MourningBird
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- Jun 3, 2023
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I have ADHD tooNo autism and adhd please, thank you
I'm right there with you. I've had so much pain for so long, physical and mental, that at 74, I don't know why I'm even around.Being pain-free and completely healthy in body and mind. I've never been healthy and its prevented me from working (and therefore earning my own money and being independent, and doing things I'd like to have done and experienced). Not working and earning and having my own money has made me be dependent on others, which makes me feel like a useless parasite and leech and I hate it, just as much as I hate all the years of physical suffering and doctors and pain and surgeries and medications (that never really help).
There are many more things I know would contribute to making my life worthwhile...but I've come to conclude that good health, a strong and dependable body, and strong and stable mind, and a life without pain would be like living on another planet or something to me because I have never remotely experienced a life like that.
Its all Ive hoped and wished for for over 50 yyrs, to be healthy and strong and pain free. Its all I want(ed). I've given up on the hope now at my age
I'm right there with you. I've had so much pain for so long, physical and mental, that at 74, I don't know why I'm even around.
I think about CTB every day. It's a standard with me. There's got to be some pay-off to this misery, otherwise, I would be gone by now.
I'm sorry you're in so much pain. I wish and pray for your health, relief and peace.
Thank you for your kind words. You are a wonderful soul. I'm honored to call you my friend.Thank you for your kind post. I'm so sorry you've suffered with pain for so long. I know the old saying "life isn't fair" but, gosh life is JUST NOT FAIR.
I also have thought about how they just has to be some kind of pay-off, or reward, or at least an important, crucial lesson meant to be learned from soooo much continued suffering but if there is, I'm not smart enough to figure out what that is. I guess I will always, on some level, keep looking for a reason for why my life is how it is (and how its been)...
Thank you for your prayers and good wishes about my health and peace. I wish the same for you, friend. See, this is why this world makes no sense to me and I feel more and more disappointed and disillusioned by it with each passing year -- those people, like you, with the most compassionate and thoughtful hearts and souls, suffer so. I know we are only two people who've never met in real life but I will keep you in my own prayers, that you'll find relief and peace and healing as well.
Thank you again for taking the time to reply to me. Sending you support and love.
Thank you for your kind words. You are a wonderful soul. I'm honored to call you my friend.
If dreams came true..I would like anyone that's going to have a child make sure they can be responsible to take care of it and willing to do anything it takes to be a good parent. Most of the time people are having babies because Sex feels nice….Basically if your wishes came true, and all the struggles came to an end… what would that look like? Your pains gone, all of it gone. What would u do? (Sorry I find it hard to word this question I hope it makes sense lol)
For me it would be not having to mask my personality, my disorders and my struggles. Not having to fear to get hurt, and not having my past as a weapon. Also to be accepted for who I truly am. I just wish I could forget a bunch of stuff too. I wish I wasn't so alone, broken and worthless. And someone just like me out there, that's just some thoughts, I'm sure there's more if I put a bit more thought into it… but if those could just be gone, maybe I wouldn't be in this dark place…
What would make my life great and worthwhile, is to have someone in it who could truly BE with me - someone who would understand me and listen to me without judging or criticizing me. I hope you find that someone who would make you special to them.Attention. Someone to treat me like I'm special. Someone to hold me. Someone for me to pour my heart into.
So much of life sucks, in ways that don't go away. I'll never be free from my problems. So all I can ask for is someone to share my struggle with me.
When I was young I used to think about thisBasically if your wishes came true, and all the struggles came to an end… what would that look like? Your pains gone, all of it gone. What would u do? (Sorry I find it hard to word this question I hope it makes sense lol)
For me it would be not having to mask my personality, my disorders and my struggles. Not having to fear to get hurt, and not having my past as a weapon. Also to be accepted for who I truly am. I just wish I could forget a bunch of stuff too. I wish I wasn't so alone, broken and worthless. And someone just like me out there, that's just some thoughts, I'm sure there's more if I put a bit more thought into it… but if those could just be gone, maybe I wouldn't be in this dark place…