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leavingsoon99
I'm at peace... Finally.
- Mar 16, 2023
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Hello. This is my first actual post on this forum. I've replied and commented on several posts but have never created one. I guess this is a good way to make a pseudo journal of sorts. Anyway, this question pops up in my head every day. What's the motivation? Why am I getting out of bed. I'm nearing the date I've chosen for my CTB. So, I have to find motivation to get from day to day until that time. Some days are easier than others to do so. Part of doing this is to remind myself how pointless my life is. Other than feeding my body that's breaking down on me daily since the age of 39, what is the motivation? I guess that, for today, I'll just look forward to making some art. I don't want to socialize anymore. I don't want to date anymore. I don't care about the self-inflicted absurdities of the human condition anymore. So I just busy myself with small, fulfilling projects and goals.
Does anyone relate?
Does anyone relate?