Help What things are keeping you alive?

[Lovecraft's Lover]

To me...
My cats. Their names are : Mechitas, Pelusa and Minina (all of them are fem cats)
My board games. I love playing them with "friends" (quotation marks because they're all for the gaming, barely for something else)
A very insubstantial/weak sense of "hope" that something special can happen in my life (a sense that is diminishing day by day)

That's it for me.

What things are keeping you alive?
_ _ _ _
PS: this is my first post here (altough I opened my account around a moth ago). I need to talk. Don't know where else to go...

 

[Dejected 55]

Just the tiny remaining hope that I can be saved by the love of my life before I have to take my life if she doesn't.

 

[oneirataxia]

Dissociation and delusion. Nothing else.

 

[Irisse]

My parents, my grandma, my cats.

 

[protocoltwentytwo]

Running on survival instinct here. Your cats names are fascinating, what do they mean?

 

[westerly_merlin]

My son, my dog.

The hope that things will get better

The dream one day I will be happy with myself

 

[Lovecraft's Lover]

Running on survival instinct here. Your cats names are fascinating, what do they mean?

Mechitas is the diminutive for "hair highlights" (Mechas being the regular form)
Pelusa means fluff (hair fluff). I call her "Señorita Pelusa" (Miss Fluff)
Minina is the "cutest" synonym of kitten
All Spanish words.

Thank you all for share with me what things keep you alive.

As I watch my kittens play right now... I don't want to die...

however... When I remember how bad my life is (in regard to all other areas)

 

[softtodie]

losing access to my desired method is what is temporarily keeping me around and also for my family we jut lost another family member and I don't know how they'd deal with loosing another so soon

 

[persepexa]

For me it's how awful it would be for my family, and even that is fading. Apart from that it's the little things. An artist I like is releasing an album next year after not releasing since 2019. A few games are coming out soon that I'd like to play. But then I think what the rest of my life will be like at the time. Like I play those games, finish them and then what? I wait for the new music, maybe catch them on tour if my dad buys me a ticket (I could never afford to see a concert with my own money) and then what? Like the things that make life worth it for me are starting to fade.

 

[ManOfTheYear]

I have nothing here. No friends, family, job. I've stopped having desire for the one thing I chased for so long, so as of right now I have no reason to live.

 

[anxious_rain461]

I love how for you, it's your cats...before my cat passed away, I felt the same. Keep them safe and take care of them, live for them while you can, they love you and they won't judge you. Animals are beautiful companions who are so much better than people~.

For me, I don't know why I keep going anymore. I've felt worse and worse this past year and can't find joy or excitement, like constant anhedonia blocking anything my life wants or craves. I guess it's leaving without fulfilling anything...I want to use my art to help others. I hope I can, or have, at least helped one person before I go, even though I couldn't help myself.

 

[SuicidalTendencies]

Hope, but it's torture waiting for things to get better.

 

[MicahBell]

To me...
My cats. Their names are : Mechitas, Pelusa and Minina (all of them are fem cats)
My board games. I love playing them with "friends" (quotation marks because they're all for the gaming, barely for something else)
A very insubstantial/weak sense of "hope" that something special can happen in my life (a sense that is diminishing day by day)

That's it for me.

What things are keeping you alive?
_ _ _ _
PS: this is my first post here (altough I opened my account around a moth ago). I need to talk. Don't know where else to go...

my brother going through a bad divorce, her taking his pets and his stuff. idk what he'd do if i died. also my plants

 

[protocoltwentytwo]

Mechitas is the diminutive for "hair highlights" (Mechas being the regular form)
Pelusa means fluff (hair fluff). I call her "Señorita Pelusa" (Miss Fluff)
Minina is the "cutest" synonym of kitten
All Spanish words.

Thank you all for share with me what things keep you alive.

As I watch my kittens play right now... I don't want to die...

however... When I remember how bad my life is (in regard to all other areas)

So cute. It's not an easy situation. I'm always here for you if you need anything

 

[jinmaopoison]

The pitt fandom season 2 comes out in January so I need to stick around till then

 

[certainty]

my parents, SI/fear of failure, hope (?)

P.S. welcome! your cat names are v creative and i presume descriptive, they sound like cuties :)

 

[Xiaojiu]

My husband

Guilt over hurting him and the very few people who care

SI

 

[unregisteredseaurch]

i'm not ready to ctb yet but i think about it often. regardless, i'm holding out to finish my degree. to spend a little more time with my dogs and my best friend. to make and perform more music with my band. to listen to more music in general.

of course i also have fears of failing, fear of being found and the thought of their reaction, also the fear of missing out. but i try to think about the more positive reasons over the fears

 

[Chairbed3]

I've something coming up in two months. If I don't succeed in it, I will have to finally implement my plan to end my life. It's not that my decision is tied to this event, but it's like the last straw because I don't think I have any more strength and time to get back up.

 

[lostandweary]

My mom. The fear that I'll regret it. And the fear of death in general. But mostly, because the idea of doing that to my mom makes me feel guiltier than anything. I'm her only child too.

 

[doomedforsure]

fear of failure. my parents. damn why my country make the gun illegal

 

[FuneralCry]

I only continue to suffer in this dreadful, torturous existence as after all I'm so cruelly denied the option to just painlessly cease existing in peace and never suffer again, it truly is the most horrific, dreadful anti-suicide world where the suffering of existing is seen as to force and prolong no matter what and I just always suffer so much as a result of being denied painless death as all I want is to be gone.

I just want to never exist again, I always find it so torturous to be trapped in this existence just waiting to die anyway in this deeply undesirable existence, I'll just always prefer to not exist than suffer but of course more than anything I wish I never suffered, I just never should had been burdened with this existence.

 

[sorrowfullyliving]

Probably my hobby, but I haven't had the time to do it because of college stuff