I would give you my honest unfiltered list but I think I'd get banned or offend someone with how radical it is. I started writing it out and I sound like a terrorist.
Anyways it has nothing to do with me and everything to do with the absolute fucking state of the world around me. But I understand that barely anyone agrees with me hence the reason I'm on here lole. I wonder if the Mayans were actually correct and we all died and went to purgatory in 2012.
Anyways it has nothing to do with me and everything to do with the absolute fucking state of the world around me. But I understand that barely anyone agrees with me hence the reason I'm on here lole. I wonder if the Mayans were actually correct and we all died and went to purgatory in 2012.
Aloneisbestforme
Terminally online
- Aug 17, 2023
- 94
Worth living?
That's a hard one to think about. the only way my life for me would be worth living is that.
I can restart back to birth and have a family that truly cares for their child and knowing that once I die that's it I won't be reborn into another body
That's a hard one to think about. the only way my life for me would be worth living is that.
I can restart back to birth and have a family that truly cares for their child and knowing that once I die that's it I won't be reborn into another body
byebyemadworld
Member
- Aug 17, 2023
- 36
Money. A decent job where I can sustain myself (atleast for a while) and enough to buy things that I used to enjoy like video games, decorations, foods, , merch and many more. Just living the life in a low key way. Probably get some help to a professional and maybe I could get back to dating again.
Dead Already
Member
- Jul 14, 2023
- 84
Agreed. Final answer.
Just lying on the beach all day surely makes thing a little more bearable, it's what I do, I highly recommend it !!!
Sea turtles also help!
Money not really, it just brings more problems
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guayabas
Student
- Mar 19, 2023
- 167
i lost basically everything and everyone but I made it through that. all i needed was for my bf to stop being a complete fucking asshole all the time which I realize is never going to happen. unfortunately i'm in a position in which I'm dependent on him for multiple reasons so I'm stuck either being manipulated and treated like shit on repeat for the rest of my life or ctb.
I've told him I'm super depressed and planning on doing it and he seems concerned in the moment but then just goes right back to avoiding me and ignoring me in a few days or few hours. Just one example is, he won't even say goodnight to me before he goes to bed after I've told him countless times that's hurtful. Like we live together. It's just common fucking courtesy to tell your gf, whom you live with, that you're going to bed. And every time he acts like he had no idea that would upset me. the first time he did it he was mad at me too, so it's really an intentional snub.
2 nights ago he went to bed without saying goodnight, then claimed he just forgot. Then tonight I told him there's no point in me talking to him about any issues I have in the relationship bc nothing ever changes. and he was like you're right, I'm going to work harder and be more considerate of your feelings. and then a few hours later he went to bed without saying goodnight and said he didn't know I wanted him to. I have never once complained that he said goodnight to me. I have countless times complained about him not saying goodnight to me. but every time he's like "wow, how was I supposed to know?"
it's such a simple request too. Like I shouldn't even have to ask my partner to say goodnight to me. but even little things like that never change. It would be such a huge pain in the ass for him if I died too. You'd think just the inconvenience alone might motivate him to just say goodnight, but no. It's like he's intentionally fucking with my head to drive me to ctb
I've told him I'm super depressed and planning on doing it and he seems concerned in the moment but then just goes right back to avoiding me and ignoring me in a few days or few hours. Just one example is, he won't even say goodnight to me before he goes to bed after I've told him countless times that's hurtful. Like we live together. It's just common fucking courtesy to tell your gf, whom you live with, that you're going to bed. And every time he acts like he had no idea that would upset me. the first time he did it he was mad at me too, so it's really an intentional snub.
2 nights ago he went to bed without saying goodnight, then claimed he just forgot. Then tonight I told him there's no point in me talking to him about any issues I have in the relationship bc nothing ever changes. and he was like you're right, I'm going to work harder and be more considerate of your feelings. and then a few hours later he went to bed without saying goodnight and said he didn't know I wanted him to. I have never once complained that he said goodnight to me. I have countless times complained about him not saying goodnight to me. but every time he's like "wow, how was I supposed to know?"
it's such a simple request too. Like I shouldn't even have to ask my partner to say goodnight to me. but even little things like that never change. It would be such a huge pain in the ass for him if I died too. You'd think just the inconvenience alone might motivate him to just say goodnight, but no. It's like he's intentionally fucking with my head to drive me to ctb
Kerrtu
Komeetta ♊︎
- May 8, 2023
- 474
My boy, Oso 
I would do anything to have just one more day with him.
It hurts so much, the grief.
I collapse under the weight of it.
I would do anything to have just one more day with him.
It hurts so much, the grief.
I collapse under the weight of it.
mob
Student
- Jul 19, 2023
- 136
This is a hard question to answer. I'd say money, but that wouldn't get rid of my traumatic experiences and mental illnesses. It would make my life easier, yes, but I don't believe it would make me feel like I want to keep living. For that to happen, I'd have to be reborn into a nice, normal family and lead a normal life and be able to work without feeling drained constantly although I have one of the easiest jobs ever.
It's not what's around me that makes me want to ctb, it's what goes on inside of my head. So either restarting my entire life as someone else or a lobotomy.
It's not what's around me that makes me want to ctb, it's what goes on inside of my head. So either restarting my entire life as someone else or a lobotomy.
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