what's it like to want to live?

[fastFWD]

i often wonder what is it like to want to live? what the heck drives these normies?
who wants to grow old and fall apart as you age? i am baffled as to where this spark in people comes from and what fuels it cuz i sure as hell don't have it.

 

[Irrelevant biologist]

I hear ya. No idea!

 

[FohPah]

It helps to have something to look forward to. Even something small. That has kept me alive at times.

 

[hʚll]

i don't know either. how do they go to sleep without dreading waking up again

 

[SuicidalAgain]

I don't know either.

Also, who wants to follow a stupid script that society has written for you, in order to be normal and accepted? There's people in my life that take this script so seriously and judge so harshly those who don't follow it... They're the weird ones, not me.

 

[samsaragothands]

It helps to have something to look forward to. Even something small. That has kept me alive at times.

i agree! most people don't come to a juncture where they're only thinking about their mortality because they're sufficiently distracted by their lives.

 

[divorceddepression]

i often wonder what is it like to want to live? what the heck drives these normies?
who wants to grow old and fall apart as you age? i am baffled as to where this spark in people comes from and what fuels it cuz i sure as hell don't have it.

I had a brief moment in my life when I wanted to live; I mean reeeeally wanted to live. It was truly an amazing time; I couldn't believe how different everything felt.
It lasted about 3 months and it happened early this year.

I'd pay to have it back.

 

[Jumping_realms]

Great question.

Far too many people see this world with our species as beautiful instead of us as just a parasitic draw to the Earth.

 

[hdahsa]

I was one of those normies once. The trick is to have something to look forward to each day, have a reason to wake up or just have someone to talk to without any reservations or suspicions. Now that none of these exist, all I want to do each day is ctb.

 

[FuneralCry]

I do not know. I have never wanted to be alive so I cannot comprehend what it is like. Old age is my worst nightmare personally. I do not see any point in living, all we are doing is waiting around to die, which is our inevitable fate. Life is mostly suffering for the sake of it. Some people have better luck than others in this life I guess. All I have is a hopeless future where everyday just is the same.

 

[watereyes]

it's being so scared of death you'd rather live.

 

[Promortalist_]

I guess I will never know. Just hearing them talk about life being beautiful is cringe and exhausting.

 

[xaea13]

i often wonder what is it like to want to live? what the heck drives these normies?
who wants to grow old and fall apart as you age? i am baffled as to where this spark in people comes from and what fuels it cuz i sure as hell don't have it.

For most people, SI. Plain and simple, it's a primitive survival instinct.
For some people, they actually have something fulfilling enough in their lives to make it worth living. For many people, it's their family and loved ones. For others it's the work they do. For many it's religion.

 

[demuic]

it's being so scared of death you'd rather live.

That's the only way I can understand it. When I was a kid I was only afraid of dying, how painful and scary it seemed. I never actually wanted to live.

It seems a lot of peope do genuinely want to live, as a conscious desire, not just out of fear of dying, and I have no idea what that feels like.

 

[insanedoomer]

continuous pain of a foolish hope .

 

[usernamerequired]

I want to live. It is hard to explain sometimes... part of me wants to die and just take the "easy" way out (i know it isnt easy... it is the opposite of it) but there are several things that make me want to live.
I have dreams. I havent had them until just recently... but now that i have dreams i want to do anything i can to follow them and make them become reality. It is hard but.. maybe i will get there?
I am also extremely scared of death. What comes after? Is it nothing? Will i be reborn? will i go to hell or something? I dont know. It is scary for me to think about.
To me, suicide is always a way of like.. having a safe way to exit IF it ever gets way too much and i dont see anything getting better. I have reached that edge where i really wanted to die several times now. I have ptsd, depression, social anxiety and much more but i can still say that i am glad i am still here to follow my dreams.
I dont know if i will ever be able to reach them. I dont know if i will live a happy life. But i am "only" 21 and i will try everything i can before i take this emergency exit... i want to live. but i dont want to suffer.

 

[Pharmaruined]

It comes from a drive of wanting to be the best person you can be .to see how far u can go and how much u can accomplish.. to overcome obstacles, find a mate / love .learn new things etc etc..

Normal functioning hormones play a huge role in this drive,

along with belief, self confidence and not afraid of failing, as it's an opportunity to learn and grow,.

 

[TheSoulless]

I would say I want to live. I'm just afraid that I can't live a normal life anymore. Dying would be so much easier at this point. I wouldn't ever want to grow old, though.