What your main reason for suicide

[LakatosDiogenesz]

All of the above

 

[Rational man]

I've had mild mental health issues all my life & chronic physical pain the last 8 years but the electric bolts giunf up & down my limbs, my motor neuron symptoms like cut off eustachian tubes & choking on my own phlegm leaving me bed ridden 9 months in agony I have had enough. Death is the only answer.

Please dont answer if you dont want to but are you diagnosed with MND?

 

[Painless_end]

Brain is abnormal and low powered.

Uninterested in life in general. Lost interest in career many years back, and just want to die now.

 

[Chockles]

Serious pain and loss of autonomy from undiagnosed illness ( probably cancer ) . I enjoyed life before. It could nOt have been much better. Now im just a ghost, stu ck in a physical form.

Please dont answer if you dont want to but are you diagnosed with MND?

No some similar symptoms but that was ruled out. It's just I was born with triple x syndrome, Hypermobile syndrome & had a host of both physical & mental issues due to low immune system I wasn't aware of through life. Then I lived in toxic mold for 8 years agsin behind walls & it caused major nerve damage from mycotoxins in air whilst doing up flat in lockdown. I shouldn't be alive. Electrical stabbing muscle cramping pain everywhere 24/7, completely poisoned but my hearts beating fine so nhs don't care hey.

 

[Лавина]

excruciating ear disease

 

[GlimmeringBeauty]

We are disgusting as a species.
People are vile.

 

[luten]

chilhood trauma = mental health issues, disability

 

[Rational man]

No some similar symptoms but that was ruled out. It's just I was born with triple x syndrome, Hypermobile syndrome & had a host of both physical & mental issues due to low immune system I wasn't aware of through life. Then I lived in toxic mold for 8 years agsin behind walls & it caused major nerve damage from mycotoxins in air whilst doing up flat in lockdown. I shouldn't be alive. Electrical stabbing muscle cramping pain everywhere 24/7, completely poisoned but my hearts beating fine so nhs don't care hey.

thats really bad. I feel your pain.

 

[xianv111]

General exhaustion, loneliness, hopelessness and this little thought, constantly occupying my head when I try to do something even remotely challenging: what's the point, if I'm still gonna die? (I'm not religious, so in my opinion there's no absolute purpose) Also recently I have noticed my cognitive abilities deteriorating, which is fucking me up completely, as it is the only thing that makes my life somehow meaningful to me.

 

[hopeisgone]

All of the above (minus physical pain, thankfully).
Plus, not seeing any hope for the future, or things getting better ever. Life is and has been and will always be a series of soul shattering failures, unrelenting loneliness, and bitter disappointments. Every day is agony.

 

[Peaceisnear]

Apart from the many traumatic experiences and mental/health issues I simply do not feel attached to life enymore

 

[affinity]

It's hard for me to pinpoint one primary reason, but it's likely best describes as overall exhaustion and fatigue with life.

I refuse to turn 40 unemployed, homeless, friendless, partnerless, hopeless, purposeless and without a dime to my name.

The other issue: I see (or believe I do) where Society is going or perhaps, what society has been all along. We are heartless, greedy and we have little concern for anyone else. I think of what earth will look like in 20 years and I shudder.

It's funny…I've visualized winning the grand prize in a lottery and interestingly enough, I have a hard time picturing myself being happy. I guess even with my financial issues resolved, I will still have A LOT of work left to do

 

[kurisutinabestgirl]

Health problems (chronic pain, tinnitus, light hyperacusis), me hating myself ( I can't imagine myself as a normal person in the future), I am also a lonely loser, and also me being completely exhausted of life even though I am young.

 

[wait-for-the-bus]

There is just an internal need to CTB. But its an urge about what I really deserve and need to do. It's so hard to explain.

 

[Johnjohn1]

Levaquin antibiotic damage and Lyme disease. My life is hell. Tried very hard to get better

 

[stupidlife666]

Bad Looking guys getting nice hot chicks . I Just cant stand the look of that even if I got a super model beside me. It's just sickening to my stomach to look at that .

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

Loneliness is the main reason. Heartbreak exacerbated the cause and made it clear that I will be lonely forever.

 

[lonerclown666]

i cant forget a girl
im a neet i have no future and there is nothing that make me happy anymore

 

[empty]

I don't deserve to exist

 

[cambrai33]

Because I can, it's now become a test of wills more than anything else. You don't need a reason, you just need willpower

 

[Rayzieka]

My mental illness is the main reason. It's ruined my life and continues to show me it can get worse.
I'm treatment-resistant and its spiraling out of control again very quickly.

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

Lost and broken. No way back on track.

 

[oohiniyorafaad]

Mental illness, family abuse and estrangement, I can't live in a world like this anymore. Death has more to offer me than life

 

[StringPuppet]

Ugly, stuck in skin I hate with all my being, rotten brain that can't even write properly anymore and retains no information, ruined health and teeth from and ED, and no education. I'm a complete genetic dead end and should never have seen the light of day in the first place

you sound exactly like me

 

[LilBird]

I've failed myself so many times, I cannot bare the disappointment from others.. I have tried countless times to restart revamp and just keep trying but I've crossed my point. I literally cannot continue this. I just want relief. ctb is my relief

 

[Justsogone]

Lack of money and loneliness even though I act as I don't care being alone and isolated.
Those makes me exhausted of living

 

[Squiddy]

My mental health issues and my short term memory being complete shit

 

[wCvML2]

Nothing to look forward to in the future and everything will probably just get worse anyway - so I would rather ctb before it gets too unbearable to be alive

 

[downndone]

Stuck with no good way out, not without causing a lot of hurt, probably more than my death. Maybe it's just me being a coward and not wanting to face what's coming. Either way, that's why.

 

[Kobusu]

Pain, pain, and more pain holy fuck it hurts so fucking badly. Every day it hurts. It hurts to put on a fake smile. It hurts to make myself get up and make food. It hurts to do anything but cry, and even that hurts a bit too. Even medicated, it's a fucking nightmare. The mental anguish never fucking ends. I'm so exhausted with it all. Exhausted and bored with life.