Discussion What’s the worst thing you have done?

[Ch92921]

Took Abilify Maintenna and obtained brain fog from it

I also have a lot of medical debt from all my hospitalizations. Gotta love US healthcare and how high bills are

capitalism is all about money, profit.

capitalism is all about money, profit.

I was also in Swiss psych wards. The bills were expensive.

capitalism is all about money, profit.

I was also in Swiss psych wards. The bills were expensive.

I hate this life 100%

capitalism is all about money, profit.

I was also in Swiss psych wards. The bills were expensive.

I hate this life 100%

The sooner I can suicide the better for me.

 

[Deleted member 1465]

Watched the Spice Girls movie

 

[Empty Smile]

I dipped a sausage in laundry detergent and fed it to the neighbour's dog that had bit me once before. I ran away so I don't really know if the dog ate it but I didn't see the dog after that.

Wow! I've heard of soaking meat in engine coolant and feeding to an animal and killing it, but never laundry detergent!

Watched the Spice Girls movie

Words can't even describe how bad I feel for you....

 

[Maravillosa]

Flunking out of grad school because I was too suicidally depressed to concentrate on my studies and too paranoid to take a leave of absence. (I thought my mother would contrive that I stay out of grad school at the end of my leave of absence. After hospitalization for suicidal depression during my sophomore year of college, my parents made sure that I did not return to the women's college I was attending, and I had to stay at home while going to community college part-time, ultimately transferring to a state university and earning a BA 16 years after I graduated from high school.)

Leaving a message on a friend's phone that I did not want to see her anymore — I hate confrontations and did not want to get into one with her.

 

[wanttodie]

not killed my self

 

[LuzurPhagget]

Wow, I feel like the biggest piece of shit here. Y'all are too hard on yourselves and most of the bad stuff happened to you guys. You didn't do them.

Anyway, at the top of my head
Unintentional:
-Got in a workplace accident. Hit a dude with a pick up. Broke his elbow. It will never be the same again
-accidentally flushed and killed my hamster as a kid because I'm a fucking retard

Intentional:
-entertained the idea of murdering 2 people. I really thought they deserved it. They didn't.
-told my sister I hated her when she was at a low point and knew it would hurt her
-got angry and have hurt my dog a few times. She's the sweetest dog imaginable too. Stupid too for forgiving me after a few days.
-dropping out of college a few times and wasting parents money just because I was depressed
-and overall just being a lazy, selfish sack of shit barely helping my family out

 

[SinisterKid]

I tried to bathe my cat because everything must be cleaned. I washed and washed as he cried clawed and tried to scratch his way to freedom. Then to top it off I blow dried him. I used the warm setting instead of hot but I still can't get past the fact that he cried so much.

I'm such a god awful person!!! I pray they dont send me to the firing squad for this infraction...oh the sheer horror of how my actions may be judged!!!

The only reasonable punishment is suicide!!!

You are one sick focker for sure

Nothing I have ever done has been enough to make me who I am today. No one thing anyway. I have done many stupid things, many times, but I have never been a horrible type of person who does horrible things to others, just not my nature. I bought a homeless guy a sandwich and gave him £10 on Sat, thats what I am about. I leave the horrible shit to all the nasty bastards out there and there are plenty of em.

 

[c824767]

I have not talked to my mom for almost 3 years

You are one sick focker for sure

Nothing I have ever done has been enough to make me who I am today. No one thing anyway. I have done many stupid things, many times, but I have never been a horrible type of person who does horrible things to others, just not my nature. I bought a homeless guy a sandwich and gave him £10 on Sat, thats what I am about. I leave the horrible shit to all the nasty bastards out there and there are plenty of em.

OMG you are an ATM machine. My boyfriend is like that, he is so broke but he always finds another bank to loan him money so he can spend it on the homeless.

 

[MeltingHeart]

Don't think
I've done anything horrible & messed up to deserve feeling like I have to ctb. Should I be to blame for feeling this way? The only messed up thing I did was not demand to be listened to & demand help before it got this bad.

 

[Nem]

Stayed with my ex when I should've left her at the beginning, fucking sociopathic bitchface
Peace/hugs

 

[c824767]

Don't think
I've done anything horrible & messed up to deserve feeling like I have to ctb. Should I be to blame for feeling this way? The only messed up thing I did was not demand to be listened to & demand help before it got this bad.

demand now

 

[rata1]

i don't really know. i don't remember. i surely hurted two or three or even more persons in my life without wanting to hurt them, and without seeing what i was doing. it even were people i liked and they liked or loved me. but i am not able to see this kind of emotions. thats my burden. other things i regret but that didn't hurt or damage nobody are two decisions i took in my life or that i didn't take. i don't know but perhaps if i had taken another way in my professional life i would feel (perhaps, who knows...) better. and a second professional decision or bad luck was that i called too late and didnt get a job that wouldnt stress me as much as my actual job does. but to summarize, i don't really remember and nobody is able to see what would be today if the time continuum would have been changed years ago... have a nice day all

 

[c824767]

i don't really know. i don't remember. i surely hurted two or three or even more persons in my life without wanting to hurt them, and without seeing what i was doing. it even were people i liked and they liked or loved me. but i am not able to see this kind of emotions. thats my burden. other things i regret but that didn't hurt or damage nobody are two decisions i took in my life or that i didn't take. i don't know but perhaps if i had taken another way in my professional life i would feel (perhaps, who knows...) better. and a second professional decision or bad luck was that i called too late and didnt get a job that wouldnt stress me as much as my actual job does. but to summarize, i don't really remember and nobody is able to see what would be today if the time continuum would have been changed years ago... have a nice day all

you are a victim of inhumane capitalism

 

[Rob4510]

I did some really bad stuff to my family a couple of years back, when I was 14, including emotional and verbal abuse. I put my mom into therapy.

 

[noctiva]

I don't know what I've done that lead me here. I honestly don't know, and it is killing me. If I knew, maybe I could make peace with my mistakes, maybe I could ask to be allowed to try and undo them... But I've wrecked my brain and I don't know. I just know that I need to die for whatever I did. I just don't know when yet.

 

[MeltingHeart]

demand now

i would but ive been trying to call out for a little help, tiny bit of attention my whole life, exhausted now, just want out. c'est la vie.

 

[c824767]

I feel like that often, especially when the whole world feels like it is assaulting its humans. But I want a voice for myself and for those who are made unhappy by the context of this planet's ethical devolution.

 

[orangemushroom]

Being born.