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EyeBeyond

EyeBeyond

Beyond Galaxy
Dec 3, 2023
75
What was the most powerful emotion you have ever felt? Why?
 
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thetruetato

thetruetato

Suicidal Femboy :3
Jan 1, 2024
160
This is a surprisingly difficult question to answer. I don't really know tbh.
 
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Slow_Farewell

Slow_Farewell

Warlock
Dec 19, 2023
709
Weirdly enough, Love.
I've been annoyed/mad, or even hated someone enough that i fantasized about ways to hurt them back, but I haven't. It was all in my mind.
but love? shit, i've changed for love.
(or maybe what i thought was love at the time).
 
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johann_liebert

johann_liebert

Im freien Fall nach oben
Nov 11, 2023
89
I'd say love. But I would rather describe it as the most impactful than powerful. It always felt like I was a completely different person when I just got a taste of it. And I think I have so much of it to give. But my mental illness doesn't allow me to, as with many other things in life.
 
almondmilk

almondmilk

half man half amazing
Mar 7, 2023
112
grief. longing over something you are aware that is never coming back , no matter how hard you try , and accept that you'll never be good enough .
 
FujoshiNeet

FujoshiNeet

✌️ you are mentally ill ✌️
Jan 21, 2024
108
Love. Makes you feel like you're in an absolute dream. Things feel otherworldly and amazing.
Grief is strong but at some point, I go numb. I don't go numb with love.
 
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cold_severance

Student
Dec 11, 2023
139
self-hatred
 
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UKscotty

Doesn't read PMs
May 20, 2021
2,445
Love for a partner or grief at a loss, not sure which was the strongest.

Had some wild times on alcohol and other drugs over the times though, but they were artificial so not sure if they count.
 
ijustwishtodie

ijustwishtodie

I have finally found my ultimate bliss
Oct 29, 2023
5,795
For me, the strongest emotion I've gone through is feeling annoyed and irritated that I'm still alive. Aside from this, I don't really feel anything at all
 
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Raindancer

Raindancer

Specialist
Nov 4, 2023
364
I'd say pain from my ex walking out and second would be self hatred.
 
leavingthesoultrap

leavingthesoultrap

(ᴗ_ ᴗ。)
Nov 25, 2023
1,212
I have BPD every emotion is intense unfortunately
 
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sorlox

sorlox

preparations...
Dec 1, 2023
123
Fear, disguised as a hartred. During the harshest of fights with my family, i got hysterical, and also a thought: "This is the end. Closest of my relatives are standing against me, they want to see me suffer. It's impossible to fight back, i need to run and hide.". That was a point of no return for me.
 
Abyssal

Abyssal

Probably gonna die soon maybe?
Nov 26, 2023
1,326
Anger. I don't feel it often but it runs me through the mud when I do.
 
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tabris_075

Member
Feb 2, 2024
31
What was the most powerful emotion you have ever felt? Why?
A wish for death, it was so unexpected considering it was my first time feeling like that, but it was surely overwhelming, it brought me a peace I've never found in anything else.
 
user933957

user933957

I hate it all, just let me die
Jun 24, 2023
138
What was the most powerful emotion you have ever felt? Why?
either love or desperation. I loved someone very much for years, (and I still do) it was the most powerful emotion I felt. I am currently feeling very desperate to end ctb, and to end my pain
A wish for death, it was so unexpected considering it was my first time feeling like that, but it was surely overwhelming, it brought me a peace I've never found in anything else.
I've never agreed more, I've never wanted to die more, but it comforts me in a weird way.
 
lament.

lament.

the Immortal
Jun 28, 2023
223
Euphoria, everything else just feels dull and depressing when I'm not feeling euphoric. It's an indescribable feeling that quickly fades and only leaves me feeling worse.
 

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