Help What should I do?

[cloveriskindaupset]

I'm so unbelievably tired with living. I've been dealing with a overwhelming depression for years now and it's not getting better, if anything I feel worse. I'm running out of options to kill myself however and need some advice. My parents have locked up all the meds (I'm 18 so I could go out and buy medications but I'm unsure what would work well), hanging never works, I'm terrified of blood so I can't cut myself, and I'm trying to find options that won't put me in unnecessary pain and actually work in the end. I'm thinking about throwing myself infront of a train but I'm scared about how much it may hurt. Idk I'm just so lost right now on what to do. Any recommendations would help.

 

[FuneralCry]

Cutting and taking otc medication aren't reliable suicide methods. There's no easy, straightforward way, to me all the methods are either risky, inaccessible or just horrible/incredibly difficult to go through with but there's information about methods listed in the suicide resource compilation. But anyway I wish you the best and I hope that you eventually find the freedom you are searching for.

 

[Vizzy]

I'm so unbelievably tired with living. I've been dealing with a overwhelming depression for years now and it's not getting better, if anything I feel worse. I'm running out of options to kill myself however and need some advice. My parents have locked up all the meds (I'm 18 so I could go out and buy medications but I'm unsure what would work well), hanging never works, I'm terrified of blood so I can't cut myself, and I'm trying to find options that won't put me in unnecessary pain and actually work in the end. I'm thinking about throwing myself infront of a train but I'm scared about how much it may hurt. Idk I'm just so lost right now on what to do. Any recommendations would help.

Hanging works if done correctly, train method is good but make sure you put your neck on the railroad so train cut your neck like a butter don't throw your entire body in front of the train, close your eyes so that train staffs don't see your bright eyes

Jumping works make sure the building is minimum 15 floors and jump head first so that your head hit the ground first!

 

[Someone123]

My honest recommendation is that, considering that you are 18, and the wold has a lot more opportunities for younger peoeple than later in life, to make such you explore all options for recovery before deciding to ctb. Sadly, therapy and medicatinos rarely work- if you get lucky a therapist can help, but it rare, though it is vrey profitable. Loneliness is the number one cause of depression, so exploring all options you can think of for making friends coiuyld really help- especially considering searching on youtube for "How to Make Friends" and simi9lar searches, there are many videos peoplee have put here to try to help people to alleviate their loneliness. I do respect people's choice to ctb though, it is your own decision.

 

[The anhedonic one]

I'm so unbelievably tired with living. I've been dealing with a overwhelming depression for years now and it's not getting better, if anything I feel worse. I'm running out of options to kill myself however and need some advice. My parents have locked up all the meds (I'm 18 so I could go out and buy medications but I'm unsure what would work well), hanging never works, I'm terrified of blood so I can't cut myself, and I'm trying to find options that won't put me in unnecessary pain and actually work in the end. I'm thinking about throwing myself infront of a train but I'm scared about how much it may hurt. Idk I'm just so lost right now on what to do. Any recommendations would help.

So sorry you are going through this.
A lot of the more violent methods are unreliable. And over the counter methods are not that reliable as well.
It is definitely not easy to ctb.

 

[cloveriskindaupset]

Hanging works if done correctly, train method is good but make sure you put your neck on the railroad so train cut your neck like a butter don't throw your entire body in front of the train, close your eyes so that train staffs don't see your bright eyes

Jumping works make sure the building is minimum 15 floors and jump head first so that your head hit the ground first!

I just have such a hard time with hanging… idk why. I just either tie it wrong or something.. that's why I've given up on it. But maybe I should try it again. And as for jumping I'm getting annoyed as most bridges in my area have safety gates so you can't jump. And there's not a lot of tall buildings around. :/ I never knew dying could be this tough

So sorry you are going through this.
A lot of the more violent methods are unreliable. And over the counter methods are not that reliable as well.
It is definitely not easy to ctb.

Yeah after spending days trying to find ways to go about it, I've found that it's very hard to ctb. You'd think it'd be easy enough, find a tall building, a train, etc, and jump. And don't even get me started about the worries I have for my family afterwards. My brother seems to be depressed too, and I'm worried that if I ctb, he'll lose his only friend, me. And he'll end up like me too. These past few days have been very mentally exhausting to say the least.

 

[MusicGuy]

If you're desperate enough, jumping might work for you. Just make sure the building/bridge is high enought and that SI doesn't kick in too hard.

About the other methods, train method is fast and you don't feel much from what I've read, but you gotta put your neck on the rails, not throw yourself in front of the train. Cutting and otc are not reliable enought. Hope you find peace whatever you choose to do.

 

[Vizzy]

I just have such a hard time with hanging… idk why. I just either tie it wrong or something.. that's why I've given up on it. But maybe I should try it again. And as for jumping I'm getting annoyed as most bridges in my area have safety gates so you can't jump. And there's not a lot of tall buildings around. :/ I never knew dying could be this tough

Yeah after spending days trying to find ways to go about it, I've found that it's very hard to ctb. You'd think it'd be easy enough, find a tall building, a train, etc, and jump. And don't even get me started about the worries I have for my family afterwards. My brother seems to be depressed too, and I'm worried that if I ctb, he'll lose his only friend, me. And he'll end up like me too. These past few days have been very mentally exhausting to say the least.

This can help you for hanging, read this link below

Painless partial hanging - my method

No guarantee for correctness. You may end up with serious injuries if you fail. Proceed at your own risk. Sorry for my bad English. This thread is the result of 5 months of research, practicing partial hanging and figuring out how to reduce the pain. Just because it works for me, doesn't mean...

sanctioned-suicide.net

 

[cloveriskindaupset]

This can help you for hanging, read this link below

Painless partial hanging - my method

No guarantee for correctness. You may end up with serious injuries if you fail. Proceed at your own risk. Sorry for my bad English. This thread is the result of 5 months of research, practicing partial hanging and figuring out how to reduce the pain. Just because it works for me, doesn't mean...

sanctioned-suicide.net

Aaaaa! Thank you! I didn't know this existed! Im not sure how im going to get the rope I need… I suppose I could go to Lowe's or maybe Home Depot for it? I can't order online cus my mom will see it in the mail and she knows im suicidal so I wouldn't be able to get away with it lol. But since this guides here, I might as well try it out. Thanks for the link!