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_Gollum_

_Gollum_

I wish the ring had never come to me
Mar 9, 2024
1,816
Mentally, what year are you still stuck in? What period of time seems like it was just yesterday to you, when really it was ages ago?

For me, I think it's probably the end of 2022. That's when things stopped moving, stopped growing. When I became "fixed", sterile. When my philosophical beliefs went from a frenetic, boiling, molten cauldron of disparate ideas to a hardened caulk. Case in point, the other day, I was looking up when the Queen died, and was shocked to discover that it was in September 2022, because to me it feels like that just happened yesterday...
 
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xaxs

xaxs

Member
Dec 4, 2025
10
2021 tbh. nothing "significant" has happened to me (excluding one relationship i had), i'm pretty much flawed the same way i was back then. it's saddening that i need external "assistance" like a girlfriend to function like a normal human. otherwise i'm in crumbles
 
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Spite

Spite

I wish I never existed.
Aug 20, 2025
660
It's interesting because there are a few years and time periods I feel like I am stuck in and constantly reminiscing over, mostly from 2016-2023, but I'd say I'm most stuck in 2018 - probably because my life peaked in that year, I would say. I was still depressed and facing struggles at that time, but I can definitely say I felt way more "alive" back then compared to now. Now I'm just a husk, completely dead inside and waiting for it all to end.
 
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whiskeyblanket

whiskeyblanket

weird chicken lady
Jan 23, 2025
72
2003.
 
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LetMeOut67

LetMeOut67

Wizard
May 7, 2025
663
1978 - 1983 😄
 
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shaggy_dooo

shaggy_dooo

My cozy place
Jan 26, 2026
57
Real shit im stuck in the 90s and i wasnt even born yet 🖤
 
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3spiral

3spiral

Apr 22, 2026
128
24 I guess
 
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Ima-username

Ima-username

Mentally Tortured
Feb 15, 2026
168
September 2nd 7am 2025
 
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Forveleth

I knew I forgot to do something when I was 15...
Mar 26, 2024
4,973
Honestly 2020. I know it was the worst year for a lot of people, but for me it was probably the best year of my life. As an introvert, I was thrilled to hear the government say I was not allowed to go interact with anyone else. I worked from home and had a second job, so I was pulling in tons of money (although I was also deep in debt). I did not have to go see my family over the holidays. I spent the year streaming and playing Cyberpunk.

My brain clings to 2020 as that was the last time where I felt pretty good.
 
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eladeselasol99

eladeselasol99

trapped
Mar 3, 2026
29
2019.
 
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ben_

ben_

i ben therefore i am
Oct 31, 2023
107
i don't want to say. i don't even know because i don't want to think about it. gonna just shove this question somewhere where it's not seen by anybody....

okay, next question, Mr. Therapist....
 
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LastDayOnEarth

LastDayOnEarth

Vsed apologist
May 20, 2025
450
2020
 
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violetforever

violetforever

i hit my peak at 7
Dec 24, 2025
1,204
basically 2014/15 and any other year that i was alive before that
 
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X-sanguinate86

Arcanist
Sep 26, 2025
417
The year my first wife left me and I failed in my career at the same time. And that was a long time ago.

There were mini stops and starts before and since but that was the pivot where things went from still possible with an active, usually interested mind to idling in neutral like a mindless, disaffected zombie devoid of inspirations or aspirations.
 
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ZwartHartje

ZwartHartje

Experienced
May 5, 2026
242
For me it's 2022 as well, in fall of that year was when they started the holocaust against my loved ones, against the only true family I've ever had, who were nutrias. I tried everything to save them but failed, I even got in legal trouble because the thing that murdered them accused me of having "threatened" it - when all I had was a self-defense flashlight while the thing had a firearm that it had used to murder the nutrias.
My life ended back then. I'm still existing, but not living. It's been three and a half years, and I know this is nothing I could possibly recover from. I only want to go where they are and to be reunited with them. The only thing that keeps me going are some few survivors I keep visiting.
 
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U

Unknown User

Mar 3, 2024
180
2023/2025
 
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thelostautistic

Warlock
Jul 31, 2025
746
2021-2022
 
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boyafraid

boyafraid

Is life over yet?
Oct 27, 2025
126
2017-2019
 
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starboy2k

starboy2k

“I’ve been digging my own grave for years”
May 21, 2025
731
2024 (specifically the last few months of 2024)
 
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KuriGohan&Kamehameha

KuriGohan&Kamehameha

想死不能 - 想活不能
Nov 23, 2020
1,897
For me, it's also gotta be 2021/2022. I was still in university, and it was the first time in my life I actually had friends. Suddenly, time seemed to speed up a lot. Graduation was suddenly sooner than I thought. Some people started to drift away, or make plans to move. But if you were sitting around drinking with friends, it felt like the night would go on forever, until suddenly it didn't anymore. In many ways, I'm still frozen in time in those days.

All the songs that were popular in 2022, shows, memes, etc feel just like yesterday to me. It's hard to believe that time is gone forever, and that it's been 4 years now. I would honestly do anything to go back to those days. Or to 2006, playing Pokemon emerald for the first time, eating dinner with my grandparents on a Sunday afternoon, all the colours in the world still so bright and everything still feeling new and magical to me. I feel like as time passes, colours, sounds, sensations, etc feels a lot more muted.

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tomame

tomame

lost in the country 🌾
Dec 28, 2025
277
2018
 
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enne

enne

blood sport
May 13, 2026
126
end of 2024 - beginning of 2025 (til may)
 
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mars2027

mars2027

Member
Apr 8, 2026
60
I think I've been repeating the same day over and over again since probably 2022.
 
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hwid

hwid

Member
May 15, 2026
11
2018 was the very last time I felt like a human being. I was happy solely because of my ignorance of how the world worked. After that I slowly realized how fucked my life was going to be.
 
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i_am_done

Member
Mar 11, 2026
42
Maybe early 2020. I didn't handle covid well. I regressed a lot and never reversed the regression. I'm stuck and there's no way out.
 
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passthisnote

passthisnote

chronically online
May 6, 2026
102
ever since i graduated hs in 2025 its all just really meshed together i cant believe it's already been a year
 
coolcow1289

coolcow1289

Experienced
Mar 17, 2026
206
2018 is when all my problems began. 2020 through now has just been a fever dream. So 2018. I wish I had died then.
 
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