What should I do (or need to do) before I ctb?

[DisIsDaPhoenyx]

I've been procrastinating making this post, but I'm finally doing it.

I have plans to ctb this Sunday on the 13th, which means I don't have a lot of time left. I don't want to do anything crazy on the unfortunate chance I survive, but I want to make picking up the piece easy for when I do succeed. If it's helpful I plan on leaving the house for it (SN). I already have donated all the items that I didn't really care for or was hoarding, and trashed some stuff that I didn't want found. I have plans to clean my room, and I don't really want to leave a note. I don't know if there's other things recommended to do, but if so I love to hear them.


Unrelated but I'm so nervicited about this attempt. This will be the second attempt that I'm doing on a September 13th, so let's hope for my sake second time is the charm. I nervous because if I failed, I'm cooked and I totally lied to my friend too. But I'm excited because this should be like a guaranteed win, and if so then there will be nothing to worry about after.

Anyway, thanks for reading!

 

[doggo2355]

What method are you planning on using?

 

[DisIsDaPhoenyx]

What method are you planning on using?

SN.

 

[doggo2355]

Look up the podcast "hunting the suicide salesman"

Give the first episode (or first two) a listen if you haven't so far. I feel like it paints a decent picture of how destructive this is for families and friends.

I'm really really sorry to hear you're at this point right now. Do you want to tell me why you're feeling suicidal?

Did you obtain the SN yet?

 

[TransientEternal]

Nothing is really needed since it won't really matter after you're gone, but if you want you can treat yourself to a great day doing whatever you want.

 

[DisIsDaPhoenyx]

I feel like it paints a decent picture of how destructive this is for families and friends.

I'm really really sorry to hear you're at this point right now. Do you want to tell me why you're feeling suicidal?

Did you obtain the SN yet?

I'mma be honest, that's not really my problem what happens to them after this. I know that makes me a selfish person but I'm tired of putting their suffering above my own, I'mma do what I want which is to die. I plan on kms because I just don't want to live anymore I'm a lazy person who can't be self-sufficient and tired of everything. Also, what's the point of living now just to die when I'm older? Let's skip the boring stuff and just get to the death.

And yes, I have SN already, I have for month actually I just waited to be able to do on September 13th again because it's funny.

(Sorry if this sound harsh, I'm not trying to be rude or condescending just my general thought process).

Nothing is really needed since it won't really matter after you're gone, but if you want you can treat yourself to a great day doing whatever you want.

True that, I was just trying to make sure my death doesn't bring bad things or cause an excess of extra work. I plan on getting me some food though. I also might possibly go to watch a movie, but I much less certain about that.

 

[doggo2355]

I'mma be honest, that's not really my problem what happens to them after this. I know that makes me a selfish person but I'm tired of putting their suffering above my own, I'mma do what I want which is to die. I plan on kms because I just don't want to live anymore I'm a lazy person who can't be self-sufficient and tired of everything. Also, what's the point of living now just to die when I'm older? Let's skip the boring stuff and just get to the death.

And yes, I have SN already, I have for month actually I just waited to be able to do on September 13th again because it's funny.

(Sorry if this sound harsh, I'm not trying to be rude or condescending just my general thought process).

No worries, you're not being rude. It's a difficult topic. It's not like I entirely disagree, I can empathize a lot with what you're saying because I have and sometimes still feel the same. But for the vast majority of people, the really bad phases are transient. For almost everybody, it's is worth it toughing it out, treating it like you would treat a common cold. Wait till the symptoms subside somewhat. I strongly believe that it is possible for you to live an enjoyable life in the future.

 

[DisIsDaPhoenyx]

No worries, you're not being rude. It's a difficult topic. It's not like I entirely disagree, I can empathize a lot with what you're saying because I have and sometimes still feel the same. But for the vast majority of people, the really bad phases are transient. For almost everybody, it's is worth it toughing it out, treating it like you would treat a common cold. Wait till the symptoms subside somewhat. I strongly believe that it is possible for you to live an enjoyable life in the future.

I've been suicidal since I was 11, and this will be attempt number 3 and in between all that there has never been a moment where I thought I was happy to be alive right now. I truly wished I was never born, but that didn't happen so I gotta do the next best thing for myself. I do applaud & thank you for your kindness, and maybe if my life was a little different or the world was a little more forgiving I could live a happy life, but for where we are in the world right now I just don't see that in the cards for me.

 

[doggo2355]

I've been suicidal since I was 11, and this will be attempt number 3 and in between all that there has never been a moment where I thought I was happy to be alive right now. I truly wished I was never born, but that didn't happen so I gotta do the next best thing for myself. I do applaud & thank you for your kindness, and maybe if my life was a little different or the world was a little more forgiving I could live a happy life, but for where we are in the world right now I just don't see that in the cards for me.

Like I said, I empathize a lot. I totally get you and that really doesn't sound all that great, to put it lightly lol. Nevertheless, improvement in some way or form is usually possible. In the end it is your life, but I really hope to still be seeing you around here after the 14th. That'd probably make my day.

 

[ceilingabove]

Nothing is really needed since it won't really matter after you're gone, but if you want you can treat yourself to a great day doing whatever you want.

hey. i just want to say the consequences of your actions do matter even if they don't directly affect you. this person is being considerate by asking this question. i don't at all intend to call you out specifically or anything, but i've just seen this sentiment perpetuated a lot on here.

 

[DisIsDaPhoenyx]

Like I said, I empathize a lot. I totally get you and that really doesn't sound all that great, to put it lightly lol. Nevertheless, improvement in some way or form is usually possible. In the end it is your life, but I really hope to still be seeing you around here after the 14th. That'd probably make my day.

You're right, but I tired of trying for now. Thank you anyhow and if I somehow manage to survive I will left you know. All love! <3

 

[Minnieflower:)]

What method are you planning on using?

I've been procrastinating making this post, but I'm finally doing it.

I have plans to ctb this Sunday on the 13th, which means I don't have a lot of time left. I don't want to do anything crazy on the unfortunate chance I survive, but I want to make picking up the piece easy for when I do succeed. If it's helpful I plan on leaving the house for it (SN). I already have donated all the items that I didn't really care for or was hoarding, and trashed some stuff that I didn't want found. I have plans to clean my room, and I don't really want to leave a note. I don't know if there's other things recommended to do, but if so I love to hear them.


Unrelated but I'm so nervicited about this attempt. This will be the second attempt that I'm doing on a September 13th, so let's hope for my sake second time is the charm. I nervous because if I failed, I'm cooked and I totally lied to my friend too. But I'm excited because this should be like a guaranteed win, and if so then there will be nothing to worry about after.

Anyway, thanks for reading!
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I would say if you are going to leave a note and you have family or some sort of proxy make sure to at least write what you want done with your body if you have a strong preference. I know for me I want to leave as little evidence of my existence as possibly so I'm good with organ donation or just donating my body to science.

I hope this time's the charm and you can go peacefully and content :) by the way do you have any advice on obtaining SN I've been looking into the method and reading the resource bible bit by bit but it's still confusing to me how people are able to get their hands on it.

 

[papillon]

I would say if you are going to leave a note and you have family or some sort of proxy make sure to at least write what you want done with your body if you have a strong preference. I know for me I want to leave as little evidence of my existence as possibly so I'm good with organ donation or just donating my body to science.

I hope this time's the charm and you can go peacefully and content :) by the way do you have any advice on obtaining SN I've been looking into the method and reading the resource bible bit by bit but it's still confusing to me how people are able to get their hands on it.

Most people seem to buy from MiC website

 

[DeathSweetDeath]

Has it been tested?

 

[DisIsDaPhoenyx]

I would say if you are going to leave a note and you have family or some sort of proxy make sure to at least write what you want done with your body if you have a strong preference. I know for me I want to leave as little evidence of my existence as possibly so I'm good with organ donation or just donating my body to science.

I hope this time's the charm and you can go peacefully and content :) by the way do you have any advice on obtaining SN I've been looking into the method and reading the resource bible bit by bit but it's still confusing to me how people are able to get their hands on it.

I just want them to do whatever works best for them even if that means the wolves. The dream would be a tree pod burial to give back to the Earth, but I guess it doesn't really matter if I'm gone. And thank you for that. And unfortunately I don't have any advice to give, I got my SN from DSL which isn't currently active anymore. My best recommendation to figuring it out is getting a notepad and writing down all the clues you find. When you can see it all as once it makes the puzzle easie to solve. Also, when it comes to searching DuckDuckGo will be your best friend. I wish you the best luck on your endeavor and hope you can find it without much trouble and may we both have peaceful ends! <3

Has it been tested?

It has not, I'm just taking a gamble and hope it works.