What will you be glad to leave behind when you CTB

[FuneralCry]

When I think about death, I always think of the things I will finally be free from and I won't have to experience again.
I will be glad to have no more chronic health problems, I am only 20 and this is bound to get worse when I get older. This is the bad thing about existence, your body will deteriorate and you are trapped inside. There will be no more tinnitus, visual snow, dizziness, palpitations etc. I will be glad to be free of going to any medical appointments.
I will be free from my overactive mind, I am constantly plagued by my own thoughts. I have been depressed my whole life and want to finally be at peace.
Also just little unpleasant things such as unwanted noise and hot weather.

 

[WornOutLife]

I will be more than happy to leave my overweight and bipolar disorder behind!

 

[motel rooms]

Pain in all of its fucking forms. Hope. Sometimes I hate hope, that lying little whore, even more than pain

 

[Carrotcake]

I'm just so so exhausted. I can't wait for it to be over.

 

[Last chance]

My mind.

 

[zeroshark]

-my abusive family. fuck them.
-all the anxiety and fear around other people/unintentionally making people mad because i don't know how to be a normal human
-watching myself become a worse person by the day and not knowing how to stop it
-how generally hateful, cruel and hopeless the world seems
-just the experience of being conscious. the idea of nothingness where i don't even exist to be aware of the nothing or anything that came before is so soothing.

 

[Breakout92]

This awful society that we live in.

 

[AnnonyBox]

I certainly won't miss having to get up for work every morning lol

 

[lofticries]

People (myself included).

 

[Beachedwhale]

1. Being a NEET thrice drop-out who lives with parents at 23.
2. Being a virgin at 23, 33, 43, 53, 63, 73, 83, 93, 103, 1003, 99999999999999 (life extension torture mind-upload driven by Dyson spheres).
3. Making gains too slowly in the gym.
4. Literally everyone around me serving their genetic interests better than me and this affecting my ability to serve my genetic interests negatively (modern harem-forming, capitalism) leading to my DNA punishing me with psychological pain.
5. Hunger, thirst, bent penis that I most likely can't have sex with.
6. Being unattractive to women due to being a lonely, depressed, suicidal NEET. (Psych pain).
7. Feeling pressure/anxiety.
8. Time moving very slowly.
9. Anhedonia, nothing to make up for the massive amounts of psychological pain.
10. Loneliness.
11. Trying and failing at jobs/educations while everyone in sight succeeds (whilst they have girlfriends and no anhedonia). (Psych pain again).
12. Getting angry at my parents for not realizing how horrible my situation is and not helping me die despite choosing to spawn me.
13. Feeling the effects of the coming dystopia, in whichever way it presents itself.
14. Feeling the effects of my weakness amass for an even longer time period (this all gets tougher to deal with as I age and civilization "advances").

Im in my late 20s and I'd kill to be 23 again. You are a baby.

 

[LONE WOLF.]

1. Being a NEET thrice drop-out who lives with parents at 23.
2. Being a virgin at 23, 33, 43, 53, 63, 73, 83, 93, 103, 1003, 99999999999999 (life extension torture mind-upload driven by Dyson spheres).
3. Making gains too slowly in the gym.
4. Literally everyone around me serving their genetic interests better than me and this affecting my ability to serve my genetic interests negatively (modern harem-forming, capitalism) leading to my DNA punishing me with psychological pain.
5. Hunger, thirst, bent penis that I most likely can't have sex with.
6. Being unattractive to women due to being a lonely, depressed, suicidal NEET. (Psych pain).
7. Feeling pressure/anxiety.
8. Time moving very slowly.
9. Anhedonia, nothing to make up for the massive amounts of psychological pain.
10. Loneliness.
11. Trying and failing at jobs/educations while everyone in sight succeeds (whilst they have girlfriends and no anhedonia). (Psych pain again).
12. Getting angry at my parents for not realizing how horrible my situation is and not helping me die despite choosing to spawn me.
13. Feeling the effects of the coming dystopia, in whichever way it presents itself.
14. Feeling the effects of my weakness amass for an even longer time period (this all gets tougher to deal with as I age and civilization "advances").

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[GenesAndEnvironment]

Im in my late 20s and I'd kill to be 23 again. You are a baby.

I'd switch places with you, believe me.

 

[Lost Magic]

Society, mental illness and suicidal thoughts. I never asked to be born into this shit and nor do I want to deal with it all the time.

 

[LONE WOLF.]

@GENESANDENVIROMENT, if your not making the gain's you want in the gym then add 2-3 scoops of CREATINE POWDER in your PROTEIN SHAKES, Drink half 30 minutes b4 your workout and the the other half after your workout and in 4 weeks You'll Notice the difference!!! Hope this helps,P.S l'm using this combination of power shakes with my workouts at the moment! And am happy with the results! :-)

 

[watereyes]

wizzie

 

[BluesRunTheGame]

Mental illness and alcohol cravings when I can't afford alcohol. Oh, and poverty.

 

[SadGirl]

I will leave my clinical depression, generalized anxiety disorder and panic. I will leave my bad feelings of hatred and anger. I will leave this sick humanity full of stupid people doing evil things.

 

[LONE WOLF.]

French Cheese! All vegan food, postmen/women,Eddie izzard(Freak) unreality TV, Piers the organ, Soap's, Religion, Russian Mice,

 

[Moose.000]

My failures, depression, health issues and financial stresses.

 

[Beachedwhale]

I'd switch places with you, believe me.

Why?

 

[bea1974]

No more fear, sadness, and pain.
No more loneliness and knowing I don't fit in. No more memories, and no more awareness of what a fucked up freak and failure I am.
No more watching others grow, succeed, achieve things I used to dream of but now know I'll never have.
No more admissions to the psych ward.
No more witnessing the cruelty of this world.
No more guilt, and shame.
No more thinking about others.
No more thinking at all.
No more aging.
No more failing.
No more anything.
No more existing.
Just a beautiful peaceful nothingness.

 

[GenesAndEnvironment]

Why?

Because you think good things exist.

 

[disillusionment]

Small things: no more bills, taxes, tedious chores, monotonous bullshit.

No more annoying neighbours. No more unwanted noise. No more sleepless nights.

No more being stuck in a place I hate, no more dealing with rude people.

No more endless lockdowns keeping me stuck in a tiny, dark hamster cage filled with mould and other allergens while the rich are enjoying their mansions, pools and going on vacations etc

I'd be glad to leave behind my thoughts, my constant anxiety, worries. I'd be glad to leave behind the unwanted memories that replay over and over in my head, and the intrusive thoughts.

I want to leave behind desires, pointless desires that will likely not be fulfilled, and even if they are fulfilled, I'd just have new desires.

 

[LastLoveLetter]

Existence, consciousness...Just not having to think or feel ever again. My body and brain are my worst enemies. I look forward to being free of them at last, and to no longer be part of this fucked up human race.

 

[russlinjimmies]

I didn't realize how pervasive the thought of leaving behind the everyday annoyances of life as a motive to ctb was. Kinda thought I was in a small minority on that one.

For me it is leaving behind a joyless existence where I have no real passions or desires. To no longer have to deal with the regrets of failures, terrible decisions, and risks never taken. Feeling stuck in an endless cycle of no real purpose where I simply survive day-to-day. All of the thoughts inside I've never shared for fear I'd be institutionalized. The knowing that I'm much more of a monster than anyone in my life can ever realize.

 

[Downbylife]

No more chronic health problems. Just that

 

[xLosthopex]

People's expectations of me

That's just one, there are plenty of other things too

 

[Brick In The Wall]

I feel like if I make a list I'll be bound to perpetually repeat the things on that list for eternity

 

[Celerity]

I just want to stop wanting things I can't have.

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

-Myself
-The feelings of fatigue I get whenever I have to do any form of movement
-Fear
-All the things that haunt me about how terrible I was
-being a lonely kissless virgin incel in my late 20s
-Inane arguments over the internet over anything
-Politics and people spitting their propaganda out as fact, specifically the hyper woke kind of politics that will probably evolve with or without me and I want no part in it
-probably more but I can't remember any
-the feeling of stupidity whenever I can't remember anything