I am sorry you are going through this and hope that better days are coming for you very soon.
Regarding your question, one thing that helps me keep going is a sense of wonder about the Universe. I am reminded there is existence, or there are existences, above or greater than what I am experiencing. They remind me that human evil is not boundless and omnipresent. It reminds me of how relative time and our experiences can be.
It's almost like the feeling you get when you watch this video and listen to the music:
(mind the possible jump scare of the astronaut's helmet suddenly appearing at 4:38)
The running on the rings of Saturn part is just sublime and the music is fitting.
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If you have the time and will, please also check this e-book:
https://qprinstitute.com/pdfs/Forever_Decision.pdf