What Type of Suicidal Are You

[Flightless Wings]

Far from scientific, but roughly what 'archetype' of suicidal do you fall into? Categories made up on a whim. If you fall into multiple, pick what resonates the best.

BPD Nightmare: Suffering from BPD and struggling to cope with it.
Chronic Health Hell: Suffering from a chronic health condition that makes life intolerable.
Married to Misery: Mired in sorrow and nihilism from personal tragedy or philosophical pointlessness.
Doomed from the Start: There's no 'reason' for you to be suicidal, you're just like this.
Broken Joe: You had a successful life, then something happened that ruined it.
God's Chew Toy: You can't find any peace. Life bullies you with disaster after disaster, including actual bullies.
Other: Something else. Comment down below.

I'm Doomed from the Start.

 

[GoSan1]

Other: Not belonging into such a life and being consumed by it.

I have a life some would actually crave. I have a good job, a promising future, and if someone with more social skills would take over probably a lover. But I do not want to live in such a world, its boring and I have no goals such as money, family or traveling. I just rot in my room playing video games and watching anime while waiting for death to show itself.

 

[SadFoxDreamer83]

I am the Broken Joe type of the survey.
I had everything and now I can't earn a single euro since 2020, the Spanish government doesn't want to help me, they say that if I'm living with my parents at my age I don't deserve a single euro. I live in an isolated town, more than 50 kilometers around are private olive trees, from olive oil companies, who also don't want to give me a chance to work, they say it's because I only have experience as a hotel receptionist and because of my age. I have no income, no public transport, no bicycle, and I think I'm going to end up homeless soon, because my parents are threatening to throw me out on the street, as if I were a bag of garbage, not only do they not help me but they despise me, they only give me 15 euros a month for the phone, with that I can't try to escape to another place.
The only thing I haven't lost is my dream of going to Japan one day, since I was a child I've always wanted to travel to Japan but I've never been able to travel far.
I wish I could fulfill my dream of traveling to Japan before I end up taking my own life, but I know I will never be able to travel because I will never be able to earn money again. I would love to be able to travel to Japan and if I can't live there, at least commit suicide in the Aokigahara suicide forest.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Guess I'm kinda a cross between a Broken Joe and God's Chew Toy, but without any bullying, since that scenario wouldn't work out too well for the other party.

 

[human909]

For me it's broken joe.

 

[Well_Its_Time]

Broken Joe

 

[cyclicism]

For me it's doomed from the start/other. No particular reason for me being suicidal- not at its core. My 'feel like shit all the time for no reason' syndrome (as I like to call it) comes and goes, but being suicidal (whether it's passive or active) seems to stick even when I'm in a relatively good place.

 

[ma0]

I know that the universe loves to toy with me, and mock me for any attempt I make to create something. And then people are ripped away from me, I've seemingly been cursed to say whatever comes to mind, often to my detrament, and I'm just sick of it all.

So yeah, I'd say God's chew toy.

 

[Prism]

I'm mostly like Broken Joe, but some of the others are mixed in there as well.

 

[Forveleth]

Any good thing I have ever had in my life has always had something worse associated with it. Be nice to people, get bullied. Finally make friends, they abandon me two years later but still pretend we are "friends". Get my first job in my career field, have an asshole of a boss that gave me mental problems. Found a partner who was the nicest person ever and turned into an abusive leech once he had me on lock

I am God's Chew Toy.

 

[OptingOutSmiling]

Maybe a mix between Married to Misery due to personal tragedy and Broken Joe, except my life was never really successful. Constant fighting to "make" something out of life and then one big blow made me fall into a pit of despair leading me to give up on everything with not much hope of a future left.

 

[Pyxel]

Definitely the broken Joe. Smooth sailing til' it all went to shit

 

[rocksnrocks]

doomed from the start. been like this as long as i can remember, since i was a little kid. any happiness i get is fleeting, it never lasts long. no matter how my life is going its just this never ending feeling of emptiness and misery

 

[Michi_Violeta]

A Broken Joe and God's Chew Toy hybrid. I'm a smart and sociable man from an upper-middle class family, I have been successful in all my academic endeavors and even at my sporting ones. But everything related to work and, more importantly, romantic love has been a kick in the balls, one after the other, just heartbreak, and failure, and shitty jobs, and women who abuse me, and then my ex who was the most beautiful romantic relationship I've ever had and left me in so much pain that I've taken steps towards ctb that I had never even considered before.

 

[S like suicide]

Doomed from the start and God's chew toy.

my life started bad so how could it get better?everything that happened since i was born in this world and in my family and what i experienced growing up led me to the point i am now.Life hasn't beeen kind to me.
I was doomed to suicide from the start and that makes me God's chew toy.
A sort of sacrifice's victim.

 

[ItsyBitsyWeetard]

chronic condition + mental illness + life has gone to shit

 

[Forever Sleep]

Ha ha- God's chew toy. That's maybe accurate for all of us.

I'm closest to: Married to Mysery and, Doomed from the Start. My downward tragectory started age 3 and took a nose dive age 10. I've done the best I could to get through but it's been obvious it was all a pile of shit pretty much from the start.

 

[bananaolympus]

Chronic health hell and god chew toy

 

[Permanoir]

Doomed from the start and a bit of Broken Joe because of all the problems I had and continue to have because of being born intersex

 

[Praestat_Mori]

Other but maybe I could also fit into Broken Joe.

I'm suicidal bc I suffer from a big failure in life and that led to a lack of money.

 

[sximii]

Hate BPD. Hate it hate it with all my might

 

[FuneralCry]

My wish to die is a result of not wanting to suffer, I personally just want the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep instead of the cruel, torturous burden of human existence, to me existence just feels like a mistake and I see it as the most terrible tragedy how this existence was even imposed at all, non-existence is all I hope for and is all I've ever wished for, I was never meant for the abomination of existence. I'd always prefer to painlessly cease existing than be enslaved in this existence of cruelty and unnecessary suffering hoping and wishing to be gone destined to decay and die anyway with no limit as to how much agony I can feel, for me existing is deeply undesirable in every way, I'm so tired of being conscious in this existence and I suffer so much from how I'm denied the option to just fall asleep permanently and never exist ever again, only non-existence can personally solve what I see as the true problem which is existence itself.

 

[billie]

i'm chronically suicidal

 

[neonzebra]

Gods Chew Toy... Been battered since a young age and circumstances just keep piling up to make it worse and worse.

 

[WatchmeBurn]

Just not good enough to make life worth living. Lack a fundamental level of competence in every category.

 

[lotus11]

I am the Broken Joe type of the survey.
I had everything and now I can't earn a single euro since 2020, the Spanish government doesn't want to help me, they say that if I'm living with my parents at my age I don't deserve a single euro. I live in an isolated town, more than 50 kilometers around are private olive trees, from olive oil companies, who also don't want to give me a chance to work, they say it's because I only have experience as a hotel receptionist and because of my age. I have no income, no public transport, no bicycle, and I think I'm going to end up homeless soon, because my parents are threatening to throw me out on the street, as if I were a bag of garbage, not only do they not help me but they despise me, they only give me 15 euros a month for the phone, with that I can't try to escape to another place.
The only thing I haven't lost is my dream of going to Japan one day, since I was a child I've always wanted to travel to Japan but I've never been able to travel far.
I wish I could fulfill my dream of traveling to Japan before I end up taking my own life, but I know I will never be able to travel because I will never be able to earn money again. I would love to be able to travel to Japan and if I can't live there, at least commit suicide in the Aokigahara suicide forest.

I live in Spain too, I get it. It's rough here with the government and jobs. I live in Madrid and work teaching English which is my only option as Spanish is not fluent but I work 14 hour days just to make enough to share a flat with 5 students in my 30s. It's rough. I'm so exhausted might as well be dead tbh.

Chronic health hell and god chew toy

Same for me

 

[Johnzaga23]

Guess I'm kinda a cross between a Broken Joe and God's Chew Toy, but without any bullying, since that scenario wouldn't work out too well for the other party.

i relate im a Broken Joe because im God's Chew Toy

 

[ItHurts]

Broken Joe - had everything, then got a chronic health condition and now my fiancé has left me.

 

[Still here]

Other: Not belonging into such a life and being consumed by it.

I have a life some would actually crave. I have a good job, a promising future, and if someone with more social skills would take over probably a lover. But I do not want to live in such a world, its boring and I have no goals such as money, family or traveling. I just rot in my room playing video games and watching anime while waiting for death to show itself.

I am just like you...

I have been asking my self recently what am I looking forward to and nothing else other than the day I cease to exist on this planet..

Being non existent on this planet is the only thing that I am eagerly anticipating with enthusiasm...

 

[onmywaytothebusstop]

It's extremely difficult lately to find joy in anything but for some reason this poll made me feel joyfull for just a minute.

Thank you for that