ms_beaverhousen

ms_beaverhousen

*can't breathe*
Mar 14, 2024
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In my case I think she'd be absolutely horrified, maybe even in disbelief, unable to conceive of how someone could spend their life starving on obscenely little amounts of food then binging on obscenely enormous amounts of food then making themself throw up then doing it all over again day after day after day for years on end, all the while having failed at committing suicide several times, and being completely disinterested in all their previous interests, and being completely isolated, having never found a boyfriend even approaching 24,
Hope your 24yr old self doesn't feel that way... I don't.
 
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derpyderpins

derpyderpins

Normie Life Mogs
Sep 19, 2023
1,797
That's a really tough one. 15-year-old me was basically a different person. Rage and love. Superiority complex: thought I was better than everyone and hated myself at the same time because of rejection from the in-crowd. I'm probably too hard on myself: I had a lot of the same values, just more twisted. I was trapped and felt like I had no control. I was kind when no one was watching, but had to put a show on in front of anyone to maintain the arrogant SOB facade I thought gave me character. The funny thing is that people who know me might be shocked to hear me say that because of how I masked around different folks but I know internally I've changed a lot.

Part of him would be surprised I didn't ctb by now, especially since I'm neither famous nor ultra-wealthy.

Luckily, he wouldn't give me shit for being a "wage-slave". That's more 22-25 year old me. (Well, more like 22-25 year old me would just kill themselves immediately knowing that nothing broke me out of the normal routine.)

15-year-old me would be mad I don't have more accomplishments or wealth.

He'd be excited that my wife is gorgeous, lol. I hope he'd be happy overall with the relationship. I see no reason why he wouldn't, but my younger self might be upset it isn't whoever I was latching onto that week or that she isn't more dark and edgy.

He'd be glad I moved away.

He'd be weirded out by the fact that I drink, but glad I keep it in check and don't have wild tendencies.

I like to think he'd be happy with my progress in guitar, and absolutely with my progress in songwriting/production, but he'd still be disappointed I haven't done anything professional with it.

The question is overall. . . He'd probably say out loud that he thought I turned out pretty okay but inside his pessimist ass would be devastated that my life is so normal.
 
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nux_walpurgis

nux_walpurgis

Me, my whispers and a broken God
Oct 18, 2023
154
She'd rather die than end up in that state
She hoped the future would be better. Age and time would heal her. Little did she know it's gotten so much worse.
 
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Davey40210

Davey40210

Even the stars make room for new stars
Sep 3, 2024
343
15 year old me was already depressed and suicidal so he would think: Wow you really got far considering your circumstances, but I understand you want to CTB and you should go ahead with it
 
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imnotsurewhy

Member
Feb 19, 2024
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Oh she would kill me in pure rage that is justifyable tbh
 
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Chili

Chili

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Sep 27, 2023
60
Embarrassed. I had a lot of goals, but I've just gotten progressively worse in life.
 
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Sgrodolo

Sgrodolo

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Aug 26, 2024
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I mean I knew I was gonna end up like this eventually, so he wouldn't be that surprised. Though considering how miserable I was when I was 15 he would be surprised I managed to get this far
 
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Bleneviola

Bleneviola

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Aug 1, 2024
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Upset at how my life turned out. Maybe upset that I ended up always feeling that way (at 15 I thought I'd grow out of it). I think she'd sympathize with my decision
Upset at how my life turned out. Maybe upset that I ended up always feeling that way (at 15 I thought I'd grow out of it). I think she'd sympathize with my decision
 
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greyblue_bian

greyblue_bian

2x Failed CTB Member
Jun 10, 2022
184
Thankful most likely, to be warned and informed of what and who to steer clear of and why.
Though probably a bit more saddened, fearful and disappointed after being made aware of the true nature of their circumstances, such is life.
At the very least they'd have more time to recover, prepare and plan ahead.
Hey, it's off-topic but I love your It's Okay to Not Be Okay profile picture.
 
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wCvML2

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Nov 15, 2021
455
15 was when I really got into self improvement and productivity for the first time and was consistent with both nutrition and exercise, so that past version of me would be exasperated if they saw how I turned out because I'm very self-destructive and rotting away (for years) in autopilot while eating junk food and not moving at all except at work.
 
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Ms.Melancholy

Ms.Melancholy

I used to be indifferent, now I just wanna go home
Sep 5, 2024
12
He (she?) would've wished for more, maybe even start to transition then and there, but they'd understand what happened.
I was somewhat passively suicidal since like 10 or so I believe, mostly due to bullying for my brain-dead, borderline autistic behavior.
 
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BecomingTired

BecomingTired

Lov3rBoy<3
Feb 23, 2024
107
In my case I think she'd be absolutely horrified, maybe even in disbelief, unable to conceive of how someone could spend their life starving on obscenely little amounts of food then binging on obscenely enormous amounts of food then making themself throw up then doing it all over again day after day after day for years on end, all the while having failed at committing suicide several times, and being completely disinterested in all their previous interests, and being completely isolated, having never found a boyfriend even approaching 24, and to top it all off, unemployed due to incapacity.

I think teenage-me would look at current-me with scorn and pity.
Probably disappointed that all of his efforts eventually led up to me.
 
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WithTheFlow

WithTheFlow

Member
Sep 2, 2024
52
I had the same problems that I do now. So he would understand much more about himself but probably kill himself on the spot with the understanding that at least the next 8 years of his life are going to be extremely painful and pointless.
 
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Unhumanly.

Unhumanly.

Recovery are not the winner.
Feb 24, 2023
251
My 15 y.o self doesn't care, doesn't have a big dream yet, innocent and full of love, well that's until that one eventful age
 
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ruru_241

ruru_241

地雷儳
Mar 12, 2023
73
she would likely be every sad that a relationship didn't work out, and would ask why i haven't ctb yet ..
i don't rlly like my younger self that much, as i was a rlly stupid girl
 
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AbsurdAbyss

AbsurdAbyss

Lost, broken, empty, fragmented.
Mar 4, 2024
113
the old me would be surprised i didn't kill myself yet, then kill themselves/me without hesitation - nothing else will save me from myself.
 
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noname37

Member
Sep 10, 2024
52
Wish he would've succeeded, also bizarrely enough, many of his fears came true
 
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LaVieEnRose

LaVieEnRose

Angelic
Jul 23, 2022
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I guess ust horrified. I didn't have any sense of future of at all because I think I latently knew I had none. Lo and behold.
 
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Myforevercharlie

Myforevercharlie

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Feb 13, 2020
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At 15 I ran away from home. 15 worrying about paying rent, trying to keep my sanity.
A lot has changed through the years, the 15 year old me never really left me, but I think she would be proud of what she overcame, but also be disappointed of the mess, the struggle and heartbreak it took to get where I'm now.
 
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unsaiddes

unsaiddes

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Apr 25, 2023
74
My 15 year old self would probably be pretty disappointed that I'm just as miserable now as I was back then. Maybe a little impressed that I made it this far, and excited that we get to be an aunt. Definitely indignant that I'm smarter now - I was a complete know-it-all at that age. I don't like to think about her that much because it just makes me more depressed. If I tried to tell her what she should do differently, she wouldn't listen.
 
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dune_dweller

dune_dweller

Puella Aeternus
Sep 6, 2024
71
My 15 year old self would probably be pretty disappointed that I'm just as miserable now as I was back then.
I felt this.

You know, when I was 15/16 I used to go to this rap battle website to post my poems/rap lyrics.

The site is no longer in existence anymore, but can be accessed slightly using the Wayback Machine.

I managed to find a page that had one of my posts on there, and a rap/poem that I wrote when I was 16 -

and I still resonate with it now, at 37, and that is so damn sad to me.
 
MelancholyMagic

MelancholyMagic

For my next trick, I will disappear
Dec 12, 2021
204
"Could have been worse."
 
Mirrory Me

Mirrory Me

"More then your eyes can see."
Mar 23, 2023
1,078
"In the end, people only care about themselves."
 
kyhoti

kyhoti

Looking for fair winds and following seas
May 27, 2024
293
15 year old me would kill Now me, if face-to-face. Or he'd go through with his CTB plan, knowing what was to come.
 
coolgal82

coolgal82

she/her, terminally silly :3
Sep 10, 2024
293
15 year old me was like right before my mental health suddenly dropped off of a cliff so she'd probably be like "how the fuck did it get so bad???"
 
Ihatemylife6

Ihatemylife6

Iā€™m not living my life, Iā€™m just surviving
Nov 9, 2022
31
Upset but not surprised to see it got worse for me
 
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CatLove56

CatLove56

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Jun 30, 2018
309
In my case I think she'd be absolutely horrified, maybe even in disbelief, unable to conceive of how someone could spend their life starving on obscenely little amounts of food then binging on obscenely enormous amounts of food then making themself throw up then doing it all over again day after day after day for years on end, all the while having failed at committing suicide several times, and being completely disinterested in all their previous interests, and being completely isolated, having never found a boyfriend even approaching 24, and to top it all off, unemployed due to incapacity.

I think teenage-me would look at current-me with scorn and pity.
Well I'd like to think, like your younger self, my younger self would be impressed with how resilient I am. Can't deny that but yeah probably very upset lmao and wondering why tf I'm still alone at 28 and no relationship experience
 
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sadnhopeless

sadnhopeless

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Nov 2, 2023
15
I would have told my 15 year old self to buy SN from Amazon before they banned it šŸ˜‚
 
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JohnnySack

JohnnySack

Boss of the Lupertazzi crime family.
Sep 17, 2024
36
"get up and do SOMETHING"
 
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