What things have you given up in life since you are depressed and thinking about CTB?

[VivaldiBR]

Examples: A loving relationship, professional career, physical activities, social life, careful with appearance, care for physical health, etc?

 

[greebo6]

I suppose almost everything really.

 

[chrisbate7]

Lifting weights, playing basketball, doing social things outside of work, reading books, watching movies

 

[Pookie]

Almost everything. I'm just existing, not living.

 

[BPD Barbie]

A career, listening to music, driving, taking care of myself, socialising.

 

[lost guy]

I have given up on pretty much everything (career, golf, health, etc) except for drinking.

 

[Wraith]

My dreams of being a functioning human being, mostly. I've tried picking up various hobbies and skills here and there, but I ultimately end up dropping them because it all seems pointless.

 

[Disappointered]

A career, having real friends, fitting into society, being part of any group, passion, purpose, feeling good, making money, understanding how the world works, understanding what human experience and reality is, enjoying things, having fun, being connected to humanity, developing a talent, resuming martial arts and fitness.

 

[Deleted member 17949]

I have always been a low energy person so honestly never had much to give up in the first place. If I had to say something I would definitely say mountain biking. I used to go out with friends almost every weekend when I was younger and almost every day in holidays. We would cycle a lot and I enjoyed it. Now I never feel like going so my bike has just been sitting alone for months. I can't even feel much enthusiasm over the idea of going anymore, it just seems meh.

 

[ecmnesia]

basically everything, especially if there is some sort of challenge/learning process behind, except from comfortable activities I care for nothing.

 

[Lupgevif]

Romantic relationship, more intimate relationships, learning another languages, learning how to play the piano.

 

[chrisbate7]

So sad for everyone on here. What a horrible curse we all have been burdened with. I wish you all at least some peace.

 

[VivaldiBR]

So sad for everyone on here. What a horrible curse we all have been burdened with. I wish you all at least some peace.

At least we can be compassionate to each other here.

 

[Brick In The Wall]

I've basically abandoned everything. If anything good happens to me it's a pleasant surprise and no longer an expectation.

 

[xvc]

Rarely talk to my parents, stopped talking to my friends cause I never had any motivation to hang out with them, stopped making an effort to find any joy out of life as a whole.

 

[Lordsudbury]

Peace of mind, full night of sleep, my friends and social life, style, physical hygiene most of the time, any motivation that gets me out of the house. My job. My house. My identity and ego.

 

[Journeytoletgo]

Romantic relationships
Marriage
Having children
Having a social life
Feeling connected to others

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm not sure if I had much to give up in the first place. There has never been much that I wanted from this life, I have always just existed for the sake of existing. I guess in general I just lack energy for most things.

 

[Celerity]

Love. Money. By extension, a comfortable retirement. Happiness. I might be able to shoot for contentment, but the odds aren't looking great.

 

[DunnoWhyButYeah]

I don't anymore fight against my eating disorder. I don't care about my medication.

 

[sadmeltie]

Pretty much everything social

 

[WorthlessTrash]

Exercising (since I hate my body as a result of my assigned sex), my card game hobby, and looking for a relationship.

 

[Hollowman]

Hope

 

[Fulminare]

My career. It's the only thing I've ever had in the past few years. Also fighting urges and my addictions. I subdued to them because I know I'll go soon, so why not have some fun at least?

 

[Rocinante]

I've given up on everything.

 

[angelfeather]

I've also given up on everything. No hope, no future, no life…

 

[Source Energy]

Making plans for the future. I don't see myself past the age of 50 - depressed or not. That would leave me with around 10 more years - 15 if my looks hold - then I would ctb anyway. I don't want to become one of those old ladies with short permanent hair, sagging jaws and a stern attitude, walking in a cane. Given my personal pains, waiting until I get older is out of question. I want to transition, and it will be soon. As a consequence, I stopped making plans except for a few weeks/months ahead. I avoid such talk with other people.

I have also given up on having dreams. They turned to ashes. I am tired.