed out in like 2 minutes... virtually impossible, but I'm sure many misinformed people think it's a viable way to off oneself.

 

[Brayu]

unfeasible for any human being on earth (except for Kim Jong Un maybe...)

Take a plane at cruising altitude flying over the sea (of course a flight with only me in it) and blow yourself up with an atomic bomb... So no funeral, no traces, no memory! disappear suddenly and definitively from this little world

 

[almaranthine]

unfeasible for any human being on earth (except for Kim Jong Un maybe...)

Take a plane at cruising altitude flying over the sea (of course a flight with only me in it) and blow yourself up with an atomic bomb... So no funeral, no traces, no memory! disappear suddenly and definitively from this little world

Would a regular bomb suffice or would it have to be atomic? Just curious. This is a stand out response on the thread and might be the most intense one I've read so far.

 

[Brayu]

Would a regular bomb suffice or would it have to be atomic? Just curious. This is a stand out response on the thread and might be the most intense one I've read so far.

Atomica... even the little "Bomb suitcase", to ensure that nothing from me remains

Maybe (on second thought) a thermobaric pump would do too.

 

[ShuttingDown]

Deep in forest, drink N or SN, never found

 

[willitpass]

ideally, just pass in my sleep unexpectedly one night. no effort required, no chance of saving myself, just going to bed like normal and never waking up.

my current plan: going into the woods and full suspension hanging from a tree. hopefully there will be no kinks in the execution and i will pass out immediately and not be found until i'm long gone

 

[AbacusRex]

Just go to sleep one last time. Maybe during a thunder/rainstorm since I like falling to sleep to the sound. Wouldn't mind dying heroically or in a self sacrificing way either.

As far as ctb N would be ideal but thats out of my reach, night-night sounds too good to be true and difficult to pull off, partial is what I left with currently.

 

[earshurt]

Ideally, dying peacefully in my sleep. But I'm not aware of any suicide methods that would allow me to do that.

Thinking more realistically, I've always romanticized the idea of spending my last day alive enjoying myself, writing hand-written letters and queued social media posts to be discovered by my friends and family, and then playing Russian Roulette with a revolver in a hotel room somewhere. If I live, I live.

 

[Gustav Hartmann]

I arrive at her cabin at the agreed time. She is dressed like a sorceress wearing a long dark blue robe with wide purple sleeves. I know that she is a little crazy as she believes to be a ghoul. To underline this, she has decorated her robe with bones. I wonder whether she got them from the adjacent graveyard or whether they belong to the guy she had killed before.

"Do you want to talk?" "No, let's go on like planned." Is my reply. I hand my phone and my computer over to her and she nodded satisfied. I undress and she shackles my hands on my back with handcuffs and my legs with leg cuffs. She touches my chest. "You have worked out? I will taste your pecs but first I will eat your heart. It´s the heart that tastes best of a man´s corpse."

She leads me into the main room. It is a little like Christmas when the Christmas tree is presented to the children for the first time. A red bench is placed in the centre of a circle of grave lights. Germanic runes are painted on the bench and a hangman´s noose dangles above it. The skull of my predecessor observes the scene.

Unlike me she has no hanging fetish but when we discussed how to kill me, she was very happy with hanging. She knows about a man´s death erection and hopes to have "normal" sex with my corpse. Sex with a living guy gives her no satisfaction.

Carefully she slips the noose over my head like a mother who puts a shawl around her child´s neck. I climb the bench with her support and she fixes the free end of the rope quickly. Relieved: "I was afraid of your resistance but you are the perfect sacrifice."

She takes her dissection knife and cuts into my thighs. Whilst she paints Germanic runes with my blood on my naked skin I concentrate on my mission: Sending her a massage or at least a sign from the other side. Basically, this human sacrifice initializes a necromancy. Her idea is to start the necromancy when the dead person is still alive in order to get a good connection to the deceased.

With the words "Hel, take the life of this man who is now hanging by his neck until death!" She drags the bench away. She believes that Hel would support her necromancy best. We have played this scene a couple of times but this time I will not come back.

 

[almaranthine]

I arrive at her cabin at the agreed time. She is dressed like a sorceress wearing a long dark blue robe with wide purple sleeves. I know that she is a little crazy as she believes to be a ghoul. To underline this, she has decorated her robe with bones. I wonder whether she got them from the adjacent graveyard or whether they belong to the guy she had killed before.

"Do you want to talk?" "No, let's go on like planned." Is my reply. I hand my phone and my computer over to her and she nodded satisfied. I undress and she shackles my hands on my back with handcuffs and my legs with leg cuffs. She touches my chest. "You have worked out? I will taste your pecs but first I will eat your heart. It´s the heart that tastes best of a man´s corpse."

She leads me into the main room. It is a little like Christmas when the Christmas tree is presented to the children for the first time. A red bench is placed in the centre of a circle of grave lights. Germanic runes are painted on the bench and a hangman´s noose dangles above it. The skull of my predecessor observes the scene.

Unlike me she has no hanging fetish but when we discussed how to kill me, she was very happy with hanging. She knows about a man´s death erection and hopes to have "normal" sex with my corpse. Sex with a living guy gives her no satisfaction.

Carefully she slips the noose over my head like a mother who puts a shawl around her child´s neck. I climb the bench with her support and she fixes the free end of the rope quickly. Relieved: "I was afraid of your resistance but you are the perfect sacrifice."

She takes her dissection knife and cuts into my thighs. Whilst she paints Germanic runes with my blood on my naked skin I concentrate on my mission: Sending her a massage or at least a sign from the other side. Basically, this human sacrifice initializes a necromancy. Her idea is to start the necromancy when the dead person is still alive in order to get a good connection to the deceased.

With the words "Hel, take the life of this man who is now hanging by his neck until death!" She drags the bench away. She believes that Hel would support her necromancy best. We have played this scene a couple of times but this time I will not come back.

wow, you are a good writer... this story really sucked me in—a black magick necromancy death fantasy was not something I expected to read today! to each their own, of course. I have to wonder how often this scenario has played out in reality. I mean, it's definitely plausible.

 

[nopride86]

Honestly I just want to pass out/faint and never wake up. Like, if during a particularly bad anxiety attack, my body could shut off and that's that. Like a stress-induced off switch.

 

[jackie_boy1337]

Ideally I'd just have another heart attack in my sleep and not wake up.

I'm hoping if I continue fasting aside from alcohol, drinking energy drinks and continue to neglect my health, I'll be able to make that a reality sometime within the next 5 years.

Or if I drink continuously for the next few months and then stop abruptly, I'll just stroke out in my sleep.

I'm fine with either.

 

[actual_fox]

Being clueless bandit in stalker

 

[UnlimitedPain]

Too just fall asleep and not wake up

 

[discotastrophe]

fentanyl. was on it for a few minutes before being put under for surgery a while back and.... it's like all the tightness, fear, anxiety, sadness, anything bad, those feelings you get in your chest... it just bloomed into the most wonderful ecstasy i've ever felt. nothing mattered, everything was just waving around me, the world was a haze and i was happy, complete. the feeling radiated from the middle of my chest out to the rest of my body, like a buzzing, loving feeling. really can't describe it properly... but just taking enough of that, feeling that beautiful warmth in my chest, and slowly drifting off into "the light" or just eternal sleep, maybe darkness.... whatever comes next... it just sounds magical.

 

[BBBB]

Too just fall asleep and not wake up

YES, I agree. Hugs.

 

[HayBunny23]

In my ideal fantasy land where nothing went wrong, I'd slowly overdose on some sort of illegal, yet fun drug. I'd basically party until I passed out, and hopefully the getting sick and dying will come after I'm super unconscious.
Drugs have too many risks and variables, so for a more planned method for myself, would be some helium and an exit bag.
Realistically, I'm probably going to end up hanging myself one of these nights when I can build up the courage or whatever it is and die. My capability comes and goes and my ability to plan/ do things for myself is compromised, so hanging seems most likely at this point...

 

[endless_pain]

My fantasy is being caught in a tornado definitely. It resembles also my childhood I think.

 

[unnormal9]

Falling asleep eternally and seeing the hand of Ryan extend out to me once again in the final conscious dream before passing away peacefully.

 

[Sammie_com.sanrio]

In my sleep. Just slowly drifting into a permanent unconsciousness.

Same

 

[Pidgeons_Sparrows]

N in my bed or in a forest

 

[outrider567]

Like actor Walther Matthau, in my sleep

 

[MildlyBetter]

Falling asleep and just never waking up.

 

[WorthlessCoward]

I got a pretty cool one okay here goes: first I become an astronaut and go to space to the farthest space station there is, I make some excuse that I have to leave to fix some solar radiation panel or some shit, go way past the panel or whatever and reach as far as I can go, turn off the radio and cut the umbilical cord, aim for the void between the stars and drift away.

This would be the first space suicide and it is copyrighted and if you tell your friends or strangers or acuaintances or whatever you have to say it was my idea

 

[leloyon]

I walk into the woods. I feel the heavy rain hitting every part of my body. I pull out a 10mm Auto handgun. I place it in my mouth, aiming up at my brainstem.
And thus, my pain is over.