What is your suicide level?

[theolivanderroach]

Level 4 for over the past decade, level 5 this year and currently at level 6. Tired of this shit.

 

[Depressed2]

It's Level 5

 

[_crgam]

I'm usually at level 5 or 6, but tonight, I'm about to hit level 7.

 

[tbh2023]

Level 5

 

[TAW122]

Level 5 for me, while I don't have the exact means for my bus ticket, I'm still biding my time and there may be some things that I wish to see to it's logical conclusion, I also want to avoid giving any hints of potential CTB because I know at some point I will CTB by my own hand, it again would still depend on time and circumstance. I also want to ensure that I am ready and also well prepared because I only have one chance to get it right, so I will do everything I can to ensure I get as close to 100% as I can.

 

[nothingspecial]

I'm at level 6.

This comic made me sad. I don't want the panda to hurt himself. I wish I could see the same empathy for myself, an actual human.

 

[Reflection]

Normally I should be at the plan B one but I still have to keep myself in check in order not to abruptly do it.

 

[aaakiee]

Probably a 6, think I subconsciously bought a friend something they wanted right before breaking down in front of them and insisting that cutting contact with me would me fine and I wouldn't harm myself.

Planning on asking other ppl who have tried to help me if they wanted anything (not a lot of ppl) AFTER I buy SN. That one person specifically was just really close to me.

(i know what im saying probably makes no sense im kind of. lost rn)

 

[skyflame]

I like this chart, it's way better than the standard 1-10 scale I usually get asked. Thanks for sharing

 

[Thisisnotaname]

Lvl.6

 

[Moroze]

Today it's 10/10. It's very rare for me to have it at that. I guess that for me, being 10/10 is not that bad, the thought of it being over eventually brings me relief. It was always meant to happen, me and early death. Why change something that was already pre-written? I can sense that my end will not be the one most people will have.

I'd say im level 5: the plan B state. I have my SN, and have studied the sn protocal

I studied the protocol more times than for all of the exams combined in my life. I'm sorry that it came to this. Life truly is a dagger in the heart.

 

[-nobodyknows-]

I personally don't like this model because I feel like it simplifies the process a bit too much. For example, #5 is "if x doesn't happen, then I'll kill myself", but I'd argue that this is a very different mindset than "I'm going to kill myself unless x happens". Furthermore, for #6, the quiet call for help is summed up a bit too simply as "dropping hints", which I think is a bit too obvious compared to how most people operate when then are prepping to kill themselves. And, of course, there is no "plan" option that separates short and long term planning, the closest they get is #7 when you're actually doing it.

 

[SchizoGymnast]

I'm a level three. I have a general obsession with death that permeates my whole life but it usually doesn't stop me from actually living. But I've experienced all the levels except active attempt.

 

[bubblecat]

Somewhere around the middle I guess. I don't really want to go but as a disabled person there's a real chance I won't be able to support myself soon and there's also evidence of my health declining in a way that could kill me painfully that I don't want to experience. I'm isolated as hell and the last dozen years have taught me I do not have the people and communication skills to form new, lasting relationships. I want to buy some SN soon for the assurance that I have a way out should shit hit the fan. Not feeling confident the 75mg of oxy I have leftover from a surgery would be enough on its own.

 

[Fritz]

3- have planned how to do it, but need to care for aging parents first

 

[Kassender]

6

i know how and where, i just need to find the courage

there isn't really anyone who would actually want to spend time with me so i could say goodbye

 

[a time in time]

Level 5 here

researching & planning but at peace with my decision...

 

[nomoredolor]

I dance between 5 and 6. I have said goodbye to some people and have plans to give things away but most days I'm closer to a 5 even with plans for a the future. I have a death planner and have written 75% of my goodbye notes.

Anna

 

[painfree]

Level 6
I've created my will, it's been witnessed, POA in case god forbid I mess up. I've been getting rid of shit and donating stuff for months. Have a letter written to family, friends, have 2 people who know and respect my choice and privacy.
I'm applying for MAID next week (Ontario) but that's another 90-120 days wait. Not sure if I can do that especially without guarantee.

 

[L9my]

Level 4:
been like that most my life
Level 5 comes every now and then

 

[SilentSadness]

This is such a pro life generalisation of suicidal people. First of all, "get help" and "it's a cry for help" are drivel. I would never cross a road without looking, that's reckless and could result in horrific injury without achieving death. However, the aim is clearly to portray suicidal people as irrational. The thing which means you can immediately tell it's a pro life image is that none of the descriptions say anything about the problems someone experiences, instead they are just focussed on the development of suicidal thoughts as if they are a disease. If it was actually serious, it would show the development of problems and suffering corresponding to increased suicidal thoughts.

 

[Monad]

4 -- Also, I love this graphic. Thanks for sharing!

 

[CPY]

I don't like the wording of this
Anyway level 7 I would describe like being on life support but for mental suffering...with my parents being the life support devices

 

[Hysteria]

I want 7 to pull through a method. I'm stuck with 6 because I don't know what method I could use. I actively tried multiple methods (Night Night, Drug Overdose), but every time, I failed so far. Other methods (Trains, Swallow Water Blackout, Jumping) don't sound too peaceful to me the more I read about them. Some methods sound nice, like nitrogen or helium, but the setup seems too technical.

 

[Trav1989]

Between 5 and 6

 

[newstart2000]

Already hit 6. I have sent away some of my stuff, and brought a lot gifts to my kid. I will probably hit 7 in one month or two.

 

[nothingbutmybest]

I'm about to retry figuring out partial hanging so 7, but I'd say I've never actually experienced these stages of suicide besides 3 but that was just because I had an unending curiosity as a kid.

 

[ocdsucks]

Its been level 4 to 5 lately.
The panda in the graphic is cute though.

 

[Forveleth]

I oscillate between 5 and 7. I have learned you can't really force suicide and just have to sit back and wait until you're ready. I've had a few failed attempts (so I was at a 7 then) but in between those I'm just kind of chillin until my brain decides it's time to try again (hence 5). I voted for 7 though as really I'm ready to go as soon as I feel like it's a low SI day.

 

[ben_]

Level 4. I used to work on roofs, never used any safety equipment. In a way, the taller the building, the calmer I'd be. Sure, you get more dizzy - don't look down. But if you fall, it's done. An accident. Bad luck. Oops. I miss that job sometimes