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anopenwound

anopenwound

I̸'̷m̵ ̸g̶o̷i̶n̵g̷ ̶h̵o̶m̶e̶.̵
Jul 27, 2024
129
If you're not ready to die yet, what's the reason?

Mine is my best friend. I can't do this to her.
 
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other-ghost

other-ghost

i need to end it
Apr 5, 2025
46
Clinging to that small hope that everything will get better (although I've been saying this for years— it didn't). And people around me.
 
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DivineSpark

DivineSpark

Arcanist
Feb 9, 2025
438
Family and friends. It would be selfish to inflict such pain upon them.
 
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maneose

maneose

please don't remember me for what I did last night
Sep 10, 2023
92
i don't have any suitable means to do it quick, methods with ingestion scare me because what if i regret it but can't do anything to stop it?
but also the idea something might give me a sign to live, i cling to hope that someone or something might save me.
 
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moonflow3r

moonflow3r

Knocking on heaven’s door
Oct 6, 2023
163
I'd say my incompetence to plan and execute my preferred method on a timely matter, I should've left about a week ago, life really sucks
 
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SufferingInDenmark

Specialist
Feb 21, 2025
319
probably my family and gf. and the fact that SN is so hard to buy now without any bullshit "welfare check" or whatever they call it
 
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Daenerys Targaryen

Daenerys Targaryen

toxic
Jan 4, 2025
150
fear of the CTB and ending up worse.
 
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bankai

bankai

Student
Mar 16, 2025
164
I'm afraid of it not working out and me being injured. This is the only reason right now.
 
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3ngel

3ngel

princess
Nov 26, 2024
45
afraid to fail my attempt
 
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Praestat_Mori

Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
May 21, 2023
12,363
Although it'd be better if I was already dead and objectively I wouldn't miss anything special if I died today I don't wanna die.

I'm not really happy with my current situation but it's also not that bad and still too good to just off myself.

Then there's the grief family is gonna have to go through bc they wouldn't understand the reasons. There's also the fear of failure and ending as a veggie.
 
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MathConspiracy

MathConspiracy

Trapped in a (prison) cell of organic molecules
Mar 25, 2025
244
The space in between. It's all so lukewarm. I don't feel anything – not happy but no suicidal either. Nothing sparks my interest but nothing makes me particularly desperate either.
 
music

music

how many nights have i drowned here
Feb 1, 2023
97
a kind of naive hope that my now long-distance relationship will see fruition through in-person validation and affection. maybe then i could function as a human

i say naive because i see people in similar positions—mentally, too—to my own and they never end prettily. maybe this is self-fulfilling. i don't fucking know
 
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NegevChina

NegevChina

I've done the best I could
Sep 5, 2024
454
1. Afraid of failure and getting much worse.
2. Guilt to family.
3. Lack of courage, procrastination.
 
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rabidbunny

rabidbunny

:3
Apr 16, 2025
11
besides the fact that i dont have the supplies, i think the way id hurt the people i left behind. im also terrified about afterlife possibilities. what if its worse? what if im reborn? id hate that because im really hoping theres no more consciousness or afterlife. the uncertainty is too much sometimes.
 
divinemistress36

divinemistress36

Angelic
Jan 1, 2024
4,355
Fear of becoming a vegetable from a failed attempt
 
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SecretDissociation

SecretDissociation

Suicide enthusiast
Sep 11, 2022
217
Survival Instincts
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
41,968
I only continue to suffer as I'm so cruelly denied the option to just peacefully free myself from this torturous, futile existence I personally always saw as such a terrible mistake and never exist ever again, it's just so incredibly cruel to me how the suffering and torture of human existence is seen as to force and prolong no matter what even know it all just leads to decay and death anyway. I'd always prefer to not exist than be burdened with this existence suffering all for the sake of it and for me non-existence really is all that's positive and desirable, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering rather all I wish for is the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep where all is forgotten, more than anything I just wish this existence was never imposed, I'd never wish for the suffering of existing.
 
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IhatethislifeXD

IhatethislifeXD

New Member
Apr 10, 2025
4
I am fraid of surviving the attempt and find myself in a much worse situation that I am in. And I am also terrified by the physical pain that I would feel during the attempt
 
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worthless123

Hikikomori
Apr 24, 2023
38
I have my method I just keep putting it off because I'm terrified of the experience of dying.
 
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Pale_Rider

Pale_Rider

Member
Apr 21, 2025
62
I don't know what the afterlife consequences are. That simple.
 
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BRAINWORMS

BRAINWORMS

dust to dust
Jul 20, 2020
133
My loved ones. Also, the fear of failure and fear my loved ones would abandon me if I failed and survived.
 
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softtodie

Member
Feb 24, 2025
19
also hanging on to the small bit of hope something changes, weary about all the welfare checks going on right now so I am too nervous to buy from a source. Plus my loved loves of course.
 
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lucyanne

Student
Apr 9, 2025
102
I'm ready, I'm just waiting until after her birthday but fuck me it's dragging!!
 
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cemeteryismyhome

cemeteryismyhome

Member
Mar 15, 2025
94
Waiting for my adult kids to finally become completely self-sufficient.
 

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