What would need to happen for you to stop being suicidal and live a happy life?

[CoolGuy9]

For me it's 3 things.
1: To feel joy again. If I play games I rarely get any joy out of it. If I go home from work, I just have this empty feeling instead of happiness. Doing something and feeling happy about it is what I want.
2: Get a social life. Being alone and lonely all the time just fucking sucks. I really want some friends and a partner.
3: This is the hardest one to fix as it may not even be fixable. Fix my inferiority complex. At school or at work, I always perform like shit, because apparently understanding a basic sentence is too much for an idiot like me.

 

[uiop]

1. Be normal

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

For me it's 3 things.
1: To feel joy again. If I play games I rarely get any joy out of it. If I go home from work, I just have this empty feeling instead of happiness. Doing something and feeling happy about it is what I want.
2: Get a social life. Being alone and lonely all the time just fucking sucks. I really want some friends and a partner.
3: This is the hardest one to fix as it may not even be fixable. Fix my inferiority complex. At school or at work, I always perform like shit, because apparently understanding a basic sentence is too much for an idiot like me.

I'm not sure if their is anything that would make me 100% not suicidal but having a lot of money so I don't have to worry about myself or family would help.
I don't want a social life as I can't stand being around most people.
I also wish I were smarter... life is so much harder when u r a dumbass.

 

[Gina]

Money lol

 

[neveranyhope]

Have real hope for my career, which I don't anymore, not since about a year ago. It's done for.

 

[silentsinger]

If I hadn't been diagnosed with a physical illness things wouldn't have changed so much. I think that was the turning point to a lonely void. Someone very close to me passed away at the same time and it really made my emotions run high.

I think that to be worth something would be a big help for me.

 

[FauxEmotions]

Personally, I'm not quite sure as even though I'm still on the younger side of life, I've experienced more than I'd ever imagine I would. I'm just more done with this existence more than anything. It's almost crippling how curious I am of what comes after this.

 

[myrtaryniel]

I have chronic depression & BPD and I know I can get through shit, but I will spend all my life suffering and relying on others and I just don't think that's a life worth living. I know there's no end to this so i'm not looking for more change, it never works.

 

[neveranyhope]

I have chronic depression & BPD and I know I can get through shit, but I will spend all my life suffering and relying on others and I just don't think that's a life worth living. I know there's no end to this so i'm not looking for more change, it never works.

I understand your position. Hope you find some peace.

 

[Ruffian]

I have chronic depression & BPD and I know I can get through shit, but I will spend all my life suffering and relying on others and I just don't think that's a life worth living. I know there's no end to this so i'm not looking for more change, it never works.

This sounds so much like me. BPD is so hard to live with and you can barely explain to people. I'll appear normal to people and the snap and everything about me changes. I really hate myself to the point it's debilitating.

 

[TheLastStraw]

Directly or indirectly a minimum of $1 million would solve all my problems

 

[DepressionsAHo]

Me being competent at jobs I do instead of being a piece of shit

 

[Exile]

I don't know that there's anything at this point. I'm in emotional pain almost all the time and my BPD and my misophonia make it difficult to do well with others. I have friends but I can't imagine that anything more is realistic.

 

[TheGoodGuy]

If I had a normal functioning body like everyone else I might be able to cope with bodybuilding and drugs. I also would need a social life again.

 

[Boonks]

To get off these poisonous pharmaceuticals and have BPD, bipolar, manic depression, and ptsd eradicated. To have self-destructive core beliefs transformed; I have zero self-worth. I am deeply troubled by misanthropy, apathy, cynicism, distrust, and existential nihilism. Also, to be resurrected as an alive human, as currently I am suffering indescribably from paralyzing trauma that has obliterated my identity and personality. My heart beats yet I am a dead zombie, brainless, soulless, heartless, spineless, lifeless. In short,

1.) Cure brain diseases
2.) Transform core beliefs and establish meaning
3.) Resurrection

 

[CoolGuy9]

Me being competent at jobs I do instead of being a piece of shit

Incompetence sucks. If it's not too much, why and how are you incompetent?

 

[DepressionsAHo]

Incompetence sucks. If it's not too much, why and how are you incompetent?

I get fired from nearly every job I've ever had. I don't possess the ability to decipher and accurately execute instructions given to me like others do. I make mistake after mistake after mistake and can't seem to fix it no matter how hard I try. After 4 years of doing this, I'm done.
Ironically enough one of my coworkers after telling my boss about a few things at work that I've noticed happening over the past several weeks told me to stop acting like my "shit don't stink" and stop complaining about things even though I wasn't
Little does the girl know
Its the single biggest reason I will not be around to see 2020

 

[Quinlor]

Back in time to fix all my mistake things tha I said to people that I loved and etc.

 

[StillWaiting]

To not be myself ?

 

[Kyrok]

I made a number of stupid decisions over the past year. I put too much on my shoulders and chronic pain is making it much too hard for me to continue. If I were able to retire & relax, I could tolerate my situation.

 

[Tomasnil]

Juat some memory loss and im good to go

 

[marcusuk63]

Can anything ? we all like to think there is a magic ingredient that would make us happy and not want to catch the bus but are we just born depressed /suicidal ? and no mater how good or bad our life is we always will be ?

 

[Weeping Garbage Can]

I don't know, I think I would need to be unconscious. I'm at fault for it all smiles sadly

 

[Final Escape]

Enough money, owning some property, would pretty much solve my problems. Everything else is easier if u have that stability. You have options than.

 

[seekingoblivion]

Nothing that's possible for me. I hate life to it's core. And I'm too much of a piece of shit.

 

[Plankter]

A guarantee of safety and health. Assurance that I'll never suffer. The fear of possible agony is enough to make life unlivable. Everything is far too uncertain. Living a stress-free life is virtually impossible.
Aside from that a consistent (and also guaranteed) monthly income of at least 10k euros.
I'm already convinced that happiness is impossible, I won't even bother to ask for it. I'm still alive because of my fears, if I could somehow make my remaining natural lifespan enjoyable I'd write suicide off my mind.

 

[Kikoo Loool]

To recover from autism, if it were possible.

 

[Wanttogonow]

I don't think there is anything that could change it for me. I don't trust anyone even family. People lie just to try to get you to "snap out of it." I can't even end it right I'm such a fuck up . I try over and over and I'm disappointed every time I wake up again.

 

[netrezven]

lobotomy will do the trick for sure

 

[HappyEnding]

Earn a bigger income and a nice place to live in :)