What will you be glad to leave behind when you CTB

[sourpink]

the circumstances i happened to be born into/the hand i was unwillingly dealt, my body, my experiences, perceptions, consciousness itself.
also things that factor into and perpetuate circumstances and my responses to them.
as well as the 'mundane' inconveniences and grievances.

 

[Aeathelina]

I just want to stop wanting things I can't have.

Pretty much sums up my main reason for wanting to get off this mortal coil.
Spending so much time dreaming of a world that will never be because I don't have the mind, body or soul that truly strives to be better so I'm just self harming with all these dreams that will never be.

 

[Rn110bg101]

- loneliness and missing my friends
- suicidal ideation
- this society and the way it works

 

[Sprite_Geist]

1.: Being ignored.
2.: Being unwanted.
3.: Old age - this is an important one.
4.: Virtual signalling.
5.: Individuals who feign kindness - could tie in with reason 5.
6.: Individuals who are awful and make no apology.
7.: Hyper-competitive society that contributes to people wanting to trample over each other.
8.: Greed.
9.: My own inability to do what I actually want.

 

[Deadlyroses]

Having to DO things. School, work, obligations. Expectations. Remembering deadlines. Stress stress STRESS. Loneliness and longing. Extreme anxiety and panic. Debilitating sadness and pain. The utter lack of enjoyment and passion and joy. My hatred and negativity. All of it. I'm sick of it all.

 

[Odwin]

Myself

 

[StateOfMind]

The desire to fuck a bird (or even better, a chicken) in it's cloaca.

 

[Tintypographer]

Appointments, people who need me on calls and in meetings, bureaucracy, mean people, and emotional pain.

 

[Bxbrowler]

My addiction, the people that lied and taken advantage of my addiction, so that they could get what they want. A part of me can't wait until I can be beyond this place.

 

[blue_muse]

I'll be glad to leave behind:

• Relatives who act like borderline (no offence) narcissists.
• Seasonal friends; the type that only hang around for the good parts.
• Being an outlet for peoples' frustrations.
• Local community where I live; for the past 2 years they've reveled in ostracising, shunning, belittling, humiliating and shaming me.
• Doing a painstaking ritual to hide a health condition, which affects daily life.
• Being so outside the box in how I think that, I can't even fake being in it to blend in.
• Health services pretending to give a damn.
• Being made to feel like I don't fit in anywhere.
• People trying to break me down emotionally and physically.
• Virtue signalling from strangers.

 

[NormaJeane]

I would be glad to leave behind: relatives who try to force me to suffer until I die of old age, relatives who refuse to talk about death and euthanasia, relatives who live their lives in denial of human death, relatives who only want humans to live and have children, children who one day will be forced to choose between years of suffering or committing suicide. I myself am glad that I never had children to a world where people end up in this situation. Never having children is the best thing I have done in my life.

 

[Lost Magic]

I will be glad to leave behind mostly everything. I will miss very little apart from music and film.

 

[WatermelonMel]

People
Social interactions
Pain
Sadness

 

[Rayzieka]

I want to leave behind consciousness itself and all of the paranoia it's cursed me with.

 

[Thatdude]

My life, my family yelling, the constant push from society to meet standards there is no way I can even come close to meeting, the fact that majority of my family hates me for no reason, the fact that my anxiety since I fear the day my parents kick me out or die, identity politics, being extremely lonely, and many more things

 

[wanttodie]

my life

 

[loopylou]

Shit stirrers
Liars
Pettiness
Arguments
Panic attacks

 

[spoiledapplepie]

Loads of things.

A body I hate which upsets me to look at.

Constantly being an emotional whirlwind.

Anxiety I can't seem to get a grip on.

Feeling unloved and just incapable of being loved.

Just living with all the mistakes I've made and all the guilt and regret.

How absolutely miserable and monotonous life is.

 

[insanedoomer]

Life + Me .

 

[Sslsh]

When I think about death, I always think of the things I will finally be free from and I won't have to experience again.
I will be glad to have no more chronic health problems, I am only 20 and this is bound to get worse when I get older. This is the bad thing about existence, your body will deteriorate and you are trapped inside. There will be no more tinnitus, visual snow, dizziness, palpitations etc. I will be glad to be free of going to any medical appointments.
I will be free from my overactive mind, I am constantly plagued by my own thoughts. I have been depressed my whole life and want to finally be at peace.
Also just little unpleasant things such as unwanted noise and hot weather.

Ever watched hunger games. That's how this world feels to me. And that's what I'll be leaving behind. Insane selfish compasionless people, promise of a utopian life if I "work hard", rat race to climb the corporate ladder, being an introvert inspite of the fact that the world is designed to reward extroverts.

 

[whywere]

I will be more than happy to leave all the greedy, self-centered, mean and thoughtless people behind. But I would/will miss our global family a lot. Walter

 

[Pen>Sword]

1. Regret
2. Study
3. Work

None of those matter once I'm dead. Life is prison. I don't want to deal with these.

 

[demuic]

Everything involving interacting with people and living in this dystopian society.

Narcissists. Psychopaths. Social ostracization. Social media. The brainwashed masses who seem barely conscious. Groupthink. Political ideology disguised as "fact". Politics in general. Modern journalists. Corporations. Virtue signaling. Delusional optimism. 'Progressive' people who are more bigoted than the people they hate. Having to work to live. Needing money to live. The economic system. Having no skills. Not being able to pursue my interests. Becoming uninterested in my interests. Never being able to talk to anyone with the same interests as me. Never finding anyone like me. People being assholes for no reason. Scammers, liars, fakes, and phonies.

 

[whywere]

Everything involving interacting with people and living in this dystopian society.

Narcissists. Psychopaths. Social ostracization. Social media. The brainwashed masses who seem barely conscious. Groupthink. Political ideology disguised as "fact". Politics in general. Modern journalists. Corporations. Virtue signaling. Delusional optimism. 'Progressive' people who are more bigoted than the people they hate. Having to work to live. Needing money to live. The economic system. Having no skills. Not being able to pursue my interests. Becoming uninterested in my interests. Never being able to talk to anyone with the same interests as me. Never finding anyone like me. People being assholes for no reason. Scammers, liars, fakes, and phonies.

I 100% agree with you, as far as I am 65 years young, and I wish we were line in sci-fi movies, where money and material grabbing are long in our past and we just focus on doing great things for each other. I also am like you as nobody seems to be like me. I have through the decades have had people tell me that I think strange and not "normal" Well, what in the heck is "normal" anyway?? You ARE a beautiful, kind and loving soul with a vision towards the future. I send you lots of hugs, love and the knowledge that YOU are like me. We are 1 global family here period! Walter

 

[Hopegone]

What does ctb stand for?

 

[insanedoomer]

What does ctb stand for?

Catch the bus

 

[Broken Buzz]

I would be glad to leave behind my psychotic ex-partner and the little coterie under her spell, whose attacks on every facet of my life have completely destroyed me.

I'd also be glad to leave my body behind, although there's nothing objectively wrong with me, my ex-partner's abuse has left me with body dysmorphia.

My suicide doesn't feel like a choice, it feels like tragic destiny.

 

[Beachedwhale]

Failure, regret, fatigue, pain

 

[Scribble Fan]

No more PTSD, loneliness, stress, anxiety, or feeling abandoned anymore! No more of this cruel, wicked world!

I really can't wait to CTB lol

 

[it's_all_a_game]

It'd be easier to list the things I WON'T be happy to leave behind, lol! (Which is literature, music, my cats...and thaaaat's about it.)