FlyAwayHoney
To be or not to be
- Nov 6, 2023
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I used to be a heavy weed smoker until I quit for a few months. Not sure what happened, but when I would try again I would get extreme anxiety and usually end up crying. It use to chill my mind and numb me. I sometimes miss the feeling, but it is not the same for me anymore.
I guess I can throw alcohol in here, but I've never been a huge fan. I will drink, but I don't think I get the same fun out of it that some do. Combining alcohol with another drug would always be my way to go, never usually alcohol alone.
I also used to do shrooms or acid pretty often, but I haven't in a few months. I always have had a good time on those. I never had an overall bad trip really, and I would say it even alleviated my depression symptoms at times and made me find joy in the small things of life. My last couple of rounds with shrooms I would end up thinking about death and suicide a lot though. But not in a scary way. I would feel happy almost, thinking of the feeling of not existing. Those last few times really made me feel more comfortable and at peace with the thought of dying. I wouldn't be against doing either again, just haven't had the urge to.
Had a run with cocaine for a while as well. It was fun in the way that I no longer had anxiety around others. It made me feel normal, whereas when I'm usually around others I can find it hard to relate and be natural. I liked who I was when I was high on coke. I was confident and talkative and it made everyone seem interesting. Of course, doing it with other people, they would also think I was interesting too, and that was a nice feeling. It always ends though, like any drug, you will always come down. The crashes could be difficult at times. Coke fucks heavily with your dopamine receptors, and as someone who is already fucked up in that regard..... well you can imagine.... I haven't done that in a month or two now. I would again, but definitely a slippery slope in terms of addiction. It is also very expensive and the money you spend vs. the reward you get is iffy.
Lastly, I've done MDMA a few times. Also a good experience. I never had the urge to keep doing it really for some reason, even though it is probably the most sense of bliss I've felt on anything. I could dance for hours on it, the music sounded great. Or sometimes it would be so strong I would just curl up in a blanket and fade in and out of pure blissful existence. Like makes you feel so good you almost can't handle the amount of goodness pouring over your body... haha.
* I forgot that I've taken xans and ketamine a few times before as well. Xans would make me very numb and calm. I don't really have much to say about it besides that. The times I've taken ketamine I was also on cocaine and I don't think I've ever took enough to fully grasp the experience you get, but I remember it being okay. I've never wanted to seek it out either, but would do both again.
Overall, I think cocaine and shrooms are my favorites. What about you guys? What are your experiences?
I guess I can throw alcohol in here, but I've never been a huge fan. I will drink, but I don't think I get the same fun out of it that some do. Combining alcohol with another drug would always be my way to go, never usually alcohol alone.
I also used to do shrooms or acid pretty often, but I haven't in a few months. I always have had a good time on those. I never had an overall bad trip really, and I would say it even alleviated my depression symptoms at times and made me find joy in the small things of life. My last couple of rounds with shrooms I would end up thinking about death and suicide a lot though. But not in a scary way. I would feel happy almost, thinking of the feeling of not existing. Those last few times really made me feel more comfortable and at peace with the thought of dying. I wouldn't be against doing either again, just haven't had the urge to.
Had a run with cocaine for a while as well. It was fun in the way that I no longer had anxiety around others. It made me feel normal, whereas when I'm usually around others I can find it hard to relate and be natural. I liked who I was when I was high on coke. I was confident and talkative and it made everyone seem interesting. Of course, doing it with other people, they would also think I was interesting too, and that was a nice feeling. It always ends though, like any drug, you will always come down. The crashes could be difficult at times. Coke fucks heavily with your dopamine receptors, and as someone who is already fucked up in that regard..... well you can imagine.... I haven't done that in a month or two now. I would again, but definitely a slippery slope in terms of addiction. It is also very expensive and the money you spend vs. the reward you get is iffy.
Lastly, I've done MDMA a few times. Also a good experience. I never had the urge to keep doing it really for some reason, even though it is probably the most sense of bliss I've felt on anything. I could dance for hours on it, the music sounded great. Or sometimes it would be so strong I would just curl up in a blanket and fade in and out of pure blissful existence. Like makes you feel so good you almost can't handle the amount of goodness pouring over your body... haha.
* I forgot that I've taken xans and ketamine a few times before as well. Xans would make me very numb and calm. I don't really have much to say about it besides that. The times I've taken ketamine I was also on cocaine and I don't think I've ever took enough to fully grasp the experience you get, but I remember it being okay. I've never wanted to seek it out either, but would do both again.
Overall, I think cocaine and shrooms are my favorites. What about you guys? What are your experiences?
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I knocks me out cold and it's the only reason I'm able to stop my SI because I know I'll be sleep soon. My tolerance is building up and I'm up to like 6-7 pills a day 
if these stop working I'm gonna have a serious problem friends.
