Saxenomorph

Saxenomorph

Life's not fair, is it?
Mar 2, 2023
80
It's usually shame and anger for me. For some reason people can't stop mocking me (I don't even interact with them or act weird in front of them) and making me angry with their stupid behavior (people say I shouldn't give a shit but I can't, their choices affect my life most of the time). I barely feel other emotions like happiness, sadness, fear etc.
 
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neverwashere

neverwashere

Self sabotaging to cope with it all
Apr 25, 2023
73
i don't know if it's the antidepressants i'm on or what, but i don't feel any emotion. it's just this hollowness that eats at me from the inside out, but I wouldn't call it "sadness" or "anger". It's justa void where i should be feeling emotions
 
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WAITING TO DIE

WAITING TO DIE

TORMENTED
Sep 30, 2023
1,539
Mine is anger.
Anger from my horrific childhood abuse.
Anger from my mental illnesses.
Anger at the stupid human race.
Anger that I can't get Nembutal.
 
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princexhhn

princexhhn

call me prince
Sep 26, 2023
109
I am in a constant state of anxiety and paranoia LOL
 
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zeek

zeek

omg mokocchi
Oct 18, 2023
138
its kinda just this bleh feeling, where im just here, existing, and my mouth is dry and my breath feels really heavy
 
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Celerity

Celerity

shape without form, shade without colour
Jan 24, 2021
2,733
Exasperation.

I am tired of dealing with the same old bullshit, the same stupid tendencies with the same predictable results.

I am angry at how much of my life I have wasted and can only hope I do better with the time I have left.
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
8,800
Worry. I'm pretty much always worrying about something and I'm so tired of it.
 
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helpmegetout

helpmegetout

lost
Oct 19, 2023
7
Loneliness.
 
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moondazed

moondazed

ex nihilo nihil fit
Oct 14, 2023
169
Shame. It eats your heart
 
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Saxenomorph

Saxenomorph

Life's not fair, is it?
Mar 2, 2023
80
Exasperation.

I am tired of dealing with the same old bullshit, the same stupid tendencies with the same predictable results.

I am angry at how much of my life I have wasted and can only hope I do better with the time I have left.
It's even worse when your life is mostly empty because of things you couldn't control, like mental health or abuse.
 
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Unhumanly.

Unhumanly.

Recovery are not the winner.
Feb 24, 2023
251
I used to feel anger so much,

but I don't know.. I don't know anymore, things doesn't really anger me the way it used to,

I kind of give up asking why and just WHY is the circumstances in my life and kind of accepted that life has placed me this way, this is the path that have been carved for me, and I know the next things it will be leading me to is the very end of everything

So to get it straight : it used to be anger but now it's more like tiredness, I think... I don't even know.
 
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Saxenomorph

Saxenomorph

Life's not fair, is it?
Mar 2, 2023
80
I used to feel anger so much,

but I don't know.. I don't know anymore, things doesn't really anger me the way it used to,

I kind of give up asking why and just WHY is the circumstances in my life and kind of accepted that life has placed me this way, this is the path that have been carved for me, and I know the next things it will be leading me to is the very end of everything

So to get it straight : it used to be anger but now it's more like tiredness, I think... I don't even know.
Sounds like apathy, something that appears with depression.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
37,036
I just feel tired of existing and I also very often feel a lot of dread for what lies ahead. It's such a curse to be a conscious being, the only relief for me certainly lies in ceasing to exist.
 
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Saxenomorph

Saxenomorph

Life's not fair, is it?
Mar 2, 2023
80
I just feel tired of existing and I also very often feel a lot of dread for what lies ahead. It's such a curse to be a conscious being, the only relief for me certainly lies in ceasing to exist.
People who think about future like us always suffer more, most people are like animals (all they do is eat, sleep, breed etc.) that's why the majority consist of happy people.
 
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Sylveon

Sylveon

...Anomaly
Oct 10, 2023
485
A weird, uneasy feeling of tiredness(?); can't describe it in words.
 
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Dead Horse

Dead Horse

Hopeless, but literally
Nov 14, 2018
150
A feeling of hopelessness. That my life is not in my hands anymore and that if there was ever any hope for me, it was in the past.
 
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deathviahanging

deathviahanging

caring is boring
Sep 28, 2023
33
for me it has to be frustration, whether it be from studies, relationships, expecting more from ppl or just flat out wanting to be left alone. sometimes it's a mix of everything combined. when it comes down to it everything is troubling one way or another
 
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Orange Cat

Student
Oct 19, 2023
142
Constant anxiety
 
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S like suicide

S like suicide

Enlightened
Apr 29, 2021
1,435
Constant suicidal thoughts.
 
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sash

sash

f/uk seeking partner to vanish with
Oct 1, 2023
203
Despondent.
 
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Altalune

Altalune

alea iacta est
Oct 21, 2023
48
Currently, peace and apathy. Nothing matters anymore because I'm leaving, and I will live my final days as I wish. I miss my boyfriend, so there's some sadness in there, but it's not about the fact that I'll ctb soon.
 
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Agon321

Agon321

I use google translate
Aug 21, 2023
1,395
Anger and fear. Sometimes these two feelings combine and a specific mixture is created.
 
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Saxenomorph

Saxenomorph

Life's not fair, is it?
Mar 2, 2023
80
Currently, peace and apathy. Nothing matters anymore because I'm leaving, and I will live my final days as I wish. I miss my boyfriend, so there's some sadness in there, but it's not about the fact that I'll ctb soon.
Same here, i've been completing my bucket list for the last few weeks. I don't care about life anymore.
 
lycheeginger

lycheeginger

no alarms and no surprises
Oct 21, 2023
17
Regret. Dealing with some irreversible choices that have changed my body, mind, and life. I spend most of my day thinking about it.
 
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HollowDrop

HollowDrop

ah
Oct 4, 2023
135
Worthlessness. My childhood taught me I am not worth anything to other people and my brain is since then permanently wired to be stuck like this, rendering me unable to form meaningful human contacts.
 
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BananiFatFat

BananiFatFat

Member
Oct 20, 2023
19
It would be disappointment and shame.
 
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Jarni

Jarni

Love is a toothache in the heart. H.Heine
Dec 12, 2020
369
disarray and stunned astonishment
 
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ChantDuCygne

ChantDuCygne

Member
Aug 23, 2023
31
Guilt. So much overwhelming guilt. The second would be despair and the third would be fear.
 
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