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- Aug 4, 2023
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How would you imagine your passing and last day?
It does or doesnt have to be possible or doable, just how do you fantasize it?
Ive been fantasizing it the whole morning, and mine would be like this:
Being in a mental institution (ik, weird) ive been in a few times already, so my parents wouldnt be the one finding me. Since it is an open type I would be able to sneak in 1.5g of heroin in and a needle. I would wake up early and watch the sunrise, in coffe in my hands. Then I would hang out with people around me, have my breakfast, go to group. I would get to see my parents, they would come to see me, and I would hug them and tell them how much I love them. Then I would talk to the doctor that works there that I got to rly love, and have a nice chat. After that my best friend would come to see me, and we would sit and talk. After that I would finish the painting I would start a week prior. I would watch a movie or listen to music while doing it. Then I would have another coffe ofc lol. I would finish a day talking to another doctor, hopefully skipping dinner, even though its gonna be hard to do that there. If there is a nice nurse, I would get her to let me go for a walk, and ill escape and go for a coke (they dont let you have it there). Then I would come back, and post one last post here to say my goodbyes to this site and great people there. I would wait for nurses to go around one last time before going to bed, and then I would lay in my bed, and do it. I would make myself look as much as I can like im asleep, posewise, so people there wouldnt 1. Find out soon and 2. Not get traumatized as much.
Then I would leave.
It does or doesnt have to be possible or doable, just how do you fantasize it?
Ive been fantasizing it the whole morning, and mine would be like this:
Being in a mental institution (ik, weird) ive been in a few times already, so my parents wouldnt be the one finding me. Since it is an open type I would be able to sneak in 1.5g of heroin in and a needle. I would wake up early and watch the sunrise, in coffe in my hands. Then I would hang out with people around me, have my breakfast, go to group. I would get to see my parents, they would come to see me, and I would hug them and tell them how much I love them. Then I would talk to the doctor that works there that I got to rly love, and have a nice chat. After that my best friend would come to see me, and we would sit and talk. After that I would finish the painting I would start a week prior. I would watch a movie or listen to music while doing it. Then I would have another coffe ofc lol. I would finish a day talking to another doctor, hopefully skipping dinner, even though its gonna be hard to do that there. If there is a nice nurse, I would get her to let me go for a walk, and ill escape and go for a coke (they dont let you have it there). Then I would come back, and post one last post here to say my goodbyes to this site and great people there. I would wait for nurses to go around one last time before going to bed, and then I would lay in my bed, and do it. I would make myself look as much as I can like im asleep, posewise, so people there wouldnt 1. Find out soon and 2. Not get traumatized as much.
Then I would leave.