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kilowatt
Hi why me
- Sep 9, 2023
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Lately I've been really trying to feel a little more stable and okay with myself but something is just not adding up. I'd be lying if I said I had no nice experiences or good days in the past few months but really that is the problem. No matter how hard I try to improve my overall mood, I always end up spiraling back to square one. There's no day to pass by without me sobbing uncontrollably and reflecting on the full picture of my life instead of enjoying the good things that happen one at the time. I don't understand what I'm doing wrong and how do I get rid of this. It hasn't been this bad ever since before I went on antidepressants, which was a really long time ago.
I have no option to seek help. For private reasons I am not allowed by any means to seek medical help. Professional help in terms of therapy is out of the question since I can't afford it. And most importantly I've been off my usual medicine (against my own will) for a few months now and I have no access whatsoever to any other refills or prescriptions. It's really bad and I miss them. I don't know how to handle this. I may have been addicted to my pills but it's been nearly 3 months and things are only getting worse.
I'd really appreciate any tips or advice on how to make this more bearable.
I have no option to seek help. For private reasons I am not allowed by any means to seek medical help. Professional help in terms of therapy is out of the question since I can't afford it. And most importantly I've been off my usual medicine (against my own will) for a few months now and I have no access whatsoever to any other refills or prescriptions. It's really bad and I miss them. I don't know how to handle this. I may have been addicted to my pills but it's been nearly 3 months and things are only getting worse.
I'd really appreciate any tips or advice on how to make this more bearable.