i lashed out at this guy, i ended up breaking his jaw and fractured his skull. the reason why i did it is because i loathed him (not jealousy) but he would also make snide comments and be this happy go lucky dude always joking and trying to impress the girls or whatever at my expense. i ended up going to jail for a while and i still remember the look on my colleagues faces when i did it, needless to say its been a spiral since then
Thank you for sharing , I'm so sorry he bullied you like this , I have also been on the receiving end of bullying. I wish you were not jailed , and wishing you peace.
going off at an ex bcus i was convinced they were cheating on me making long posts abt how terrible they were, blocking friends bcus i was convinced they were gonna kill me and that last one is why to this day why i have a stalker now bcus they didn't take too kindly to my blocking them despite the psychotic delusions i was under when doing it and they know this. so. proving me right, really. bcus they will definitely kill me.
Well besides my romantic failures which I've already discussed at length, my most self destructive action might have been getting my bachelor's degree without really retaining any of the information I learned. Most assignments I just used things like Chegg or Quizlet. If Chat-GPT had existed back then I would definitely have used that too. I cheated to get my degree and also cheated myself out of the knowledge and skills which ultimately might not even have mattered anyway because no jobs would really hire me anyway.
How did you get away with this ? I heard there is systems now teachers use to identify plageurized work ,
I am trying to help my one friend graduate ( one of my last good deeds ) but we will have to do some cheating , because the work is downright boring anyways…. I thought we'd have to use a app like you mentioned like the GPT but then I'd have to rephrase it all
because I'm scared the teacher will catch on, so I guess kinda still work …. Sorry if this is off topic … you just rang a bell with me … my lights have been off
I don't think I have that bad of a self-destructive streak. I have engaged in some self-destructive behaviours before, like when I used to starve myself and and force myself to vomit because I felt fat and I wanted to lose some weight before one of my ctb attempts, or that time where I decided to drink over half a bottle of vodka (that was a mistake, lol), or that time where I blocked all of friends back and high school and completely cut them out of my life, or that time where I decided to do shrooms for the first time without properly measuring out the dosages because I didn't have a pocket scale on me and I didn't give a shit about it potentially going down south, and so on.
Maybe deciding to start cutting was the worst, idk. Honestly, my past self-destructive tendencies are so mild that even the worse isn't that bad.
Hey I think these are self destructive but I don't know if there is a tier rating system ….
Once due to anxiety I almost considered barricading my doors and letting my landlord call the police just to claim rent because I feared people for some reason and I was completely willing to deal with the consequences instead of not paying rent …. Like ….
ahh I think there is levels to it , but what you're describing does sound self destructive , not to be rude at all sorry if it comes across like that,
I relapsed for cutting again last night after being clean for a little and my ankles are re cut and I've been hiding my cuts with socks , I always notice how nowadays people seem to laugh or shame self harm scars even … so I decided to cut in a place they couldn't see …. I just wish people didn't comment at all….
I'm wishing you an okay night