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woofwag

woofwag

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Sep 17, 2025
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Idk if I'm the only one who has this, but I will get phrases/mantras stuck in my head that repeat themselves over and over and over and I can't stop it.

Some of mine:
"I wish I had died back in 2009"
"Stop it" or "Make it stop"
"So it goes"
"This too shall pass"
"Is that really what you want?" (often with zero context and will repeat despite my answer or lack thereof)
"So this is it?" or "And that's it?"

Anyway just curious. And no I've not
found a way to quiet them despite intensive therapy and effort
 
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Ashu

Ashu

novelist, sanskritist, Canadian living in India
Nov 13, 2021
1,005
"Cum on shit."

You asked.
 
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iwkmsssb

iwkmsssb

what is it that i am?
Jun 8, 2026
116
"holy shit i wanna die" constantly repeating throughout the day, even when the day isn't necessarily bad.
 
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Spite

Spite

I wish I never existed.
Aug 20, 2025
556
"If only you knew how bad things really are", from that one meme.
 
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JeyJeyOfJeypore

Member
Jun 4, 2026
339
Idk if I'm the only one who has this, but I will get phrases/mantras stuck in my head that repeat themselves over and over and over and I can't stop it.

Some of mine:
"I wish I had died back in 2009"
"Stop it" or "Make it stop"
"So it goes"
"This too shall pass"
"Is that really what you want?" (often with zero context and will repeat despite my answer or lack thereof)
"So this is it?" or "And that's it?"

Anyway just curious. And no I've not
found a way to quiet them despite intensive therapy and effort
These are called tics, sign of a psychological illness but i forget which

I have one myself "i dont know" but its in another language
 
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Adaephon

Adaephon

Member
May 19, 2026
18
"I fucking wanna die", so, so many times throughout the day.
and
"I'm so tired"
 
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Leonard_Bangley39

Leonard_Bangley39

I am a rock. I am an island
Nov 6, 2025
358
"im evil."
"this is all it'll ever be"
 
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itsgone2

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Sep 21, 2025
1,918
"Nothing is ever as bad as it seems"

This helped me with so many things. Things normal people would just do.

But now it isn't remotely true. My life has spiraled into a nightmare. I'm taking others with me I fear.

I need to pray for actual help. Phrases cannot help now
 
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Reeincarnation

Reeincarnation

333
Jun 4, 2026
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Idk if I'm the only one who has this, but I will get phrases/mantras stuck in my head that repeat themselves over and over and over and I can't stop it.

Some of mine:
"I wish I had died back in 2009"
"Stop it" or "Make it stop"
"So it goes"
"This too shall pass"
"Is that really what you want?" (often with zero context and will repeat despite my answer or lack thereof)
"So this is it?" or "And that's it?"

Anyway just curious. And no I've not
found a way to quiet them despite intensive therapy and effort
"I wanna die"
"It is what it is"
"Such is life"
"Why me?"
"I'm not human"
"I'll never be understood"
"Just give up"
Lots of why, lots of what am I doing wrong, lots of wondering. Typical coping when you can't control certain things
 
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JeyJeyOfJeypore

Member
Jun 4, 2026
339
"I wanna die"
"It is what it is"
"Such is life"
"Why me?"
"I'm not human"
"I'll never be understood"
"Just give up"
Lots of why, lots of what am I doing wrong, lots of wondering. Typical coping when you can't control certain things
"Im not human" is a bit disturbing. When does that come up if its not too sensitive?
 
Reeincarnation

Reeincarnation

333
Jun 4, 2026
31
"Im not human" is a bit disturbing. When does that come up if its not too sensitive?
Usually when I'm dissociating really badly. It's really hard to put into words as to why I end up thinking that without sounding like a total schizo and rambling into stuff that doesn't sound relevant to the topic. But it usually stems from feeling totally unbelonging or alien with other people or society in general. Trying to explain this already makes me feel a bit odd haha
 
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Tautochrome

Tautochrome

Exploder
Nov 22, 2025
122
Hm, no phrases repeated enough to become significant, many of my thoughts don't involve a clear monologue. Maybe "oh fuck me sideways" and "I am not a person, no need to worry about this" x)
I also check on myself every day with
-"Do you still want to die?"
-"Yes."
 
stay_gold

stay_gold

Member
Dec 13, 2025
32
"what the fuck is going on" (usually in the Blind Witness style xD)
 
StarryEyed

StarryEyed

PMs aren't my thing
Mar 14, 2024
193
It's really weird because I have two lines of thinking always on the go that are completely the opposite. One is the I fucking hate this world and everyone and my life and my body. The other is very social and kind and gentle. I don't know how to cope with the constant contradictions. is that what DBT therapy is for?
 
tomatobastard

tomatobastard

Porcelain
Jun 8, 2026
18
"no shut up" whenever intrusive thoughts start up
"fuck off" again intrusive thoughts
"i don't wanna" when i have to do anything
"fuck my life" fuck it
"flip my life" flip it
 
UserFromNowhere

UserFromNowhere

Trial Mod
May 4, 2025
423
It's a meme, but I do believe it enters my head at least once a day ever since I saw it. Or at least ever since I actively started contemplating and planning suicide.
View attachment pippa.mp4
 
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LosingFeathers

Jun 11, 2026
16
I didn't know it's such a common thing, that's interesting.
When I'm feeling down, I sometimes think and even say "Ich hasse dich" which means "I hate you". It's not even supposed to be directed towards anyone specific, it just enters my mind. I guess it's a tic?
 
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Nikkra

Member
Sep 25, 2024
32
I get this, it's called palilalia, an involuntary repetition of phrases. It always happens to me immediately after a stressful thought or being in a stressful environment. It's a way to comfort myself. Used to say it in my head now i do it out loud. I have multiple phrases some of them are pretty weird and don't make much sense but they probably reflect my psychological state somehow, such as "im gonna do a run and jump" which is probably reflecting my feeling of wanting to escape from a stressful environment or maybe jumping off a cliff or jumping and flying away like a bird idk
 
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selfkillermachine

selfkillermachine

Empty
Jun 11, 2026
12
I wake up and instantly think
"Another shitty day I wished I was dead" and for the rest of the day is "Why am I even doing this?"
 
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softfur

softfur

sweet dreams my angel, at last goodbye
Mar 22, 2026
75
i don't know about what i get stuck in my head because i mostly end up saying it out loud. i wish it was just in my head 🫩

"fuck you" the way postal dude says it,
variants of "i need to kill myself" as a knee-jerk
sometimes i get bits of jim jones' death speech stuck in my head, especially "let's be done with it, let's just be done with the agony of it"
 
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buriedinmyhead

buriedinmyhead

If pain can purify the heart, mine will be pure
Mar 24, 2026
181
"I want to fucking die/kill myself"
"Whatever happens happens"
"I need to blow my brains out"
 
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burninghill

burninghill

Specialist
Dec 2, 2025
369
Usually just 'I need to kill myself right now' over and over again if I experience some kind of minor inconvenience. I read a quote on some handbook linked via this site that said 'the train always wins' and that replays in my head a lot too.
 
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Lavínia

Lavínia

plalace
Feb 19, 2024
175
"Why am I bleeding?"
"Am I bleeding?"
"I'm bleeding"
 
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ijustwannabeloved

ijustwannabeloved

Courting Death
Mar 1, 2026
20
"I'm done" I say it like every 5 minutes
 
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woofwag

woofwag

Bad dog
Sep 17, 2025
500
"Cum on shit."

You asked.
LMAO this is frying me omg

These are called tics, sign of a psychological illness but i forget which

I have one myself "i dont know" but its in another language
Naw it's not tics, those are verbal/physically expressed. I have tourette's which is the psychological illness you're referring to so I would know


"im evil."
"this is all it'll ever be"
Real my BPD tells me this all the time


I get this, it's called palilalia, an involuntary repetition of phrases. It always happens to me immediately after a stressful thought or being in a stressful environment. It's a way to comfort myself. Used to say it in my head now i do it out loud. I have multiple phrases some of them are pretty weird and don't make much sense but they probably reflect my psychological state somehow, such as "im gonna do a run and jump" which is probably reflecting my feeling of wanting to escape from a stressful environment or maybe jumping off a cliff or jumping and flying away like a bird idk
That's a speech disorder where you repeat words/phrases you just said, not what I'm talking about

I wake up and instantly think
"Another shitty day I wished I was dead" and for the rest of the day is "Why am I even doing this?"
Ahh haha yeah the classic "why am I doing this?" Ask myself this all the time. The answer mostly boils down to "I'm lazy."

Usually just 'I need to kill myself right now' over and over again if I experience some kind of minor inconvenience. I read a quote on some handbook linked via this site that said 'the train always wins' and that replays in my head a lot too.
Seems the "I need to kill myself" thing is what a huge majority of us have. Makes sense considering the site we're on.

"Why am I bleeding?"
"Am I bleeding?"
"I'm bleeding"
Well… are you often bleeding?
 

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