L951788
Student
- Dec 28, 2020
- 102
I'm 25 and basically done completing the spiral now. I'd say the spiral started at 5 when my parents started doctor shopping me to psychologists thinking I had a disorder for normal kid behavior. All the psychologists said there was nothing wrong with me. Eventually was brought to a psychiatrist where of course I was given an antipsychotic and antidepressant. At 9 I was on those plus ANOTHER antipsychotic.
After years of getting good grades and doing well in sports I started getting health problems and of course wasn't believed and sent to a psychiatric program instead. That derailed my real life. I was 17. Ruined everything. Wasn't believed even when a doctor proved I had food allergies. Parents said he was just scamming me and I needed different psych meds.
Oh well. I just joined this site the other day and already ordered SN and the other materials. I'll be doing it soon I believe.
And tbh, I'll just go ahead and say it. I advocate for direct violence against psychiatrists and the people forcing you or someone you know to be drugged. It is an evil and unbeatable dynamic in modern society. The only thing that really reaches people is direct confrontation. Just saying. I've also been homicidal and have thought about slaughtering my childhood psychiatrist as well as my mother. But I'm not going down that route because I'd take death over prison. They'd have a hard time arresting me alive, though.
This whole post right here is an example of what a life like this makes somebody. And to finish it off, here's my med list over my life, basically entirely unilaterally driven by my mom. (Who I have a no contact order against thankfully).
After years of getting good grades and doing well in sports I started getting health problems and of course wasn't believed and sent to a psychiatric program instead. That derailed my real life. I was 17. Ruined everything. Wasn't believed even when a doctor proved I had food allergies. Parents said he was just scamming me and I needed different psych meds.
Oh well. I just joined this site the other day and already ordered SN and the other materials. I'll be doing it soon I believe.
And tbh, I'll just go ahead and say it. I advocate for direct violence against psychiatrists and the people forcing you or someone you know to be drugged. It is an evil and unbeatable dynamic in modern society. The only thing that really reaches people is direct confrontation. Just saying. I've also been homicidal and have thought about slaughtering my childhood psychiatrist as well as my mother. But I'm not going down that route because I'd take death over prison. They'd have a hard time arresting me alive, though.
This whole post right here is an example of what a life like this makes somebody. And to finish it off, here's my med list over my life, basically entirely unilaterally driven by my mom. (Who I have a no contact order against thankfully).