I am a big fan of music and will definitely go down listening to my favorite artists before I go. I haven't set up a playlist yet but I have two songs which I think will fit the moment the most.
Mice on Venus - C418
- I know that it's kind of childish and silly for me to play a videogame's OST as I ctb, even sillier that it's Minecraft, but I have a lot of love and connection to this game. Playing this music as I lie still on the floor, thinking about how I'm about to leave everything behind, it feels like an apology. An apology to the younger me who never got to see me grow up. The inner child who tried her hardest and got me to where I am deserves at least a final tune to warm her up and tuck her in to bed one last time. I want her to be at peace, and that's why I chose this song. Cause just like Mice on Venus, we are both lost and unaware of our surroundings, we don't know where we are and where we will be.
Last Words of a Shooting Star - Mitski
- I've always liked the opening lyrics to this song:
All of this turbulence wasn't forecasted
Apologies from the intercom
And I am relieved that I'd left my room tidy
They'll think of me kindly
When they come for my things
I think about the sight that I'm going to leave behind. I've always been a messy person due to my inability to focus and find the strength to better myself, and I just know that the last state of my room will reflect the final moments of my life. Will they see me as a person that tried when I tidy up my room? Or will they say that I gave up when I leave everything as it is, cluttered and only understandable by me.