Discussion What made you change your mind?

[Abbadab]

I had my first sustained period of non-suicidality this past year, and even when I did have a depressive/suicidal episode recently, it only lasted 2 weeks. In other words, I won't have to live the rest of my life wishing desperately for death, which used to be a reasonable assumption.

What changed to make you strive towards recovery?

 

[ruru_241]

i started recovery because i don't want to feel this way anymore, since nothing will change if i don't do something. another reason is that i met my boyfriend! hes been very encouraging of my recovery and wants a future with me, which i also want!

i may cry, relapse, etc, but its okay. its apart of recovery

 

[Abbadab]

i started recovery because i don't want to feel this way anymore, since nothing will change if i don't do something. another reason is that i met my boyfriend! hes been very encouraging of my recovery and wants a future with me, which i also want!

i may cry, relapse, etc, but its okay. its apart of recovery

Yeah having an internal locus of control is so important. And omg same on the boyfriend bit. I told him in the beginning that I've wanted to die my whole life but he still wanted to give it a go. He is an eternal optimist. I think some of that has DEFINITELY rubbed off on me.

The people you surround yourself with make such a big difference. It makes me realize I should probably get my ass off SaSu lol

 

[Ethel]

It wasn't like a big change,but the stuff that made me super depressed went away with time and I had a whole 4 years trying to overcome the social trauma of bullying, eventually I did make a "full" recovery and could live without thinking about dying, but...depression never leaves and it's more of a "when" to die than a "should" now,working while feeling nothing and expecting nothing is mentality that really helped post recovery depression, plus...abandoning life and just doing what you find it fun is great too.

 

[Warlord's Pulse]

Maybe I'm just living for the others, that's my very best guess, as for now I'm searching the actual answer

 

[ruru_241]

Yeah having an internal locus of control is so important. And omg same on the boyfriend bit. I told him in the beginning that I've wanted to die my whole life but he still wanted to give it a go. He is an eternal optimist. I think some of that has DEFINITELY rubbed off on me.

The people you surround yourself with make such a big difference. It makes me realize I should probably get my ass off SaSu lol

WAAAH we're bascially same then ?! hes also a optimist !!! but he was going thru something when he met though. since then, hes gotten a lot better, meeting each other kinda just lifted eachother a whole lot !!!!

and its so true !!!! + therapy rlly makes me realize tht too. //at this point i use this site for venting n such

 

[Abbadab]

WAAAH we're bascially same then ?! hes also a optimist !!! but he was going thru something when he met though. since then, hes gotten a lot better, meeting each other kinda just lifted eachother a whole lot !!!!

and its so true !!!! + therapy rlly makes me realize tht too. //at this point i use this site for venting n such

you know a relationship is doing well when it's mutually uplifting

and yeah my boy also has issues, but he's getting help for them now at my urging :p

that sounds like a really good way to use the site. maybe I'll transition to that or find a more hopeful forum to turn to instead

 

[ruru_241]

you know a relationship is doing well when it's mutually uplifting

and yeah my boy also has issues, but he's getting help for them now at my urging :p

that sounds like a really good way to use the site. maybe I'll transition to that or find a more hopeful forum to turn to instead

well there is an option to hide suicide discussion in settings! but not sure:0