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What would make you want to live?

  • 1. Better friendships/relationships/familiar relationships/social acceptance

    Votes: 21 52.5%
  • 2. Getting cured of physical health problems (including obesity).

    Votes: 12 30.0%
  • 3. Having great finances.

    Votes: 21 52.5%
  • 4. Having a great job/not needing to work.

    Votes: 24 60.0%
  • 5. Getting cured of mental illness/addiction.

    Votes: 25 62.5%
  • 6. Improved self esteem/body image/ confidence

    Votes: 19 47.5%
  • 7. Fixing the misery of others in the world.

    Votes: 8 20.0%
  • 8. Reuniting with those who have passed away or left you (including pets).

    Votes: 7 17.5%
  • 9. Living in a better place.

    Votes: 15 37.5%
  • 10. Other

    Votes: 7 17.5%

  • Total voters
    40
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LoafofBread

Member
Mar 8, 2026
7
Do you think there's anything that would make you feel better?

For me, I think one and five would make the biggest difference.

I know there are a lot of factors but please try to chose the biggest one.

Sorry if I forgot to mention something.
 
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violetforever

Wizard
Dec 24, 2025
669
that was a good list. mostly 1 and 9 for me but a few others too.
 
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inconclusivesorbet

On my way
Jan 28, 2026
63
Time rewind
 
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aufrechtm7

aufrechtm7

My Hachikō
Feb 14, 2026
299
It doesn't have to be realistic, I'm just curious about people's ideal situations.
I answered through the poll but I just thought I'd add a follow up reply
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
47,650
No, for me ceasing to exist is the positive solution to find peace from the suffering, torture and cruelty of existing where there is no limit as to how much one can be tortured, to suffer in this terrible, dreadful existence truly is an abomination to me and it's one that just causes all this harm and suffering.

No matter what this existence should just never be imposed and it's so terrible how it was causing all this terrible torture and suffering as a result, I only envy those who no longer exist, to me the only fortunate ones are those who are no longer burdened with this tortuous existence. To me it's just so horrific how the torture of existing can continue for decades longer just for one to face the dreadful agony of old age, all I want is to not exist, to me all that could ever be positive is being permanently at peace from this existence that to me was always a mistake in the first place.
 
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LoafofBread

Member
Mar 8, 2026
7
No, for me ceasing to exist is the positive solution to find peace from the suffering, torture and cruelty of existing where there is no limit as to how much one can be tortured, to suffer in this terrible, dreadful existence truly is an abomination to me and it's one that just causes all this harm and suffering.

No matter what this existence should just never be imposed and it's so terrible how it was causing all this terrible torture and suffering as a result, I only envy those who no longer exist, to me the only fortunate ones are those who are no longer burdened with this tortuous existence. To me it's just so horrific how the torture of existing can continue for decades longer just for one to face the dreadful agony of old age, all I want is to not exist, to me all that could ever be positive is being permanently at peace from this existence that to me was always a mistake in the first place.
I'm sure you've been asked this many times, but may I ask why you've decided to stick around on this earth? You're a very prolific user of this site, according to my maths it seems you've commented on here an average of 23 times per day for over 5 years. Your distress and conviction must be quite strong, yet you must also have a reason to live despite this? (Of course, I'm absolutely *not* saying you should leave, I know absolutely nothing about you. I'm just curious.)
 
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Matchaaa

Matchaaa

Please excuse any tone misunderstandings,thank you
Dec 10, 2025
125
I believe that having a good citizenship, a valid passport, and decent living conditions are the most important factors; they form the foundation for everything else.
Other factors are important too, but personally, I think these are among the most essential requirements.
So I choose 3 and 9.
 
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LoafofBread

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Mar 8, 2026
7
I believe that having a good citizenship, a valid passport, and decent living conditions are the most important factors; they form the foundation for everything else.
Other factors are important too, but personally, I think these are among the most essential requirements.
So I choose 3 and 9.
Yes, I wish the world had much freer borders. I have a friend who lives in Afghanistan with her forced husband and her personality disordered MIL. Hearing about her life is one reason why I am less anti-suicide than the average person…

Wherever you live, I hope that your life will improve and you will find a way to be happy.
 
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uchiha_sasuke

Member
Oct 1, 2023
32
I'm sure you've been asked this many times, but may I ask why you've decided to stick around on this earth? You're a very prolific user of this site, according to my maths it seems you've commented on here an average of 23 times per day for over 5 years. Your distress and conviction must be quite strong, yet you must also have a reason to live despite this? (Of course, I'm absolutely *not* saying you should leave, I know absolutely nothing about you. I'm just curious.)
Thought I was the only one who made the observation, and it's 6 years btw.
 
Matchaaa

Matchaaa

Please excuse any tone misunderstandings,thank you
Dec 10, 2025
125
Yes, I wish the world had much freer borders. I have a friend who lives in Afghanistan with her forced husband and her personality disordered MIL. Hearing about her life is one reason why I am less anti-suicide than the average person…

Wherever you live, I hope that your life will improve and you will find a way to be happy.
I'm sorry to hear that. Thank you for your well-wishes. I wish you and your friends freedom and happiness as well.
 
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Forveleth

I knew I forgot to do something when I was 15...
Mar 26, 2024
3,811
Nothing. I am simply done living.
 
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FadingSnowFake

FadingSnowFake

Enlightened
Nov 25, 2024
1,784
8 is the reason I'm here and the reason that could maybe make me see light out of the darkness.
 
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LoafofBread

Member
Mar 8, 2026
7
I think funeralcry was mentioned in this video about SS, although, they were called "cake123" in the video.

Also, funnily enough, this expose video was the reason I found this site 😂💀
Thought I was the only one who made the observation, and it's 6 years btw.
8 is the reason I'm here and the reason that could maybe make me see light out of the darkness.
I hope you can reconnect with them or find someone else with whom you have an equally positive connection. ❤️
 
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