okkkk

okkkk

just ignore me3
Jun 28, 2019
97
Whats your wildest fantasy about a change in your life that would make you happy and exited to live every day? Mine would be to be able to travel around playing music in a band. Ive been learning a lot about genres and trends latley and its interesting how some things make such huge marks on popular culture. I think I have the skills for it but I dont have any friends and I have really severe anxiety. Im just in a really horrible place in life it makes me break down to even think about it. Ideally id like to inject humor into it too, I really think music and comedy go so well together. Im really into standup too, so being able to do that at night would be great.
 
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marcusuk63

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Mar 24, 2019
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Onomotopoeia

Experienced
Feb 8, 2019
264
I wish I could answer this question. If I could I might have a start to a path for recovery for myself.

If you like music practice, if you like stand up write something.

Once nothing matters getting that back has been impossible for me.

All i want out of life now is to not have to work. While not going to work will not bring my joy it will alleviate stress. That is the best i have hope for.
 
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littlelady774

littlelady774

running on empty
Dec 20, 2018
708
A drink that wipes my memory
 
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Deep Breaths
Aug 25, 2018
534
"Legislation has just been passed that makes euthanasia accessible by the mentally ill."

"Every politically conservative thinker has been suddenly wiped off the planet."

A multimillion-dollar windfall might do the trick as well. For a time.
 
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DreamCatcher

DreamCatcher

Still searching
Jun 18, 2019
221
Emotionally something like the idea of good food of some kind makes me excited to wake up. It's also what I use to bribe myself to go to work., the idea that I can get anything I want to eat afterwards as a reward.

Logically it'd take something like a million dollars in the bank and nothing in the schedule. So I could do whatever I felt like or do nothing at all.

There really isn't much else.
 
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StillWaiting

StillWaiting

Need cats to comfort me
Jul 28, 2018
550
To have unlimited amount money to spend so that I am not forced to do things that I don't want and not be a wage slave.
 
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Jon86

Jon86

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Apr 9, 2018
369
My physical health which is lost forever.
 
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Marian

Marian

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Jun 14, 2019
12
Have a family that loves me or someone
 
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Punished

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Jun 17, 2019
27
I'd have my son back.
 
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okkkk

okkkk

just ignore me3
Jun 28, 2019
97
Have a family that loves me or someone
oh my god this. Ive basically only been searching for this. This is all ive ever wanted. Not even a literal "family" just a couple people that care about my hapiness and wellbeing. I love you marian, dont loose hope.
 
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deltahead

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May 28, 2019
160
knowing that i have a fast, easy, reliable way to kill myself and as much time as i need to do it without any problems or outside interference.

anything else, no matter how objectively good or lucky or downright amazing, would just stir a fear response in me that would never go away.
 
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262653

Cluesome
Apr 5, 2018
1,733
War, local mass hostilities.
Thunderstorm, heavy rain. But more excitement from thunder.
Having my whole family perished. With or without me.
Nightmare. Bonus points if it's vivid.
Waking up with superpowers. Feeding purely on solar energy, invulnerability (with vulnerable right heel, or ass; Achilles' ass; Achillass), force jumps, water magic, mind affection, telekinesis... Being able to withstand extremely hot temperatures so that I could bathe in lava... No more spending half an hour rubbing myself with bicarbonate and washcloth.
Being able to induce a lucid dream or some body experience at will, having mastery over my own imaginary world.
A reliable, loaded gun to mix with hanging method. 95%+95%=190%. Foolproof.
Extraordinary, remarkable nervous system to swiftly process a lot of stuff and deal with intense emotions without denial and overload.
Purple infinity stone (aka suicide stone) in my commode.
Big, beefy woman in my bed or in close proximity.
Or lots of dollars, really, or euros.
 
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Foresight

Enlightened
Jun 14, 2019
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Not having to go to work and just being able to spend the day with my pets
 
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rata1

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May 8, 2019
448
be myself, feel myself, being able to decide what to do instead of react to triggers. live without my mental compulsions
 
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vulturecyclop

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May 23, 2019
83
To live in a first world country with better education and job opportunities.
 
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pole

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Sep 18, 2018
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Whats your wildest fantasy about a change in your life that would make you happy and exited to live every day? Mine would be to be able to travel around playing music in a band. Ive been learning a lot about genres and trends latley and its interesting how some things make such huge marks on popular culture. I think I have the skills for it but I dont have any friends and I have really severe anxiety. Im just in a really horrible place in life it makes me break down to even think about it. Ideally id like to inject humor into it too, I really think music and comedy go so well together. Im really into standup too, so being able to do that at night would be great.
What would make me excited and look forward to waking up?

a person i love, that i can cherish and love and who would love me back and accept me for who i am and was and me do the same with her.
 
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marcusuk63

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Mar 24, 2019
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What would make me excited and look forward to waking up?

a person i love, that i can cherish and love and who would love me back and accept me for who i am and was and me do the same with her.
"The greatest thing you'll ever learn is just to love and be loved in return"
 
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pole

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Sep 18, 2018
1,385
"The greatest thing you'll ever learn is just to love and be loved in return"
Someone to look forward to waking up to, cherishing, being with, just giving everything to. Probably the only thing id look forward to waking up to, someone i love beside me.

That quotes amazing.
 
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Codieb1

Student
Jun 18, 2019
178
I have truly, truly given up on caring about happiness. You will inevitably lose it eventually anyway. Everything that happens inbetween is just a distraction from reality. Only thing that could make me happy waking up to, is not waking up
 
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pillsandstep2

Member
Jun 19, 2019
15
waking up to someone whom i love, who loves me and treats me right, then setting off to a job i love at a work place 5 mins from home. knock off at 4pm when the sun is still up, cook delicious dinner and chill out with netflix and my partner.. sounds simple, but the simple things in life are the hardest to attain. i've been trying to achieve this for all my life. i have no more strength to hope or wait or strive for it anymore.
 
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JoeFailure

Mage
Apr 29, 2019
574
A job that's purposeful and means something that my ADHD will let me focus on, and will ease the pain of the severe regret and shame I feel every day.
 
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Rocksandsand

Rocksandsand

Specialist
May 26, 2019
396
I'd love to be back at uni... I studied to be a paramedic and then a law degree. Of course I ended up too depressed and flunked out.

If I woke up to uni and my partner was less abusive and we could focus on our intimacy, and I had a steady income with my job as a youth worker, I would be happy.
 
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dandan

dandan

One more attempt on life.
Feb 18, 2019
1,298
Some nice job, a good money source which I spent a lot of time trying to come up with a good idea, you guys will see my good idea someday turn true, that's one reason why I'm alive I need to make that.....

And basically that, I know that with good humor and being ok , I'll find love or similar and a partner
 
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Sh00

Member
Jul 3, 2019
41
I'd like to wake up without Aspergers and just go and socialise normally. Build up friendships and relationships. Not have my life taken over periodically by obsessions etc.
 
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Soul

Soul

gate gate paragate parasamgate bodhi svaha
Apr 12, 2019
4,704
I wake up to one of my cats rearing up like a brontosaurus and landing his power-point paws on my soft underbelly. It's compelling.

The Rolling Stones playing somewhere within reach. The current resident of the White House being wiped away along with his entire retinue. A breeze that blows away the wicked and unjust.
 
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Jolene40

Specialist
Oct 6, 2018
370
The joy I would feel at having even just 50% improvement on my health so that I can live a half life at least. I would give anything for this
 
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Umbra

Umbra

Trans Girl
Mar 15, 2019
109
Having any serotonin, ever
 
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Vegrau

Wizard
Nov 27, 2018
665
My wildest fantasy will be that. I no longer need to interact with any humans for the rest of my life. Have everything I need deliver to my doorstep. Never have to leave my room ever again. I will be soooo happy. I might even stop trying to off myself.
 
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Asta

Specialist
Jun 7, 2019
318
Wake up at long last to the news that _____________ has finally had enough of living in this wretched world and we can finally blow this joint together!!
 
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