What pushes you over the edge

[lukehavergal]

I imagine we are all dealing with some nuance in our cases of SI. We're hovering in this weird in between where we are barely surviving and don't want to be here but there's an inertia to the act of CTB. What do you think will push you over the edge to finally do it? Or are you just waiting for the right moment?

I'm trying to get better from my chronic illness and I'll hang in there for a few more months but I'm not hopeful. I think I'll wake up and snap one day.

 

[SealsOfTheArctic]

If another friend announces an unexpected pregnancy. Infertility has been a constant torment for years but my mid 30s have been the worst time of my life. The pain is too much.

 

[h4ppyhypoxia]

I imagine we are all dealing with some nuance in our cases of SI. We're hovering in this weird in between where we are barely surviving and don't want to be here but there's an inertia to the act of CTB. What do you think will push you over the edge to finally do it? Or are you just waiting for the right moment?

I'm trying to get better from my chronic illness and I'll hang in there for a few more months but I'm not hopeful. I think I'll wake up and snap one day.

ive been pushed over the edge im just waiting for practical reasons, my final trigger was someone stopping being friends with me bc my mental illness (which he inserted himself into and would always ask me about and always encourage me to talk about) was "too much for him" it just made me realise, if people see a fraction of what i go through and it makes them never want anything to do with me ever again, why should i be expected to live through this full force 24/7? other people get a clean exit from my problems forever, but i dont? not fair

 

[dirkw83]

My insomnia getting worse imo

 

[PeaceSeeker83]

I've been pushed over the edge far too many times (incompetent people, people trying to rip me off, too many unnecessary problems) and as I am now getting more homicidal I am getting more suicidal.

 

[Mr.Ruben]

I've lost 3 friends to ctb and 1 to cancer, in the span of 2,5 years, most recent was a grandfather, cancer, got the news an hour before my finals.
And since then I've had a weird way of processing losing someone, which is by not having any natural reaction to their death, and hours after or days after breaking down nd feeling physically unresponsive.
If I have another relative or dear friend that goes away, I don't think I can handle it.

 

[Lost_Dawns]

how my family and much of my community sees me as a problem as i called out all the assault and abuse against me and others when i was younger. they snarl and glare and tell me I should have just stayed silent to preserve peace as "god would handle it all in the end."

fucking what?