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JinZhin

JinZhin

we are in hell
Nov 2, 2021
187
  • not having to worry about money (would literally solve 90% of my problems)
  • living away from my family and possibly not ever seeing most of them again
  • just being a beautiful person in beautiful world - which means many things but mainly that it's not unbearable as it and it's something I've dreamed of since I was very little but knew it was delusional
  • doing stuff I love like learning about what interests me, reading, painting and singing all day



  • (But in the end, I feel like I'd still want to die even if I had all these things, I am simply not made for living)
 
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waterstrider

waterstrider

cold
Nov 29, 2020
400
I would want all my mental problems/addictions/apathy gone.

My fucking own private space whether it's my own room or a whole house...don't even care anymore at that point.

Earn money by dancing in a ballett company and be actually good at it.

No idea what to wish for beyond that.
 
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user_name_here

N/A
May 16, 2021
315
To be free of Suicidal Ideation, thoughts and attempts.

Holding my own child with both arms while P.O.D - Alive blares from my speakers.

Knowing I have a true purpose and someone to live for.
 
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Kennish

Specialist
Aug 17, 2021
379
I just want my unpleasantness going away. My itchiness. And the fact that clothes are uncomfortable to me. I just want to wake up in the morning, shower, put on clothes and be comfortable. No itching, no sweating, no cold feeling in my body. And just being able to wear clothes and shoes and jackets without any discomfort. I would change my skin also. My skin in my face is fucked. I should stop looking in the mirror. I have very sensitive skin, also over my body and I hate it.

I really want this, but I don't think it's possible, thinking about I've had this since teens.

And I hate my skinny legs. Really. They make me feel uncomfortable in clothes also.

If I could just feel comfortable in my own body and skin and clothes I could get a life. I hate it. I hate it so much. I feel like my life is over. It never really started. I've just been surviving. And everyday is torture for me.

The psychiatrists say that it's in my head, but I don't believe them. I believe there's something wrong with my body and always have been.

I just want to be able to be in myself, but I don't think it will ever work. So for me the end is gonna come when I'm fed up. And it feels close
 
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Journeytoletgo

Broken and hated 7-14 years long overdue
May 14, 2018
1,608
1. Non religious parents (naturalist)
If I want to CTB I can go if I wish to period
2. A healthy brain and a physical appearance of my choosing (no acne, no big head, no weird head shape, no weird teeth, no hairiness, beautiful eyes)
3. A career I enjoy doing
4. Healthy social life with friends I enjoy being around
5. Own place, bf or husband :)
6. Donating to charities and people in need
 
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existtosuffer

existtosuffer

Student
Sep 22, 2021
150
If I wasn't mentally ill. I definitely would be living a life on my own terms that gave me contentment.
 
Freedom Believer

Freedom Believer

Forever alone.
Dec 23, 2019
351
Living in the home that I currently live in now but without the stress, no worry about money, but, most importantly, the woman I love with me in my arms. We'd live happily and be able to do whatever we wanted together.
 
bascketKase

bascketKase

fairy lights in a darkened sky
Nov 15, 2021
7
A life not in this planet or dimension, but maybe in another one. Where people do not suffer any pain, nor emotional or physical, ever; where people can experience true happiness and love forever. Where there's no money or a lifestyle which is portrayed as "ideal". I wish not only I could be happy with myself, but I wish everybody could be happy too. They'd never be lonely again or feel any kind or numbness. Everyone would find happiness in whatever form it may have, and no one would suffer anymore. It's definitely a perfect utopia.
 
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stellabelle

stellabelle

ethereal
Dec 14, 2018
3,918
I would have been able to get through life instead of abused, ignored, raped, and thrown away.

Maybe decent "role models" and a decent mother. Maybe some decent friends or people who "care".

But I never had that. Oh well.

Just scream in her face. It's "entertainment."
Just keep ignoring her.
Just tell her to go back to her fuck face mother.
The toothless tweaker bitch.
Just keep saying it. Keep saying she's ugly. Keep saying she's bad. Keep saying she's stupid. Keep screaming in her face until she cries or screams back. Hehehehehehehehehe.
The ugly, toothless, fuck up, piece of shit.
Ta ta. Fuck you, world. Fuck you.
 
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4eyebiped

4eyebiped

Mage
Dec 28, 2019
567
The simplest form of a perfect life for me is having the means to create a reasonable and reliable income to take care of bills, medical and necessities (not asking for handouts), some freedom of travel (Parks, shops, nothing exotic needed) and most importantly, someone who desires and craves me as much as I desire and crave them. Together we can explore life and explore each other. Beyond that, my needs are very basic.
 

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