What's something you'd love to do before you ctb

[Sslsh]

I've never been on a solo vacation. So I'd love to have a solo vacation that ends with ctb. I'd love to do it in a beach side resort. So ideally, I'll make a reservation for 4-5 days, roam around town, visit places and then ctb in peace on the night before the last day. I'm actually exited for it, because as I have social anxiety, I've never really had the courage to embark on a vacation myself. This time I will know things will end, so I'll enjoy myself without caring about my anxiety.

 

[finish.me]

this is literally my exact fantasy, down to the T. i'd just want to go on a crazy long bender until my money runs out and get a really nice hotel room to ctb

 

[motel rooms]

 

[brokenwaves]

i lost my ability to read for the past few years of my life due to mental illness. i could not get through even a single chapter of a book, when before i was an avid reader and for years had studied literature (in both english & french) in university. i felt like i lost who i was and then all of a sudden i recently got my ability back and have read about 15 books since april. it has been a beautiful thing to experience one of my favourite things again before i ctb - so there is nothing else i wish to do now, i'm at peace finally

 

[insanedoomer]

TO DIE .

 

[FuneralCry]

That is a nice idea, travelling. I do like the countryside and mountains and I would like to spend time in nature before ctb. However that is not realistic for me and I do not have the energy for anything like that. All I want to do is just sleep all day really. I am not really capable of enjoying anything at this point.

 

[nerve]

There's a lot of sex/drug things I never got to experience :c So I'd love to get totally wrecked and then have wild sex with someone/s I barely know

 

[newave3]

I would like to eat a peach.

 

[BottomlessPit]

I unironically just want to have some kfc..

 

[hʚll]

i want to do some drugs and feel like there is no me o anything.right after that, i kill myself smiling

 

[WornOutLife]

Do something extreme such as parachuting, visit my family, get drunk, lots of sex, play with my dogs a lot and then just die while smiling.

 

[Pisceslilith]

Get some tattoos and piercings, maybe dye my hair some crazy colours.

 

[Jumping_realms]

Do something extreme such as parachuting, visit my family, get drunk, lots of sex, play with my dogs a lot and then just die while smiling.

Funny you say that, a friend sent me a video he got done with a sky dive package he did, attached to the instructor yesterday. It was way cheaper than I thought, I might do it before I CTB. It's only $280USD.

 

[allthebodiesinthesea]

gave myself a shitton of good food 4 a last meal + drug bender last few days, still feels like i missed smth but i can't imagine having done it differently

 

[Pure]

Solo vacation too that ends in my death. Nothing fancy tbh, just a trip to a different town in my state for a few days with a hotel stay.

 

[ming]

Experience the feeling of being hugged and kissed by someone who truly loves me :')

 

[bunnies]

good food, would love to have access to my favorite drugs. someone i know once smoked opium at the top of a waterfall and that's been a bucket list item. it was actually the first thing that came to mind. i have always been a hedonist, i truly live for pleasure anywhere that it can be found… so trying to create pleasure is what i want at the end. i know it's not going to end that way, but it's a nice thought

 

[UKscotty]

What's the point though, once we are dead it all counts for nothing anyway.

 

[NIÑAESTUPIDA]

I would like the person I love to say he wants to die too because he can not be with me.

 

[idonntseethepoint]

One last camping trip, one last hike, one last dive

 

[Hurt]

I'm dead inside and everything I do I don't feel anything. So it's pointless to keep doing things.

 

[Seaghost]

I'd like to do the wing suit thing

 

[stygal]

I will take off a few weeks from work and get all my fave foods and watch re-runs of my fave shows (I'm boring) - tried the whole getting in contact with others for a last time this summer and it wasn't for me - eating and chilling is more up my alley :D