genesisofpasaqalia

genesisofpasaqalia

93696 chances to CTB
Mar 27, 2023
7
For me it would be music, one of the only reasons i didnt attempt sometime ago.
 
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soft-flower345

soft-flower345

šŸŒøI'm ashamed of who I've becomešŸŒø
May 15, 2023
93
Music and finding beauty in things around me, it's not enough to keep me around, but it is enough to keep me from ctb before the date I set for myself 3 years from now
 
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LaVieEnRose

LaVieEnRose

Angelic
Jul 23, 2022
4,248
Fear of failure.

Fear of the experience.

Reluctance to give up the small but pleasurable things.

It's very frustrating when you know it's your time....
 
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TheHuman

TheHuman

Member
May 31, 2023
98
I just don't want to end up some mental health place where they take away all of my freedoms, I need to be patient if I want to get peace from this world. Unfortunately people want to keep us here as long possible, and extend our suffering.
 
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tams

tams

Member
Mar 27, 2023
62
Music definitely for me too. The thought of never hearing some of my favourite songs again is a hard pill to swallow. Other than that, the few things like going for a bike ride and seeing friends.
 
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ggetout33

ggetout33

Just stuck here.
Mar 3, 2023
177
The things I would miss out on, my lack of available method, I still have some money, fear of pain, and never hearing my favorite songs or playing my games or reading my comics ever again.
 
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EternalDaydreaming

EternalDaydreaming

Member
May 27, 2023
29
I'm too emotionally drained from my last attempt and I am still tired from it
 
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Praestat_Mori

Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
May 21, 2023
11,522
- Fear of failure and becoming a veggie
- Obviously still too much hope left that things could still become finally good again
 
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20ClownRules

20ClownRules

The Clown of Life and Death
Jun 1, 2023
26
Art and animations, really.
If I lost my eyesight? Anything that is audio... Music.
I love art and music, they make me happy.
 
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nureinFuchs

nureinFuchs

Whatever happens, happens...
Apr 1, 2023
29
I still have business to attend to, if wasn't for that I would had gone a long time ago
 
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empty

Member
Jan 5, 2021
50
- Hope for the future
- The assumption that this is the only life I'll ever get to live
- The fact that there are many things I haven't done or experienced
- The things in life that I currently enjoy
- Fear of death
 
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numbnesshuman

numbnesshuman

People who get lost
May 13, 2023
63
My loved ones. I don't want to break their hearts, even though I can't feel anything
 
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leftdreaming

leftdreaming

I shouldā€™ve been a house cat
Apr 28, 2023
170
Dessert and hot black tea. Not even joking, that stuff is worth living for.
 
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spĆøgelse

spĆøgelse

Student
May 14, 2023
104
Fear of becoming a vegetable. Slowly saving up materials so I can avoid that.
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
9,846
Asides from my Dad- fear. It's not that I don't enjoy things in life but the bigger picture is that none of it is enough to make me want to stay. There are a few places I would like to visit before I go- but really- it won't be the end of the world if I don't. I don't think you can either regret or miss things when you are dead.
 
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AshClouds

AshClouds

In time I started growing inward.
Apr 10, 2023
297
cowardice
 
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The anhedonic one

The anhedonic one

Dead inside
May 20, 2023
1,070
Absolutely nothing is keeping me here.
I have also lost all fear of death now.
All I need to do now is find the right method.
Death by N would have been my perfect method.
 
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BredInTheDark

Member
Jun 1, 2023
5
Nothing. My best friend is the only reason I haven't CTB'd yet
 
feder

feder

I'm more scarred more scarred than my wrist is.
Apr 13, 2023
162
My loved ones. I don't want to break their hearts, even though I can't feel anything
At least you still care for someone and they care for you, that's beautiful. For me it's the same,my family and friends dont deserve to go through this.
 
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ŠšŠ¾Š·Š°Šŗ

ŠšŠ¾Š·Š°Šŗ

New Member
Jun 1, 2023
3
I feel like it would be a waste to go out without at least doing some things i've always wanted to do, namely travelling europe and stuff. I just wanna X a few things off my bucket list, I think then it will be a lot easier to go through with.
 
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Pidgeons_Sparrows

Pidgeons_Sparrows

-flying rat
Apr 16, 2023
627
currently lack of access to good methods but that will sort itself soon

currently tangled up in some bs documents i have to file and wait for to arrive so
 
thgilrats

thgilrats

kmsing while caramelldansen plays
May 29, 2023
188
My best friends. The amount of money that was spent on me and my education by my parents. The possibility that everything will get better. My fear of dying. Beautiful things that I notice sometimes.
 
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outrider567

Visionary
Apr 5, 2022
2,591
Can't think of a good reason--Not worried about the method, like others here, because Nitrogen is complete and foolproof--All I have to do is breathe it in.....
 
numbnesshuman

numbnesshuman

People who get lost
May 13, 2023
63
At least you still care for someone and they care for you, that's beautiful. For me it's the same,my family and friends dont deserve to go through this.
True, but I'm so afraid one day that 'depression' monster will swallow me upā€¦
 
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jazzcat

jazzcat

dark eyed and miserable
May 19, 2023
138
aside from people, the fear of getting brain damage, the delusional moments of hope that I get every now and then
 
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
38,890
I'm only still trapped here as the reality is that suicide just isn't straightforward in this world, there's no option of a guaranteed, reliable and accessible method which is the harsh reality of existing in this hellish world where suicide isn't accepted as a valid option. The problem is that suicide feels like an impossibility in this world where all the methods are either risky, inaccessible or just horrible/incredibly difficult to go through with, it disgusts me how humans are expected to just be prisoners to this existence and slaves to their suffering until they die anyway.
 
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MeltingBrain

MeltingBrain

Mage
May 29, 2023
580
Waiting for things to get worse . Squeezing till the last drop .
 
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noxu77

noxu77

Flip a coin ,take a chance.
May 29, 2023
40
trying to help people
 
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skybluesuicide

skybluesuicide

Member
May 31, 2023
38
I made a promise to myself that I wouldn't do it and continue to get treatments in hopes of getting better until I reach a certain age
 
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Wainingspiritcries

Wainingspiritcries

New Member
Feb 8, 2023
1
Writing songs and listening to music is really helpful for me. Sometimes I can escape through TV shows too
 
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