Discussion What would stop you from CTB? What miracle do you need to keep going?

[MsSelfsabotage]

I was wondering what everyone's reason is to ctb and if there's anything to change it? Like what solution is there to your problem, what miracle needs to happen to keep on living? Do you need money? A person you lost come back to life? Health? Surgery? Start over, etc?

I thought about my own problems and things I need, I think money would be a big relief and could change my life around but then again that would only be a temporary thing. I hate when people say "Go work then", well Karen I need a big chunk of money right fucking now, like minimum 50K to start all over and not just 2k per month just to get by. Again there's more I need than just money to be happy and that would solve my problems but not sure if I want to share that yet.
So yeah, what do you guys need to make your life better or are you simply just sick and tired of existence itself?

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

I've said this hundreds of times here but all I'd really need to stop me from CTB'ing is a girlfriend who I could see eventually making my wife.

That's not as easy for me as it sounds though since I've gone my whole almost 28 years of life without so much as a kiss or even a date.

 

[som1]

nothing its over for me.

 

[StarryStarry]

A job and for me to live with my cat, Sweet Pea. I'm real simple. My needs are few.

 

[FuneralCry]

In my case, there is nothing that would ever make me want to live. For me the problem is life itself. I am simply not meant for this world and I cannot cope with life. I just want to not exist. I do not want to live in a world where so much suffering exists. I have never wanted to be alive and I never will. Living hurts me and more than anything I wish I was never born. I see life as just being a pointless struggle and it is tiring. I have no interest in living and I prefer the sound of eternal sleep.

 

[BitterlyAlive_]

I need something that seems worth living for, for the right reasons. Obligation is a shit reason to stay alive and I'm over it

 

[Squalo]

I don't think even with all the gold in the world I will have the life I want, the problem for me is life on this planet, there is too much sadness, too much poverty, too much selfishness in people ...

everyone lives for money, everyone runs for money, millions of people have been exterminated just for money, more than half the world is dying of hunger and on the same planet there is a low percentage of people who want to get rich by accumulating money.

I live in Italy, and in my country there are many hungry homeless people around the Vatican walls, who are ignored by the very rich cardinals who live inside the walls.

I'm not made for this planet, I cannot be selfish and greedy as this society asks me to be.

 

[Unicornsrnot4dislife]

Time machine…..

 

[hyacinths]

getting the fuck out of my religious town. a job where i felt happy and fulfilled, maybe a few friends that truly cared for me, and my cat. im starting to realize that money and the burden of working with severe depression is what drives me to want to die.

 

[Foresight]

Facial disfigurement lowering my quality of life and successful scar revision. So far no good.

I have PTSD but I think I can work with that.

 

[Journeytoletgo]

A new brain and new nervous system lol

 

[Versailles]

A new body, a new mind, and having the love of my life back.

 

[TheStandard]

A new body, a new mind, and having the love of my life back.

X2

 

[Lost Magic]

Nah, I'm too tired and lost too much already. I need to be gone soon. It's just too long a life.

 

[ripbug]

i just like the idea of ctb because in a selfish way i want to make an impact on people and make them see how wrong they were and how nobody cares enough to help. so i guess more appreciation or acknowledgment for how shit life is and how hard it is to live would make things slightly better. but i guess not everyone thinks that way

 

[ampsvx321]

Immortality, then i would bother, would spend a little eternity learning this and that, crafting, painting, composing, coding this and that, and then it's shadows utterly, sweet farewell and neverending silence

 

[VoidDesirer22]

Millions upon millions of dollars would keep me here another decade at least. I'd have a storage of ctb methods in my house that I own by myself.

Actually, maybe that'd just lead to a drug-infused frenzy, followed by using said ctb methods. Maybe nothing except a new brain.

 

[Rabhen]

To find a lawyer that will get the charges dropped and file charges and suit against the hotel and the maid who broke into my hotel room causing the problem I needed the police called for and file suit against the police for terrorizing, brutality, harrassment and get every dime they can possibly get, then I could have a fucking home finally and I will not go to jail, which I should not and should not have been brutalized, humiliated and arrested in the first place when I was the one calling for help.
If I cannot find a lawyer that will help me for free, cause I have no money or job, and take care of every thing that has happened this past week, I will ctb the night before my court date and the note I leave and send to the news will explicitly detail how I have been victimized by the police, repeatedly and now a hotel worker and hotel and how the police have been complicit with the victimization of those considered abnormal by their standards.

 

[downndone2]

A genie in a bottle or magic time machine knowing what I know now. I suppose a HUGE lotto win might help too.

 

[Murasa]

A time machine, yes, all boils down to that, how else can I bring the dead back to life?

 

[MrBlue]

As pathetic as I feel admitting it, probably a girlfriend that truly cares about me. I think having one decent connection in my life would help motivate me to keep going. As it is I'm running on fumes and have no clue how I made it this far alive. Maybe I like suffering?

It's never happening, Im 23 and haven't even been close to a relationship before. I'm short, ugly and shy. Might as well be a blobfish tbh

 

[ColorlessTrees]

I don't think there is really anything that would remove my wish for the 'eternal sleep'; that is, I don't like consciousness as a whole, regardless of my and others' problems.

Hypothetically, things that would improve my life would be freedom of my hormonal imbalances, health condition(s), faulty brain chemistry, and the ability to function, get a degree, and play by the rules helping people along the way. Plastic surgery, to be back at my low weight, to have my hair back, and so on. Those all coincide with the previously stated reasons. My biggest reason to live would to be a spouse, though; I both reject and crave the idea of romance, but it's easy for me to live for others if I care for them personally. That doesn't happen often, so I don't foresee it, and I've more or less lost my only close friend.

 

[Dot]

Undo hypnoss injry & th trma tht = undrnth it

 

[Ticket 2 Heaven]

If tomorrow I woke up as Chad.

 

[olkf]

I feel nothing will be helpful

 

[ImpulsiveFreak]

A cure for bipolar disorder would be a great start

 

[Quinlor]

The time, probably my problem was(is) chemical. After two years after my severe depressive outbreak I am much better and unfortunately less suicidal. Most of the time today I feel neutral, a year ago every maybe 3 days I would start crying out of the blue...

 

[LivingHellonearth]

A cure for my PTSD and a time machine. CTB is my only option now.