Downdraft
I've felt better ngl
- Feb 6, 2024
- 765
Are there updates on this? Also there's no shame on aborting a kid don't feel ready to raise, it ain't even that bad.
I genuinely have so many secrets I'd don't know where to begin, but I'd leave at if anyone gets enough info about me and blackmail they won't ever have to work again, I will literally need to change my identity if it happens xd. None is illegal, also this was hyperbole.
I'm surprised everyone here is either very boring or very good at hiding it.
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feelinggloomy
Experienced
- May 29, 2024
- 251
I seem to have many … that im actively planning to CTB, that the only family member I love is my son who CTB and I've wanted to be married to someone else for the last 25 years. Wow that's ugly
annasplight
endless grief
- Aug 6, 2024
- 52
Hi! I'm sorry for never updating this thread, I was waiting to be in the clear. I am luckily not pregnant!
thank you for your concern 
EvisceratedJester
|| What Else Could I Be But a Jester ||
- Oct 21, 2023
- 3,516
Don't undertsand your "what". I'm bi but tbh Finally I just like trans womens. What's the problem ?
EvisceratedJester
|| What Else Could I Be But a Jester ||
- Oct 21, 2023
- 3,516
Oh. I read that as you being addicted to bisexuals too and I was really confused.
To be totally honest, I like everyone but sexually speaking I'm ultimately attracted only to transsexual women, despite the fact that I have already slept with women and men and had a child....
Rust
Member
- Aug 28, 2024
- 23
I secretly want an apocalyptic event to befall humanity. However, I want to be the last one to go, just so I can have the satisfaction and feelings of schadenfreude knowing that humanity is done-for.
Not my biggest secret though
Not my biggest secret though
FlufflesAway
Student
- Jul 31, 2024
- 102
My biggest secret is me. I don't know who or what I am. It scares me.
LunarLight
i'm a loser, a failure
- Apr 3, 2024
- 1,368
Well, the word speaks for itself, it's a secret, so I'm not going to tell anybody. Let alone random people from the Internet. 
EvisceratedJester
|| What Else Could I Be But a Jester ||
- Oct 21, 2023
- 3,516
This one time, I was on the city bus, and the guy next to me was eating a bucket of fried chicken, and the smell was getting to me, you know. And even though I didn't know the guy, I just dug in and started stuffing that chicken into my mouth. It was so delicious. But it wasn't fried chicken... it was a baby. It was a baby.
wondering&wandering
Too often I think about the nature of thinking...
- Jan 12, 2024
- 236
I can relate. :( I hope you find out. Idk if you watch anime, but my profile pic is Iori from Kokoro Connect, and she has identity issues. I 100% relate to her. It's a good show, and it was comforting to see how her friends rallied behind her and helped her start to understand what it means to know oneself. So, idk, I think it helped me a little.
Regardless, I hope you can begin t know yourself. I'm still trying, too. I wish you peace!
sugarb
thief of silent dreams
- Jun 14, 2024
- 797
evisceratedjester, more like… evisceratesbabies.
amnesia999
Lie, lie, lie - Life is a lie
- Jun 30, 2024
- 258
Even worse.... it was a furbaby.
(Paging @Spreadingmywings -- cleanup in aisle 5150, please.)
wanttodie
Enlightened
- Apr 19, 2018
- 1,804
alltoomuch2
Wizard
- Feb 10, 2024
- 666
Spreadingmywings
Experienced
- May 22, 2019
- 258
Oh god when you tagged me I thought of someone that keeps quoting me time and time again on something i once said here. I thought it was that agAin. Nvm. Lol.
kat6
a cloud of smoke trying to occupy space
- Sep 25, 2024
- 80
Just how messed up I actually am. I seem very high functioning from the outside.
No one knows that I think about death all the time or how alone I actually am. I have such a hard time connecting with people and maintaining relationships of any kind. I always feel awkward and inadequate around friends, so I isolate, eventually they stop calling. My life pretty much revolves around going to work to pay bills, and coming home to my pets.
No one knows that I think about death all the time or how alone I actually am. I have such a hard time connecting with people and maintaining relationships of any kind. I always feel awkward and inadequate around friends, so I isolate, eventually they stop calling. My life pretty much revolves around going to work to pay bills, and coming home to my pets.
EvisceratedJester
|| What Else Could I Be But a Jester ||
- Oct 21, 2023
- 3,516
It's from family guy. They were referencing a seen from MASH.From 4077 MASH? If so, you really are my twin
Mmm... was this person who keeps on quoting you the same person who happens to be, what some may consider, a professional joker or "fool" who works at a medieval court and who is well-known for wearing a cap with bells on it and carrying around a mock sceptre, and who also happens to be an unfortunate victim of disembowelment?
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Spreadingmywings
Experienced
- May 22, 2019
- 258
hi Could you perhaps give me your thoughts and opinions on this tbh ngl tbhqh? Srs jl jfk
Trans women 18++
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EvisceratedJester
|| What Else Could I Be But a Jester ||
- Oct 21, 2023
- 3,516
That answer makes perfect sense and I definitely understand what the fuck you are trying to communicate.
The scary woman with the swirling face represents who they are on the outside. A scary being who feels both familiar yet also unknown. Notice how she stands in front of the man, yet most of her face is obscured by the swirling concave vortex, blocking out most of her features besides a friendly smile? This represents the fact that you feel like you know this person yet you feel like you also don't truly understand them.
The second image represents the psychosexual feelings you have towards them. You want them to dominate you, yet, at the same time, you keep these thoughts to yourself because of the threat these desires pose to your masculinity. Men are meant to be seen as powerful creatures, taking a dominant role even when in bed. They have caused you to develop complicated feelings towards your masculine identity.
The third video represents how they manifest in your head. In your head, they are but a beautiful white boy in a car filming themselves, even though in real life they are probably a random woc who spends their days on a suicide forum.
Thus, after conducting this careful analysis, we can conclude that the person you must be referring to is @Chinaski since they are the only one on this forum who fits all of these descriptions.
Chinaski
Arthur Scargill appreciator
- Sep 1, 2018
- 3,243
Spreadingmywings
Experienced
- May 22, 2019
- 258
amnesia999
Lie, lie, lie - Life is a lie
- Jun 30, 2024
- 258
Excuse me while I rip my eyes out of their sockets and wash them in bleach
Maybe a nice warm bath would be good. (NSFW)
Spreadingmywings
Experienced
- May 22, 2019
- 258
Stripe19
Forgotten Martyr
- Feb 28, 2023
- 51
Frankly, i think the actually big one is that while the trauma i confess to having *DID* happen but i do tend to exaggerate things because it feels like my feelings are not as justified if they're not as dramatic, and that i will likely never actually go after the people i claim i hate for it because i have a weird and kinda fucked liking toward them still in their own little unique ways. Like, i hate what happened to me, and i hate those involved with it, but i also never actually forgot or got over them or the fun things i remember about them.
I suppose more fully/primarily, is that i actually twist alot of what i say outside this site off the inner logic its 99% true but leave in a detail or two i know isnt true for reasons because im an addict for praise, pity, and other emotions like that and think the pure truth would make someone disappointed and that im inherently less valid and thus need a slight boost to be on the same level as someone else. I never lie about the course of events but like, ill make it way over the top and dramatic when it was more likely alot more simple.
I suppose more fully/primarily, is that i actually twist alot of what i say outside this site off the inner logic its 99% true but leave in a detail or two i know isnt true for reasons because im an addict for praise, pity, and other emotions like that and think the pure truth would make someone disappointed and that im inherently less valid and thus need a slight boost to be on the same level as someone else. I never lie about the course of events but like, ill make it way over the top and dramatic when it was more likely alot more simple.
