what makes life worth living for you

[cantthinkofusername]

i dont have what it takes to kill myself yet but i dont wanna be alive. life just feels so arbitrary and meaningless. i want to be whole but i never will be. i feel like a shade pretending to be a person. i will never be real. what makes life worth living

 

[enjoytheride]

I am sorry you are going through this and hope that better days are coming for you very soon.

Regarding your question, one thing that helps me keep going is a sense of wonder about the Universe. I am reminded there is existence, or there are existences, above or greater than what I am experiencing. They remind me that human evil is not boundless and omnipresent. It reminds me of how relative time and our experiences can be.

It's almost like the feeling you get when you watch this video and listen to the music:

(mind the possible jump scare of the astronaut's helmet suddenly appearing at 4:38)


The running on the rings of Saturn part is just sublime and the music is fitting.

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If you have the time and will, please also check this e-book: https://qprinstitute.com/pdfs/Forever_Decision.pdf

 

[RoseGirl]

sex
ehhh life is meaningless as hell but u might as well have fun while u live

 

[Signal]

Nothing really. I don't want to live, but i don't want to die either, so i just continue to live thanks to inertia and because I'm too much of a coward, still, sometimes there are small moments in time when i think that maybe it isn't so bad if i just continue to live for now, like when I'm eating a tasty food, like ice cream, or cake; or when i watch a movie, or anime, or play a game that makes me cry and feel for its characters; or when its raining heavily and i feel the rain and the wind on my face; or when my pets start staring at me and i stare back at them. I don't know if I could say that those moments make life worth living, after all, in the end I'm still lonely, without friends and hating myself, but i think that, since I'm a coward and i'll continue on living, well, maybe those little moments make life a little less painful, and so, i try to appreciate them.

 

[sinnamonbun]

My pets help me keep going even when everything feels like it's too much.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

That's a good question - what makes life worth living?

This is probably very subjective.

But basically I would say we have to have to be healthy, have to have a good childhood that lays the base for our lives, we need a certain amount of luck (that already starts with genetics before we are even born). There are many, mostly subjective factors that make life worth living.

In my case, I've been basically lucky throughout my life, just not with the financial goals I had in my early 40s. That killed me and made life not worth living anymore. The result: I ended up on SS over 2 years ago.

Now, what makes life worth living for me:

I simply wanna live a life without pressures, be healthy, wanna be able to do whatever I want (yes, I want to put some effort into my goals! Nothing's for free!) but the borderline is there where even putting more effort into sth won't make life better long-term and others are profiting of me but not myself.

 

[playalistic]

i've never said anythjng like this to her in person because we're siblings and i'll always call her a dumb shithead (in a playful way) to her face but i love my sister so much. she's my best friend. without her idk if i'd still be around

i'm very grateful for my family in general. im having a hard time stomaching what my death will do to them when that time comes. I feel like an asshole and that makes ending things difficult too and more of a conundrum

 

[Satori Komeiji]

Games, and my limited set of interests when I have the motivation to pursue them. It's cope, sure but everything else in life has proven to be consistently painful so I might as well just enjoy what I have while I have it.

 

[mangorose]

I don't know how my family would manage and I still have a sliver of hope that there's people out there who get me.

 

[fernstaysquiet]

I feel bad saying this, I know it's wrong on multiple levels.

I live entirely for the sake of someone else. My only reason is to keep them company, to keep them safe.

 

[Foraging]

Honestly my dog is always there for me and I love him too death he's always been there for me. I don't want too burden my parents and have them grieve for me.

 

[Anura]

I feel you. So often life feels pointless and empty, and I really feel like theres nothing in it for me. The things that keep me here are my sister (I would feel guilty about leaving her) and my garden (I have plants that would probably die without me).

 

[DeusVult]

Being creative and making things can feel meaningful. You could try learning to draw, make some sketches, feel what it's like to create something out of nothing.

 

[hippiedeath]

Nature, food, sex and creativity and humor, can make life worth living. I don't need to emphasize what makes it Hellish.

 

[Lyn]

People that depend on me

 

[cantthinkofusername]

i've never said anythjng like this to her in person because we're siblings and i'll always call her a dumb shithead (in a playful way) to her face but i love my sister so much. she's my best friend. without her idk if i'd still be around

i'm very grateful for my family in general. im having a hard time stomaching what my death will do to them when that time comes. I feel like an asshole and that makes ending things difficult too and more of a conundrum

i felt the same w ay about my oldr brotherr for a long time but he doesnt feel the same way and we re no longer on speaking terms

 

[ElTopo]

Many things are enjoyable in life, my problem is dealing with a baggage I cannot get rid of and that keeps getting heavier. Having a beer with friends, summer, love (or what I think would be love), wine, games, music, philosophy, sports, books. Ultimately building a functioning family and having experiences with the one you love, I've never got near it but I think it would be enough meaning for me. Why do you think you'll never be whole?

 

[kittyloverxd]

the pain is unbearable but when i give my mom and my cat hugs and kisses the pain and trauma feels bearable even for a second but i don't know how much longer i can keep on going so i only have 1 goal

make butt loads of money like 10 million give my mom 5 million and give my brother 5 million so they can live comfortably never have to worry about money ever again and i'll probably end it then

 

[BeansOfRequirement]

Brainrot memes, zoomer vocabulary like "pluh", the goal of extreme strength coupled with martial arts skill, music + meditation combo, Robert Sapolsky, Youtube "debunking" videos, cheating on my veganism (basically daily), whenever there are no women ages twenty to forty in the gym, making progress on reducing adult media dependency, being able to try to give advice or help someone, leaning relevant stuff, humor, relaxation.

Long list, still it struggles to match the constant emotional pain on the other end of the seesaw. And I have like no energy, fatigued most of the time, like can barely add two single digit numbers together type of tired. It took me 15 minutes to write this.

 

[ham and potatoes]

basically, the only reason i havent given up and ended it because of what my death would do to my family

 

[FoxSauce]

Mostly my sister and im trying to have like a chance of a good life. If not im ready to throw in the towel.

Sometimes close to giving up and I have no idea how despite everything im still here. Sometimes I think my family and anyone else would be better of without me..

 

[struggles_inc]

My mom. My boyfriend. My business. People who admire me like my little nephew. I can't let them down… to a point where my life isn't exactly mine anymore.

 

[crmrc_in]

My partner's happiness. I love her so much.

A life without pressure.

Knowing that my parents can live the last years of their lives without financial concerns.

Having a roof over my head and food in the fridge, and knowing that I will always have them.

Being able to enjoy some pleasures again, going back to my abandoned interests, hobbies and friends despite my existing and potential problems.

Stopping ruminating about past mistakes.

 

[brighteyesfan144]

Honestly, nothing and I think that's fine. I don't think life is meant for living, but for experiencing, surviving, and possibly reproducing and continuing the circle of life. I highly doubt that this is all there is, or what we are experiencing is what "life" is about.

I guess what I'm trying to say is that death and otherworlds are possibly infinitely more imporant than the mundane existence of human life.

It's not worth living. It's not supposed to be.

 

[broken_stoic]

The hope that if I can make it through this the person I am in the future might get to have a better life, and the hope that someday I'll be able to empathize with people going through what I'm going through now in a meaningful way. Those are my hopes anyway.

 

[helencry]

Nothing really, why Im on this site

 

[nya]

i dont have what it takes to kill myself yet but i dont wanna be alive. life just feels so arbitrary and meaningless. i want to be whole but i never will be. i feel like a shade pretending to be a person. i will never be real. what makes life worth living

cats, hugs, music, books, sitting next to our local lake in the middle of the night with a cuddly blanky and a blåhaj to tightly embrace while listening to nirvana, the inexplicably amazing feeling when you can be there for someone and they open up and feel comfortable around you, and the smile of someone in my life, which lights up the whole room and i cannot help but feel welcome x3

 

[cantthinkofusername]

cats, hugs, music, books, sitting next to our local lake in the middle of the night with a cuddly blanky and a blåhaj to tightly embrace while listening to nirvana, the inexplicably amazing feeling when you can be there for someone and they open up and feel comfortable around you, and the smile of someone in my life, which lights up the whole room and i cannot help but feel welcome x3

 

[The Morningstar]

Hope

 

[Bowerbird]

Her