Discussion What would your 15-year-old self think of you?

[Just_Another_Person]

Think like, about everything after 15 or just about the present moment? If the former, a mixture of surprised, dubious/skeptical, sad and horrified. Maybe happy about somethings. If the latter... well, I honestly have no idea, waaaaaaaay too many things happened and my 15yo self wouldn't know how to react.

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

Oh I just realized my younger 15 year old self would honestly find me very cringe for liking the Sonic franchise. When I was 15, I only really knew about the Blue Blur through all of the negative reviews for the recent games and for how annoying he was in Smash Bros Brawl. I didn't even become a Sonic fan until I was already 18 years old in 2012.

 

[enduringwinter]

I am still my 15yo self. It's all simultaneous to me.

 

[(in)sane]

I was first diagnosed with MDD when I was 13 and was already suicidal at 14. 15 year old me saw this coming and she's probably mad she didn't find this site sooner lol. Still remember my 15th birthday; I cried the whole day because my life had stopped a year ago but everything and everyone around me kept going like nothing happened. PTSD really took my life before I could :)

 

[Spaghettii]

15 y/o me would be horrified to see what lies ahead and probably surprised that i'm still alive. She would probably feel miserable cause yes my dear, things can get much worse than all those little thaughts in your head. She's alreaddy suicidal but I could help her. I could really really help her not to get to this point. She desperately needs a caring, nonjujmental, and safe hug.

 

[Deleted member 94706]

realize how based and doomerpilled i've become

 

[identity0]

It is hard to remember who I was. I think my 13 year old self would be very disappointed and say "Oh so I'm always going to be like this". But myself from my early to mid 20s would be proud that i've made to my 30s and achieved what i have.

 

[MentalFuneral]

Probably profoundly disappointed and crushed that they were right about everything they feared.

 

[kyuuketsuki]

probably just so incredibly sad. it'd probably make 15-year-old me give up completely. the fact that even though i was trying so hard to pull through, despite all my trauma and mental illness at the time, i still ended up like this. i'm even more mentally ill to the point i cannot even function, a high school dropout, a total failure.

 

[marsupial]

15 yr me is shocked I failed so spectacularly at everything I planned. They're worried.

 

[CatLvr]

She'd be absolutely gobsmacked that I had actually made it almost 70 years without getting killed (I tended to engage in some pretty risky behaviors back in the day) or ctb.

 

[MiraiShisen]

Just disbelief

My younger self would not even believe me that its me, I changed so much from happy carefree person to completely opposite.

 

[Oeoe3]

"Oh my God.. we got rid of acne. And why are you still alive?"

 

[EternalShore]

depends on whether it's 15 or 15 and 1+ month~
15: "How the heck did I end up like that?"
15+: "You're telling me it doesn't get better? You cared so much about remaining a kid and yet that never stopped you from changing..."

I think about how much I must disappoint my younger self a lot~ How I've been poisoned and become impure just like everyone else~ and yet, I still suffer~ It's the worst~ :(

 

[Reflection]

He's be both proud and sad, I grew a lot from teenage years to now and I'm quite happy with the progress I've made, alas life always has a curveball that drops a person to their knees.

 

[FadingSentinel]

My 15 year old self would probably think that I'd have found my way in life by now already, but I'm still searching.

 

[untothedepths]

wishing they were dead much, much sooner.

 

[orpheus_]

He would be disappointed as hell and would refuse to believe I am the same person as him. Or would just jump out of the window straight away once he would hear about the things that are going to happen

 

[Scythe]

He'd be relieved to see that I've stayed the same, sure I've matured, but at the core, we're no different. Our beliefs and worldviews stayed the same, our hopes and dreams stayed the same. He feared that once he grows older a switch would flip in his brain and he would lose all his sense of self and become human. Work a job, love life, accept society for what it is. That was one of the few things that turned out our way. I think he would also be impressed and proud to find out I got hrt when I was still underaged and I of course would tell him how I got it in hopes of getting it earlier.
He'd be probably disappointed that I'm even worse with social anxiety, that I probably can't beat him at fencing because I'm just not confident enough to do it properly. That I give up so easily because "what does it matter if I'm gonna be dead."
I think he's also going to be worried that I'm almost out of time but my project is far from done.
I would also instruct him to make a better ctb attempt the first time round, or at least not fuck up the second.

 

[Blue Dream]

Probably would go "I really was hoping it would be different but this tracks" and with any luck choose different careers to try.

But I sometimes get the sense I am in fact repeating this life already.

 

[PlannedforPeru]

He'd probably be disappointed, not in like a pitiful manner but just saddened more than anything. I specifically remember a time when I was around 15 at a water park looking at a few older lifeguards on break just playing on this giant blow-up island having fun. I hoped moments like those would make up the majority of my life come their age.

Disregarding the butterfly effect, I'd assume with my foresight and his energy, he'd probably help to put an end to the both of us.

 

[wormbrained]

He'd probably not be surprised to say the least

 

[hopelesswanderer]

He'd say dude, how the fuck did you make it this long? What went wrong? you had given up long ago I thought.

 

[Stripe19]

"The fuck? Why are we alive?! Why are we a girl?!?? WHY ARE WE STILL SHORT?!?? Are the boobs real?"

and many more questions, id have no doubt. Lots of confusion and envy. I look like an entirely different person from myself tbh, but i think there'd be disappointment the original plan was aborted and that it's not because the suffering and hatred goes away

 

[SixNeufUn]

Not surprised. Everything goes as he imagined

 

[etherealspring]

lol ive barely changed since i was 15. then again, that's only a few years ago for me. im sure she wouldnt be surprised im still the same

 

[star.trip]

He would probably tell me so much effort for this?

 

[JustAnx]

He would think about trying to ctb before he gets to my current age lol.

(Sorry if this is out of line, just let me know)

 

[furribcage]

just disappointment but maybe 15 y/o me seeing me now and talking about how much worse it gets to myself would be enough to push me to get it over with during my teen years

 

[Lost in a Dream]

My 15-year old self would tell me I'm going to Hell.