what is there to be happy about?

[batmanreal]

expressing your misery is so pointless most of the time. my life, mind, and situations are all so dire, people very obviously have no real advice to give me when i tell them that i need to die. going through each unsolvable issue one by one, the conversation goes from condolences and advice pertaining to each specific topic i'm venting about, to very general words of encouragement. maybe they just get exhausted or bored or frustrated with the conversation, but it doesn't really seem like that a lot of the time. there's just no advice to give to me, i'm cooked. i feel bad for getting annoyed at the responses, but it's the same shit over and over.
"you're so young", "everything seems like the end of the world when you're a teenager", etc. — none of that changes anything. every issue i have now will persist.
"time heals all wounds" — ties into the last point. most of my issues aren't really comparable to temporary wounds. time simply cannot fix what's wrong with me. if anything, time will only make my issues worse.
"there's someone out there who has it worse than you" — no shit, that doesn't change anything.

everything is shit. i can't think of a single reason to feel motivated, let alone happy. the only reason i even get out of bed is because i have to. there's nothing to look forward to. nothing goes my way. i never get anything that i want, no matter how stupid or minuscule it is. i have no one to talk to and nothing to do. i don't mean anything to anyone, i hate all of my hobbies, i'll never live the life i want to live, i hate my job, the list goes on. there's nothing enjoyable in this life. i'm just aimlessly existing until i can finally obtain my gun.

 

[kunikuzushi]

There's nothing to be happy about. And then it will all end.

 

[58Alice85]

You are 100 percent right. Normies are just in ultimate cope and denial. God gave them everything and they threw everything away for nothing.

 

[Hollowman]

Nothing

 

[kyuuketsuki]

honestly, the brief moments of joy i do feel just rub salt in the wound. they make me realize how miserable and hopeless my life is the vast majority of the time. it will never last, i will never get better. i feel like i was cursed from the very moment i was conceived.

 

[EmptyBottle]

for me, the ability to still type is nice... tho without that, existence would be dull for me.

Doesn't mean I have not wished non existence... at many points I have wished it.

 

[DaisiesRegrets]

There are so few things which actually matter on this planet and could probably make people like us happy. All we do is search and search for invisible needles in this hellish haystack which we call our world. It's truly terrible how you can seemingly be born broken, and no one will come to understand or help. We're simply different and that difference isn't celebrated or cared for. For them there's no such thing as fixable when it comes to humanity, just unbreakable.

 

[cemeteryismyhome]

Absolutely nothing. And the strange, depressing, wonderful thing is... it doesn't even matter.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

to me there is nothing to be happy about except the possibility that I might be able to finally get my brainwashed brain to work getting my suicide method and plan ready to go and execute it.

for example If I actually work on getting my suicide method ready for an hour straight good focus : that I want to make me feel happy because that's the only thing which will do anything to solve my problems and if im happy doing it I'll do it again which i need to. of course executing my plan killing myself should make me the happiest because it's solving all my problems and getting me out of this hell

 

[PI3.14]

Idk. I like to hear all different thoughts and ideas and intellectual debates. However, that isn't enough to make me want to live.

There is a lot that I desire in life and that I'm unable to obtain. However, will I finally be happy if I obtain what I desire?

I'm no longer sure tbh. I feel that yes, I have a bad life and it's a big reason why I'm suicidal, but I'm also mentally ill and the combination of both make me very miserable.

 

[lawlietsph]

I could not agree more and I have the same experiences. People never know what to say, so they just say some cliché things and hope that I shut the fuck up about my pain soon enough.
There is nothing to be happy about in the current way we are forced to live.
If we could be living free, being our true selves, like nature designed us to be - just being, not forcing anything, just being, not waking up to an alarm, not working 9-5, not being on social media, not even knowing about the existence of another continent, then i think life would be more bearable.
Everything in our society is designed to make us miserable.
I would say maybe biting into a nice piece of food is a tiny tiny source of joy, but even that is becoming enemy, as we all feel guilty for eating now (me too).so yeah, the whole situation is fucked, we are fucked

 

[Shadows From Hell]

The only thing that makes me happy, is knowing that my death gets closer with each passing day.

 

[dhk96]

"you're so young"

It's almost as if they want people to live out of spite and into old age so they can be challenged to say that again Whatever keeps 'em alive, right?

Honestly, I hate it when age is brought up as a response. It's so invalidating to someone's experience, especially to those who've been suffering for nearly their entire life. They want us to come back all jazz hands and everything saying "ta-dah, still suffering here!"

Then you also have:

"You don't know what happens after death. What if the afterlife is real and worse/scarier than what you're currently going through?"

Okay? But can we at least have the right to choose? Life is already a living Hell for some people...

"Everything is temporary--even pain and hardship. You might feel better as you learn the skills to endure what you're feeling."

In other words, new struggles will either replace or accompany older struggles and throughout all this, we're expected to cope to live. If anything, we might be better off not being here.

And then potentially the worst one:

"You can come with us voluntarily or not."

Oh. My. God.
Stop calling it voluntary!

 

[FadingSnowFake]

Good question. We also hear a lot of "happiness comes from within." Right, ... and that brings us back to the same question. For me, I think it's about the company we manage to find and hold onto. It's not about the journey or the destination. The journey is f*cked, but if we have someone to share the same shitty journey with, it's better. And the destination really doesn't matter.

I've been alone most of my life, but the short time I had with my person was different. I found someone who I could trust openly to give and receive love, and it changed my entire world. After losing this person, I now understand that sharing the journey makes the difference. I believe that with the right company, the small things in life can be enjoyed enough, even if in the end the company and happiness may not be lasting.

Tbh, even sharing things here with this community makes a difference. If I had to pick a "happy" time in a day, time spent here would count as making my day better (even if that sounds sad).

 

[EmptyBottle]

Good points, hopefully u will find someone for u.

Also, glad that sharing with the community helps u. It helps me too, to both read and type stuff here. Previously, this was my main forum for a bit, but now, I use it as well as TFES, it is interesting how the forum games sometimes resemble the games here.