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Blue Ocean

Student
Jan 26, 2025
194
I miss the early 2010s
 
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Griever

Griever

SN
May 1, 2025
460
I miss the year my best friend was still alive and I could have prevented her suicide
 
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StupidCat

StupidCat

retard
Apr 24, 2025
324
I miss 2012,felt like the peak of my life for some stupid reason.
 
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DivineSpark

DivineSpark

Elementalist
Feb 9, 2025
831
2002, I got my own PC at that time. I was able to enjoy gaming so much! Thinking about those games gives me such feelings of nostalgia!
 
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The Unanswered Q

The Unanswered Q

Student
Jan 1, 2025
129
2018, was last time was happy.
 
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FadingSnowFake

FadingSnowFake

Enlightened
Nov 25, 2024
1,822
Last year, the best and worst year ever. I realised too late I was losing my person. If only I could redo it, the hell of this year would not be happening.
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
15,482
The weird thing is, none of them to be honest! I've had better times than others of course. Maybe the second half of 2018 was good in terms of work focus. I think I had gallstone trouble back then though, so that certainly wasn't good.

I suppose that's what strikes me about life though really. That it's all been a slog pretty much. There were nicer bits sprinkled in but, none really made up for the ongoing shit of it all! I suppose that's what makes me feel confident that this is just what life is. So, it makes me feel confident about the wish to leave it at least.
 
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23421

Student
Nov 14, 2024
164
if i could choose a year to stay in forever, it would probably be 2024 or the second half of 2023. in 2023, i was completely isolated and alone but ive never been in as much peace with myself and life. nobody to bother me, nobody to break my heart, and it was the last time i could truly feel okay.

in 2024, i met my first true love and while our relationship was at times rough, losing it affected me more than anything else i've ever lost. i just want to go back to being blissfully unaware and in love.
 
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Forveleth

I knew I forgot to do something when I was 15...
Mar 26, 2024
4,180
20...11? I think. I had just gotten my shit together, had a good job, was feeling confident. I will stick with the first half of 2011 as I met my asshole partner that summer and it all went to hell.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,490
I don't miss anything about this cruel, torturous existence rather I wish I never suffered at all, if it's up to me I'd choose to permanently erase my existence as I'll just always see existence as the most terrible, dreadful abomination that just causes harm and suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured until non-existence takes away all anyway and I'll just always find it so deeply undesirable to exist. For me non-existence really is all that's desirable and is all that's positive, I just wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I suffer simply from being conscious in this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake, I'm so tired of being burdened with this existence of suffering all for the sake of it.
 
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broken_stoic

broken_stoic

Wander till you find your place
Aug 21, 2024
198
2019. I was living overseas. Also just after I started EMDR just before covid hit.
 
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Haematemesis

Haematemesis

Student
Jan 12, 2025
190
2004
just before i was conceived
 
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WhiteRabbit

WhiteRabbit

I'm late, i'm late. For a very important date.
Feb 12, 2019
1,799
2007. I was 21 and spending a lot of time at the beach, long before any health problems.
 
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patheticparasite

patheticparasite

sorry
Feb 21, 2025
94
1993. I miss my childhood and the friends I had before everything went to hell.
 
Lost Impact

Lost Impact

A Singular Atonement
Oct 31, 2023
281
Mostly 2008--itwas the last time I was around humans in an everyday sense because I dropped out right there and lost contact with anyone that had been willing to put up with me. I've been living in a void since. One long, monotonous void waiting with failed attempts at dying, failed attempts at living.

I guess also 2012 was the genuine last time it felt like things could go upwards. It did... for the shortest while possible. Downhill. It always goes downhill.

But both of those times were just full of smaller moments where it seemed like things could've been okay though the constant was the nagging nothingness instead. I guess I just romanticise the "better" times even if it really wasn't all that different at least there were people around, even if for a short moment.
 
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weallhaveourghosts

Experienced
Mar 2, 2025
229
2023 I was fairly happy. Had a partner, friends, good job, etc. Would go back and do a lot differently but alas.
 
Dejected 55

Dejected 55

Visionary
May 7, 2025
2,853
I miss 1969. That was the last year before I existed.
 
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sadpigeon

sadpigeon

sad pigeon
May 10, 2025
39
i never really had a particularly good year, but i do miss 2013. i was just a little boy who didn't know much about how cruel the world was, fnaf was trending and i was at my happiest. this was before all of my terrible dysmorphia and anxiety began
 
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loser4ever4life

Student
Apr 10, 2025
121
Mostly 2008--itwas the last time I was around humans in an everyday sense because I dropped out right there and lost contact with anyone that had been willing to put up with me. I've been living in a void since. One long, monotonous void waiting with failed attempts at dying, failed attempts at living.

I guess also 2012 was the genuine last time it felt like things could go upwards. It did... for the shortest while possible. Downhill. It always goes downhill.

But both of those times were just full of smaller moments where it seemed like things could've been okay though the constant was the nagging nothingness instead. I guess I just romanticise the "better" times even if it really wasn't all that different at least there were people around, even if for a short moment.
Hey, don't want to seem rude, but how have you been able to stick around this long? i'm facing a similar situation right now and don't know how to continue forward
 
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SchizoPolyGymnast

SchizoPolyGymnast

Paragon
May 28, 2024
942
2015 was bangin' for me.

I also miss 2001-2006 and the early 1990s.
 
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inverse-weibull

inverse-weibull

Member
Feb 20, 2025
29
I miss 2020 the most I think. I know covid was really awful and lockdown was terrible for most people. But it was really nice to just be free of responsibilities completely for once. I mean it was over a month of no school, what more could a high schooler want. No worrying about college or jobs. Just playing animal crossing and Minecraft with my friends.
 
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astonishedturnip

astonishedturnip

Like Christine Chubbuck, but sadder
Jan 16, 2024
266
2008 - early 2012 was a good run. Emo music reigned supreme, I had all my best friends around me every day, and I stayed up until the wee hours with video games, fanfiction, and hanging out with my friends. School was a cakewalk and had lots of time to devote to hobbies. I looked like a dog in school, but it was OK, I had all these romantic dreams and crushes and reasons for getting out of bed every morning. College, careers and adult life were far away. My grandpa was here. My parents were young. My siblings and I all lived together and hung out regularly. Ugh, I'm sure there were tons of frustrations in the moment. But nostalgia is a major factor in my depression.
 
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DarknessAtNoon

Student
Apr 24, 2022
111
1452. Everything went to shit after Constantinople fell.
 
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Lost Impact

Lost Impact

A Singular Atonement
Oct 31, 2023
281
Hey, don't want to seem rude, but how have you been able to stick around this long? i'm facing a similar situation right now and don't know how to continue forward
It's very mostly the fact I've had many failed attempts that I haven't tried attempting again recently. I'm only still here because I'm still looking for an actually lethal way out, it's just not as easy given my position.
 
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Marishku

Marishku

life is pain
Oct 8, 2023
79
early 2013, I was still young and didn't worry so much about everything.
 
33K1LLM3

33K1LLM3

Pretty Girl, Sickness killed her…
Jun 28, 2025
143
2008-2016, peak era.
 
concession

concession

Member
Jun 3, 2025
66
11,700 years ago before First Agricultural Revolution.

Some idiot did not wanted to gather berries anymore like everybody else and paved the way for modern civilization. Fucking disgusting.



I think I had gallstone trouble back then though, so that certainly wasn't good.
How painfull was it? Is it true that this is one of the worst things you can experience?
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
15,482
11,700 years ago before First Agricultural Revolution.

Some idiot did not wanted to gather berries anymore like everybody else and paved the way for modern civilization. Fucking disgusting.




How painfull was it? Is it true that this is one of the worst things you can experience?

It's certainly the worst pain I've ever had. First time, I thought it might be a heart attack. I'm not sure how it compares to other pain though. I Googled it once to see if I've had the worst there is. I think a snapped achilles was near the top. I have a horrible feeling there are more intensely painful things but, it was certainly at the intensity where you just don't know what to do with yourself. I would make myself sick to try and make it pass quicker.

I guess it at least makes me hope I can cope with SN if I got through multiple attacks (without calling for an ambulance.)
 
concession

concession

Member
Jun 3, 2025
66
It's certainly the worst pain I've ever had. First time, I thought it might be a heart attack. I'm not sure how it compares to other pain though. I Googled it once to see if I've had the worst there is. I think a snapped achilles was near the top. I have a horrible feeling there are more intensely painful things but, it was certainly at the intensity where you just don't know what to do with yourself. I would make myself sick to try and make it pass quicker.

I guess it at least makes me hope I can cope with SN if I got through multiple attacks (without calling for an ambulance.)
That`s really depressing thank you
 
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