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Doll Steak

Doll Steak

Student
May 31, 2025
176
I've attempted hanging in the past, But the best I could get was a black out for a couple of minutes. It was the strangest experience. It was the morning, I got dressed and just thought why not, I relaxed into the loop I had already set up, closed my eyes and all I remember was my ears ringing then nothing. I slowly gained back consciousness despite the belt still being tied around my neck and as I wearily opened my eyes I remember auditory hallucinations like incoherent yelling and past conversations playing in my ears, I swear I even heard a "get up!" being yelled. Slowly there after my brain all within 1 second was just like "Holy shit your dying" and then I instinctively stood up, my body, hands especially were all tingly and my vision and senses began restoring. It was not how I imagined it but it was also strangely comforting and reassuring. I never imagined I could hallucinate like that.
 
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SecretDissociation

SecretDissociation

Suicide enthusiast
Sep 11, 2022
394
Unfortunately, I never had an 'experience' experience. Only ever managed to somewhat painfully cut off or put pressure on my air-ways instead of my arteries. Partial hanging is really hard.

Do you think you had 'jerked' around or moved prior to gaining back conscious?
 
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Doll Steak

Doll Steak

Student
May 31, 2025
176
Do you think you had 'jerked' around or moved prior to gaining back conscious?
No I don't think I did, I just slowly opened my eyes and then it all came back. The reason I even woke up was likely just cause it was a bad setup, l wasn't even suspended in the air, I had it tied to my closets clothing rack and I was just slouching into the knot. I could still breathe prior to blacking out but I was holding my breath, then when I lost consciousness my bodies instinct to keep me alive probably took over, and I began breathing. Oh and that's something I didn't mention, that when I first woke up I was wheezing and coughing very quietly.
 
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Gustav Hartmann

Gustav Hartmann

Enlightened
Aug 28, 2021
1,359
If you would have hanged full you would probably be dead now.
 
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Doll Steak

Doll Steak

Student
May 31, 2025
176
If you would have hanged full you would probably be dead now.
I really would have, and my family would have found me, its so fucking weird to imagine that.
 
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UserFromNowhere

UserFromNowhere

Trial Mod
May 4, 2025
382
I keep attempting partial hanging, and it always progresses to the point where my vision starts to darken and my body feels incredibly weak, but I never actually lose consciousness or experience convulsions. I believe I'm either not applying pressure to the correct location, or not using enough force, because it begins to choke me out if I try to increase the pressure on the rope past a certain point, which might be because of the rope itself. I suspect, at this stage, I subconsciously think of it as a method for reducing my suicidal ideations, rather than an actual attempt at suicide, though I honestly don't know.
 
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Cauliflour

Cauliflour

I'm the doodler, I make terrible doodles.
Mar 24, 2025
727
Wasn't hanging but I did try to suffocate myself with my tie in a study area. Nobody noticed me. I only did it for like 15 seconds and was quietly laughing to myself while doing it and I felt like hanging myself at that point in time but there were people around and I instead just stopped and watched old episodes of The Simpsons on my phone for like 3 hours. Wasn't really an attempt as I did jack shit but I think the lack of oxygen fucked up my brain as the woman in my head hasn't been back since...
Sometimes I feel like strangling myself for fun but after she just went poof, I've been to scared to incase I cause permenent brain damage. Shame, it did feel really damn nice not being able to breathe...(don't take that in a sexual way).
 

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