Venting What's the worst that you have ever experienced ?

[S like Siren]

Depression....lonliness...not being accepted and loved neither by the ones that brought you to the world.
Being tortured emontionally.
The worst i experienced is my life itself...it is hell infact.

 

[KinderEgg]

Domestic violence and control for me.

 

[Namelesa]

School and abandonment.

 

[Crow_88]

For myself it was being homeless.

Same.

 

[Csmith8827]

"looking like a monster from the twilight zone" for years on end while living in the streets and begging for money. It was such an evil thing for me to go through but I just soldiered through it and drank daily. It was like a living hell everyday...but I just had heart and kept on keeping on. I hoped people would see me in a different light or see me as a human being/person and not try to be like evil to me regarding looks. I met some decent people who saw me as a person and tried to be kind anyways...you had your scumbags/douchebags/assholes as well. Some pretty raw moments there with people being bitches...but it's all good. Those were rare..in fact theres only like 1 occasion i recall where anyone was an evil bitch to me regarding looks and that was like this chick and these people...etc..etc......for the most part I guess people were nice to me...Just happy that's all over with though. There's absolutely no forgiveness for putting a human being through that though. It's just plain evil and wrong and fucked up.

 

[Schnipsel]

CN: rape, violence

Being trans.
Looking in the mirror and immediately getting urges to jump off the balcony every morning in your teenage years, trying to cbt when you were 12, getting beat up on the street for just existing, men cornering you and threatening to rape you cause they always wanted to rape a "faggot tranny", getting beat up no matter if I go to the men's or women's bathroom. I could go on for a while.

It's always the best thing I ever experienced, but honestly the bad doesn't outweigh the good.

 

[22yearsbroken]

Between losing my mum at 16.. and trying to bring yp my sister who was 12.. then loaing all my gran parents.. losing 3 friends in a car crash and my best feiend 3 years ago .. im 46 and my first funeral was at 16.. ive attended a total 22 now ... but the fact i never got to see my daughter grow up .. due to her motger telling me.. the kid wasnt mine.. that oain hurts More than ..anytbing

 

[thinkkank]

when I was younger I suffered from anxiety, especially the day before school started. That was brutal. My anxiety and some other issues forced me to be put in a mental home for months. The first night in that place was terrifying. When I finally left and had to return to school it was extremely awkward because everyone was told that I has in a mental home for months. The night before and the day I arrived back at school was extremely difficult to deal with as well.

I have a funny feeling life has worse things in store for me. I will return periodically to this post when that happens.

CN: rape, violence

Being trans.
Looking in the mirror and immediately getting urges to jump off the balcony every morning in your teenage years, trying to cbt when you were 12, getting beat up on the street for just existing, men cornering you and threatening to rape you cause they always wanted to rape a "faggot tranny", getting beat up no matter if I go to the men's or women's bathroom. I could go on for a while.

It's always the best thing I ever experienced, but honestly the bad doesn't outweigh the good.

I'm sorry to hear that. Did you move out of that place or report it as a hate crime?

 

[anonymous568]

Being born

 

[divinemistress36]

A guy I was kind of dating was drunk and is a doctor by trade adjusted my neck to hard and tore artery in neck leading to blood clot to brain. My friend said I kept telling him to leave my neck alone but finally agreed to it . To me it was an assault

 

[FoxSauce]

My childhood making ends meet, dealing with constant fear everyday. The dread dread of being in school.

Another one will be a few months before the pandemic that an earthquake strucked at 6:20 am with a magnitude of 6.4. Was the worst day of my life.

 

[fallingbehind]

I dont want to sound like a moronic edgy fuck but genuinely it wasnt one singular incident that I can try to pinpoint as the "worst experience" outside of being born the way I am.
I tried for years to change my natural disposition, tried to "enjoy" myself and find hobbies, make friends and have goals but it never lasted because I am fundamentally fucked mentally.

 

[SchizoGymnast]

Back in 2019, I gave a patient in my care a massive overdose of morphine. I recognized my mistake but because the man was a hospice patient, they initially refused to save his life. With some advocacy on my part, and the part of the nurse working with me, we were authorized to use Narcan and he was revived. He lived a full life for another couple of months and I even got to say goodbye to him and apologize to him just a couple hours before his death.

Unfortunately my nightmare was not yet over. I was investigated by my company, by licensing, and by adult protective services. They initially implied that I had tried to kill him on purpose.

Shortly after that, I blacked out during a shift, carved demon-themed messages into my arm, and made a noose from an extension cord with plans to hang myself in the basement.