What would you rate your chances of CTB in the next month?(out of 10)

[steppingoff]

For me, it's 9.5. Many things are in place and a will to do it

 

[hikikomorizombie]

giving myself the benefit of the doubt & going w a 6i'll be homeless if i can't, which would open a whole new side of rock bottom for me.

i'm glad you're feeling confident & assured in urself, albeit a lil envious :') what's ur method?? if u don't mind me asking.

 

[steppingoff]

giving myself the benefit of the doubt & going w a 6i'll be homeless if i can't, which would open a whole new side of rock bottom for me.

i'm glad you're feeling confident & assured in urself, albeit a lil envious :') what's ur method?? if u don't mind me asking.

hanging - preference full suspension - but partial is find too - what ever gets the job done

 

[leavingthesoultrap]

9 but I might ctb even sooner then feb

 

[Forever Sleep]

Almost zero. I'm waiting for my Dad to go first and he seems ok at the moment.

 

[steppingoff]

9 but I might ctb even sooner than feb

Do you have a surge of energy to move forward with it. It's how I feel

 

[leavingthesoultrap]

Do you have a surge of energy to move forward with it. It's how I feel

no I am just at the end of my rope I cant take this suffering much longer

 

[hexd]

also a 9, i have this big event to host on sunday. after that i have to muster up the courage to put my head on a train track.

huge lack of anything to help me, you would think cuz' its NY id have a way out and that is not the case at all.

 

[FuneralCry]

Pretty much none unless some guaranteed, peaceful method becomes accessible. I really hate how we exist in this hellish anti-suicide society where suicide is cruelly made so inaccessible, I find it horrifying how we cannot just have the option to easily free ourselves from this cruel and meaningless existence in peace.

 

[rozeske]

Am at a 9. I have my materials and have already decided after years of contemplating it. Am leaving that 1 for whatever could go wrong going wrong.

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

Next month is my birthday so I really wish the answer is 10.

Sadly, no matter how much I wish it I've procrastinated too much. It will take well over a month to prepare everything I need to be ready go out on my own terms even though I can feel the urge to CTB creeping on me almost closer than it's ever been but in a way I haven't felt before. My self hatred is ironically also interfering because I know I want to die more than anything else and I can't let myself have that so I keep piling on more bullshit reasons to live and it's annoying having to shoot them down all the time. I'd say my true chances of CTB next month are maybe 8 or 9 but who knows it could be a 3.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

0-1, so almost 0 unless sth unforeseen is happening that would push me into a corner leaving me no other option but to attempt.

OP that would be nice as a poll, too. But anyway, no prob!

 

[Ninja_Master]

9, life is getting shittier by the day and i'm suffering both physically and mentally so it would be huge relief if it happens next month.

 

[wCvML2]

I don't yet have all the materials to do it but I'm working on getting it to leave asap and waiting for the orders to arrive, hoping to ctb by the end of Feb but the likelyhood of it working out is probably only 4 at the moment. I hope to get over emetophobia and be done with this

 

[stuckinthemud]

0-still have to tie up loose ends. The anhedonia and apathy is preventing me :(

 

[Dutch1986]

1 still looking for a good method and doing research

 

[dinosavr]

2, maybe 3. I was planning to do it towards the end of February but for now it's probably not happening

 

[blacksand]

Probably a zero. I work 70 hour weeks trucking at night and have such immense depression I can barely even move my head from the headrest. It's hard to kill yourself when you're too depressed to even feel motivation to physically move. This paradox of apathy has kept alive for some time now.

 

[gizmogone]

9 to 10. Method is lined up, working on cleaning up some lose ends, and as soon as the shit hits the fan, that's when it will go down. Just waiting for the stink to become unbearable.

 

[mortuarymary]

Zero.
still things to do and sort out.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

Zero. I'm too pathetic to put in effort for life. The same thing applies for death too. Not to mention that I'm autistic and live with family

 

[dodo11]

Zero at the moment. Living in Australia makes it difficult to source SN which is my preferred method SN if I can't get N.

 

[Tokugawa_Yoshinobu]

8 because I'm sure I want to die and planned everything by now and February would be nice to have a date to die in for.

 

[Princess_Kitty]

For me probably a 6 or 7. I'm trying to see how long I can hold out for but, if nothing changes then most likely it'll be a 8 or 9.

 

[Banan321]

0 atm, prob 9 within this year. Looking for resources and surefire methods.