Venting What would you do in my place? Attempt one more time at psych recovery or forget about them?

[Suicidebydeath]

What would you do in my place? Everytime I've been let down by psych services, faced unprofessional behaviour. Being shouted at if I don't instantly answer their questions without thinking. Being laughed at and asked if I enjoy the severe abuse and torture my uncle did to me. Then my childhood psych, who believed my family's lies and put everything on me, even asking if I was "royalty" despite that being the most hellish time of my life, being physical, verbally and emotionally abused at home and at school for years. If I try again, how do I safeguard myself? With my prior experiences, will they understand even that I have really low faith in them at this point. Just another person who slips through the cracks. Why do people have such a fixed perspective of me?