Get fucked aka sexully abused as a child then Cut off your only social connection to another human you met from your boonie town and severe that connection after they go away and you keep them on a string to then just cut the line after an old flame comes into your life again and promises to whisk you away and "save you" as long as you
"forget about them" Forget about the one person who would tell me "your the most unique person I've met" "you dont take shit" "your my best friend" "well i will never abandon you" ,,
You just have to forget and give up your confidence and give up your self respect,, you juat have to fit there preferred stereotype, you just have to close yourself off from the world more then you already where, to stay inside to,, stay along the lit path,, and to keep keep keep on smiling.
All you have to do is give up what little of yourself you already dont have..