Broken Chimera
The abyss also gazes into you
- May 27, 2019
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"What am I gonna do if you died?" So I'm supposed to keep going through my problems and pain that's lasted for years so you don't have to feel bad for a few days?
That's why someone like Robin Williams choosing to go made such a positive impact on my desire to CTB. He discovered he was on the losing end of a very serious degenerative dementia and took himself out before it could melt his brain.
He wasn't just funny, he was smart and used his intelligence to save himself pain. He's a true hero from every angle.
I'm suffering, maybe not as rapidly deteriorating as he was, but the option is there to be free of all pain if I just reach out and take it. It's always there as an option.
I told my husband years ago about my pain sometimes causes me to wish I were dead, he said "If you kill yourself, I'll kill myself too, and imagine the heartache that will cause our family."
I had an ex-friend tell me that my depression was "bumming her out, and I should stop it." Same friend, different day told me I should just go ahead and kill myself since "you're no fun to be around anymore", just because I told her I couldn't drink due to my meds. (I was taking Amitriptyline at the time). Luckily she moved away. I wasn't mentally ready at that point in my life to separate myself from her toxicity. She was the only "friend" I had during this time in my life, and I didn't want to be alone.
This isn't exactly a anti-suicide advert but its something everybody says, ''You're not alone''. This is so dumb like why are you telling me I'm not alone other people who feel like me can't save me.
Another thing is ''Life gets better'' this could be true because nobody can tell the future but I heard someone say this ''if it wasn't better then why would it be better now''. So that last quote is my mindset really.
Wow. Reminds me of the cases where attempted suicides ended in a death penalty. Win win I guess."If you commit suicide you're technically a murderer"
- someone trying to talk me out of it
Ha my problem is permanent tho. Its physicalSuicide is a permanent solution to temporary problems.
Somebody needs to tell me why this is a bad thing. When your clutch plate breaks, do you look for a temporary solution?Suicide is a permanent solution to temporary problems.
I've heard stupid things like that myself. Like yes I'm depressed cause I think it'll solve my problems.The best line came from my own mother as a response to me tryingto talk to her.
She said: "Why are you depressed? Being depressed isn't gonna help you."
It could also get worse so. ...This isn't exactly a anti-suicide advert but its something everybody says, ''You're not alone''. This is so dumb like why are you telling me I'm not alone other people who feel like me can't save me.
Another thing is ''Life gets better'' this could be true because nobody can tell the future but I heard someone say this ''if it wasn't better then why would it be better now''. So that last quote is my mindset really.
That's exactly what I always think. Who the hell would pass up a permanent solution to their problems??Somebody needs to tell me why this is a bad thing. When your clutch plate breaks, do you look for a temporary solution?
"If everyone who had a bad experience in life committed suicide there would be no one left on the planet"
"WHAT WOULD YOUR FUTURE CHILDREN WAITING IN HEAVEN THINK?" NO. FUCKING. JOKE. I think I was 17
Suicide is a permanent solution to temporary problems.
That is the worst, because you dont want your life lol. It would be better if someone said life is short, itll end''But you're young, you have your whole life ahead of you''
Any talk about how selfish suicide is.
Hear hearI have been looking through for a comment like this, I have been told its selfish as Its not thinking of those left behind!!! OK Cool Ill just sit here in life in eternal hell to keep you guys happy, because you know your happiness is more important then mine