Discussion What is your reason for wanting to die ?

[pinapellicer]

Because i have no friends, because i'm failling school ^^, because i have no hopes and dreams. As dumb as it sounds, i just don't want to have a future where it's just me alone, and i'm fairly certain that's how it would be.
Because i have no friends, because i'm failling school ^^, because i have no hopes and dreams. As dumb as it sounds, i just don't want to have a future where it's just me alone, and i'm fairly certain that's how it would be.

 

[pax420]

I got knocked down, I got back up, dusted myself off, and went at it again. I got knocked down again, I got back up again, dusted myself off again, and went at it again. And over, and over, and over. Finally I realized, I belong down here and I'm tired of getting back up only to be knocked down again. I'm not doing it anymore. I'm too old for this shit. I'm in constant physical pain. My brain has always been fubared. What is the f#*@ing point. Life 100-brian 0. Life wins.

 

[hmnow]

just the feeling I am meant to

 

[LetMeOut67]

Misfit
Loser
Chronically isolated
Look like I've been dragged through hell
Think the world is an extraordinary terrible place and cannot cope with it

 

[Breadkey]

There's nothing interesting or valuable about my life. All my attempts to change that have been just that, attempts. I don't have friends, i have nothing going on in my life, I'm ashamed of everything, i have no passions at all whatsoever, every part of me is just artificial, I'm a completely hollow human being and an utter burden to everyone around. My life genuinely has no meaning and i sink further into this dark sludge of addiction and daydreaming
I don't even have a special reason to be said because everything bad that happened it is my very own fault. I ruined my life and became a complete waste of space

 

[avemaria]

many reasons

 

[Mrs. T-800]

I am just so sad. And I am a happy person! But there is a deep, pervasive sadness that will never go away.
If you're familiar with The Awakening or Anna Karenina it's something like that. Wasn't it Van Gogh who said "the sadness will last forever"?
It's likewise. So full of love, and light, and goodness, I do live to the fullest and I am often happy, but within me, I cannot change.
Maybe it's a product of circumstance. But combine those, with a deep and quite literally painful nostalgic longing (a past life, perhaps, I had readings done), a poor self image and esteem and a depression since years, and I suppose romanticizing it a little bit, and voila.