Discussion What keeps you going each day?

[Sigh_Sigh_Sigh]

For me it's my YouTube channel that keeps me going as I like to make fun content which my subscribers enjoy, I just made this video earlier when I was bored out my mind:

 

[Sulyya]

People who need me. But I think sometimes that I'm overestimating how much that's actually true

 

[sparkle]

Nothing really, I'm here because I don't really want to hurt my immediate family, although I have accepted that it may have to come to that. Good luck with the youtube channel, I wish I had the motivation to do anything creative these days.

 

[outrider567]

Well, they delayed my brothers funeral for 5 months until April 7th(this Friday)--After that day, there's nothing to keep me going

 

[stermc]

I don't think I have anything anymore

 

[FuneralCry]

The way that I see it, if I don't ctb then I have no choice but to continue enduring this futile struggle. I hate every waking moment and I find simply just existing to be something that is tiring but of course it's not straightforward to exit the hell that is existence.

 

[Sluggish_Slump]

I think that mainly fear, but to push through these days that I'm not ready yet, there's like endless streams of entertainment available to help go on each day

 

[Higuri]

Fear, I guess. My environment begets me to foster thoughts filled with despair yet even so I'm still too scared of ctb, especially when I failed previously.

 

[man_in_red:)]

I don't know but there is something inside of me that is preventing me from ctbing, probably just SI.

 

[bloberta]

fear, music, friends, hope

 

[liffey]

My family, it's the only concern I have. Others can move on easily.

It's great that you have something that you enjoy doing, good luck on your channel

 

[Anna.]

knowing how crushed my wife would be

 

[killingtime]

I have nothing that keeps me going. I failed ctb multiple times in the past due to limited resources. Now I'm too exhausted to do anything, so I just live with the least amount of effort possible and see where that takes me.

I've really been considering sodium nitrite but it's not easy to come across where I live.

 

[LostCauseLooknToCTB]

My dog, the fear of who will find me after it is done the impact it will have on my dad because he has just gotten his life back together after the divorce with my mother.

Edit: I don't like my dad or my mother but it is still a concern.

 

[starrvingstar]

some of the people in my life keep me going to avoid making them suffer

 

[numbhouse]

music, my favorite physical objects, and I guess what little of an art career I have. (I have a cool thing coming in the mail, that's something to look forward to)